seriously how much more dumb,idiotic,insensitive can a guy get???i honestly dun wana know!!pissed & angry's written all over my face yet nothing's done......well one may be really really insensitive to not know the reason y that ger's angry but is he really that dumb to not at least notice that the ger IS angry????gers never mean wat they say rite!!when we say no does it really mean NO?!!GOD HELP ME!
is pacifiying gf THAT much of a chore to a guy????say,do,buy,or even try to do something....is it really so tough??are gers really that hard to please????all we need is juz that bit more love,that bit more attention and that more sweet talk isnt it???
sleeping in the train,going to sleep when guy got home....that all seems quite normal but not when one know his gf's angry with him rite?!?!!!haiz......probly i'm really asking for way too much....way way too much.........or am i??well...like rach say..if he can go sleep then y shd i cry or lose sleep??ya man....nite peeps!
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
Monday, April 25, 2005
Its a beautiful monday!
its my monday off once again!wahaha!!slept till 11 this morning...slack ard...bath,gg to the gym after this then gg to buy my levis jeans!wahah!!shop shop ard....how nice!I LOVE SHOPPING!!juz got paid but quite broke already...bills bills bills!!!
my weekend was alright...went to my cousin's wedding dinner at Marriot on fri...food was good!haha!!Sat was bad...gota work!Ytd was alright....spent the whole day with uncle toh...went shopping at suntec..its him doing all the shopping really!!afterwhich had dinner with my relatives at Long Beach...know uncle toh dread it but well he practically had no choice!wahaha!!later in the evening we went to rent vcd at this 24hrs vcd rental thingy near my place...quite cool!haha!!rented 50 first dates...quite nice!
So looking forward to the end of this week!!!going KL with Uncle Toh this long weekend!!so exciting!!!finally gg on a trip after soo long!haiz....thou its KL but still!!its out of spore!!hahaha!!
How time flies isnt it?!its May already!!!!we're already into the mid of 2005!!!man!!!scary............
Alright...gota go return vcd then going to gym..after sooo very long!!wahaah~!at least i do ok!!*smilez*
my weekend was alright...went to my cousin's wedding dinner at Marriot on fri...food was good!haha!!Sat was bad...gota work!Ytd was alright....spent the whole day with uncle toh...went shopping at suntec..its him doing all the shopping really!!afterwhich had dinner with my relatives at Long Beach...know uncle toh dread it but well he practically had no choice!wahaha!!later in the evening we went to rent vcd at this 24hrs vcd rental thingy near my place...quite cool!haha!!rented 50 first dates...quite nice!
So looking forward to the end of this week!!!going KL with Uncle Toh this long weekend!!so exciting!!!finally gg on a trip after soo long!haiz....thou its KL but still!!its out of spore!!hahaha!!
How time flies isnt it?!its May already!!!!we're already into the mid of 2005!!!man!!!scary............
Alright...gota go return vcd then going to gym..after sooo very long!!wahaah~!at least i do ok!!*smilez*
Monday, April 18, 2005
lalalalalalala mode
juz before the match
smile!
dustbin's so in the way..
reading back my last blog..i do sound really dumb...but that was indeed how i felt at that point...so no regrets!hahahaha plus with the endless love of uncle toh...hmmmm.....nothing else quite matter at the end of the day...*smile*
the above pictures were taken at boat quay ytd..juz before Newcastle via Man-U match.well man-u won 4-1....ya baby...wait till they meet ARSENAL in the finals!it'll probly be 4-1 to Arsenal...wahahaha!!!
haiz....its monday once again!!sian!!work's seriously piling up!!getting crazy each day!got like 101 write ups waiting to write...endless man!!i'll be off on fri...so cant wait for thurs!!!gota wk on sat thou...so pretty dumb!still!!!its a day off so watever........and fri's payday!!!*evil grin*
Vic's Shopping List (FOR THE MOMENT)
Levis jeans CONFIRM!!!
Topshop pants/skirt/top everything there!!!
DKNY Watch (still thinking...hmmM)
SHOESSSSSSS!
BAGSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!
i wana go shopping this wkend 4 sure!!deprive from REAL shopping for so blardy long...its abt time baby.....hhahahaa!!!going KL next week thou...which means more shopping!!oh nooooooo!!!!Vic's getting out of hand!wahaha!!*drama mama*
k....not quite in the mood to write...Mic know u'll be reading,pls pls be strong and msg me if u want someone to talk to k??BE STRONG my ger! :)
Friday, April 15, 2005
Thursday, April 14, 2005
I'm Lost again.....
Juz back from drinking with val...suppose to feel good but somehow somewhere within me i'm feeling so sad...so sad that i dun even feel like sleeping...how i hate this feeling....really sleepy yet can't sleep.
Feeling so insecure abt everything ard me,with myself.Lost all the trust that i thought i've built over the last mth or so...gone in the wind!Another lesson learnt:never bear hopes in anything,yes..anything!The higher the hopes....the more disappointment one will get!Ever had the feeling of looking into someone's eyes and feel that everything's so wrong?A pair of eyes looking at u so deeply yet u still feel insecure...you juz cant't seem to figure wat's going in his mind..that's exactly how i'm feeling now......
Over the last mth or so i've honestly tried my very best to open up,to come out of Vic's world,learning how to trust..how to love again,be the me that i always wanted to be,how to share as a couple,voice out when i'm not happy and not avoiding when a problem arise.But apparently i'm wrong..so wrong!i should never have trusted so soon,fall so soon,come out of my world so soon & be so vulnerable.I never should have left my comfort zone to an area i'm so not used to,a world that seems so cold and so distant.Vic Vic....when will u ever learn ur lesson?!!?DAMN ME!
It may be a little pwuny effort but i really am putting in my best each day...probly not my very best but after all the hurt i've been put thru over the yrs...its seriously my very best....in my context at least.....
i know i'm being the emotional baby once again but i juz need to get this off tonight else i know i'll wash my face with tears tonight.....which i already am now....
My 21st bday wish 2 yrs back was to be truly happy for the next few 21 yrs of my life and i'm wking towards that every single day of my life....even till now i still pray for miracle.When i attend Novena..i ask for nothing but Peace and Happiness...every night when i pray i ask the Lord for His Grace of Peace and Happiness.....
How on earth can one be feeling so happy and loved juz 36hrs ago but yet now feeling so shitty...
Guardian Angel.....where r u when i need u the most???
Feeling so insecure abt everything ard me,with myself.Lost all the trust that i thought i've built over the last mth or so...gone in the wind!Another lesson learnt:never bear hopes in anything,yes..anything!The higher the hopes....the more disappointment one will get!Ever had the feeling of looking into someone's eyes and feel that everything's so wrong?A pair of eyes looking at u so deeply yet u still feel insecure...you juz cant't seem to figure wat's going in his mind..that's exactly how i'm feeling now......
Over the last mth or so i've honestly tried my very best to open up,to come out of Vic's world,learning how to trust..how to love again,be the me that i always wanted to be,how to share as a couple,voice out when i'm not happy and not avoiding when a problem arise.But apparently i'm wrong..so wrong!i should never have trusted so soon,fall so soon,come out of my world so soon & be so vulnerable.I never should have left my comfort zone to an area i'm so not used to,a world that seems so cold and so distant.Vic Vic....when will u ever learn ur lesson?!!?DAMN ME!
It may be a little pwuny effort but i really am putting in my best each day...probly not my very best but after all the hurt i've been put thru over the yrs...its seriously my very best....in my context at least.....
i know i'm being the emotional baby once again but i juz need to get this off tonight else i know i'll wash my face with tears tonight.....which i already am now....
My 21st bday wish 2 yrs back was to be truly happy for the next few 21 yrs of my life and i'm wking towards that every single day of my life....even till now i still pray for miracle.When i attend Novena..i ask for nothing but Peace and Happiness...every night when i pray i ask the Lord for His Grace of Peace and Happiness.....
How on earth can one be feeling so happy and loved juz 36hrs ago but yet now feeling so shitty...
Guardian Angel.....where r u when i need u the most???
Monday, April 11, 2005
Told u i'll be back.....*winkz*
our dear old jess's 5mths pregnant
me & rach with the sexy mama!
Finally met up with our 5mths pregnant jess!she's looking good....way better than she did 2 mths ago...hahaha!!that's a good sign....went PS for lunch on sunday..too bad mic & val cant make it!!but there's always another day....haha!!no worries...more to come i believe..as her tummy gets bigger & bigger each day!she told us that she can feel her little boy kicking her now...hmmmmm!!!BOYSSSS...wahahah!!she also share with us how marriage life has been so far.....interesting.....*smile*
Havent been blogging for pretty long.....usually tired after i come home....so basically NO TIME!wahaha!work's alright..so far so good...but damn my back's hurting again....had massage ytd but apparently its of NO HELP at all.......sian!!its basically my spine and lower back that hurts not the back muscle that's y massage dun help bah....NO IDEA!!!
So feel like dancing & clubbing these few days...BADLY!but dun really wana go on wed coz i know i'll stay till very late.....thurs gota blardy hell work....but after not paying cover for nearly a yr or so,the thought of going on fri and forking out 15 to 20 over bucks is like...should i!?!know what i mean.....hahaha!!well....i'll go think abt that...*winkz* but still i want my weekly dose of booze.....val juz asked if i wana go..wahahaha!!!got kaki surely go mah..free somemore...yes i'm damn cheapskate when it comes to drinking...
Manage to catch quite a few shows lately...most recent being The Pacifier...Vin Diesel's SSSEEEEEXXXYYYY...men in white T,cargo pants...how much more sexier can a man get??!!?!that's wat Brad Pitt look REAAAAL good in as well....*drooling*i always believe that a good nice cargo pants is all a man ever need...with a nice pair of sandals....*died of excitment* wahahah!!but that show's really nice....Be cool's not too bad either...black comedy,wat i enjoy....but the plot's really bad thou....
Time to bath...............................................and zzzz!!*snore*
Monday, April 04, 2005
Let us all pray for our Holy Father
havent been blogging for a long long time already!too busy to really....today's my off day...man how i enjoyed it!!!1 full day of sleeping.....damn how i missed this!!havent had much sleep for the past few weeks...its indeed a well deserve rest for me!wahaha!!
went drinking with rach & val last wed and so much emotions within 4hrs...seeing val like she did was the most heart-broken thing ever for me for the longest time.Me & rach were totally lost for words and the least we could do was to be by her side.Seeing her breakdown was like....shitty.guess she bottle up for way too long..its abt time we believe.cried for half hr after going home too...no idea y but i juz did.Probly i can truly feel how she felt...duno.seeing a gd frd having to go thru wat she is gg thru is simply too much bah....heart broken's the word really...
I'm living in LOVE LAND for the past few weeks too...wahaha!!havent felt so loved for way too long.Have met someone who taught me how to love again...feeling so blessed.Never thought i would ever say this but i probly have met the love of my life....after so many yrs i never thought i could ever trust again but somehow somewhere for the last few weeks....there's a brand new meaning to the word Trust for me.*smile*
A final prayer....
Jesus said."Abide in Me, and I in you... for apart from Me you can do nothing."
John 15:4-5
Our Holy Father may no longer be with us on Earth but he's back in God's Kingdom,in the arms of our Heavenly Father.Be sad no more as its God's Will to take him away...We juz have to believe that God always have His plans for us.......
went drinking with rach & val last wed and so much emotions within 4hrs...seeing val like she did was the most heart-broken thing ever for me for the longest time.Me & rach were totally lost for words and the least we could do was to be by her side.Seeing her breakdown was like....shitty.guess she bottle up for way too long..its abt time we believe.cried for half hr after going home too...no idea y but i juz did.Probly i can truly feel how she felt...duno.seeing a gd frd having to go thru wat she is gg thru is simply too much bah....heart broken's the word really...
I'm living in LOVE LAND for the past few weeks too...wahaha!!havent felt so loved for way too long.Have met someone who taught me how to love again...feeling so blessed.Never thought i would ever say this but i probly have met the love of my life....after so many yrs i never thought i could ever trust again but somehow somewhere for the last few weeks....there's a brand new meaning to the word Trust for me.*smile*
A final prayer....
Jesus said."Abide in Me, and I in you... for apart from Me you can do nothing."
John 15:4-5
Our Holy Father may no longer be with us on Earth but he's back in God's Kingdom,in the arms of our Heavenly Father.Be sad no more as its God's Will to take him away...We juz have to believe that God always have His plans for us.......
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