i'm such an unhappy ger lately...yet still putting up a smiley face each day....i have no idea what's wrong with me either. Will i go crazy one day? Maybe i would...
i juz wana be free and go somewhere to be by myself. Enjoy the peace i longed for and hear what my heart's telling me. Havent had time to do that for a long long time. Tears simply flow down my cheeks too easily...way too easily.....
i have no idea when was the last time i had a good nite sleep...when was the last time i truly smiled from my heart?i'm 23...a critical age i would say..at least for me. Where next?What next?And How?? Am i doing things rite? Am i making the rite decisions? i duno.....what do i want??Life's full of challenges....this i know...it takes alot to overcome them....this i know too.....but i'm juz so tired.....physically and mentally...i'm so scared! Of wat i duno....
What do i know??Everyone ard me's facing problems too.....its so scary...Why is life so miserable at times?Is the Big Guy up there really watching over us each day? i bet he is...maybe he's juz taking a break from me....ya he muz be...
i'm so afraid to fall asleep each nite becoz i know after i wake up...it'll be a brand a new day of challenge waiting for me. I have never been this vulnerable....hate this feeling...but wat can i do? Where that cheerful and optimistic Vic that i know? in the closet maybe.....lost and tired...
