Lost Girl...

Tears stream down my cheeks after hanging up the phone....juz couldnt help it.....especially so when i know he'll never know.......

Tried very hard to be the understanding ger for the past few weeks....but realised i'm not that good at it.......not even close.......but i know i tried.....i really did....this is the best i can do....which is nothing.....

Having this gastric cramp....cant relax...have this 'crampy'/'burning' feeling.....cant eat too full..yet cant go hungry....have been feeling shitty for the whole day...cant take mc coz i got so many things to follow up...thought wanted to tmr but got meeting...then got all my datelines to meet.....WELL!!at least i know mama cares for me....ask me how i am 1st thing in the morning,made me breakfast,called to ask if i got eat lunch...then called again to ask if i'm ok,cook sucky porridge for me....at least i know someone cares......

meeting the gers tmr for dinner!!will try to make more time for them....maybe meeting rach for movie or something over the weekend....since i'm not wking on Sat..

Have been thinking alot tonight and finally get my priorities right.........i muz never rely on anything or anyone too much...probly that's the reason i'm feeling like i do now......Yes..Vic is thinking.....alot....cant be that emotional baby anymore........

Brad........Pitt....

gona sleep early today..my dear unle toh went to watch STAR WARS with his friends...no one to disturb me..wahaha!!so tired still go and catch 9.45pm show...CRAZY rite?!

so fast fast...its coming june!mid of the yr and its the GSS!!time to shop shop shop again!!shoes...bags here i come!!wahahaa!!while blogging i'm also surfing ebay see see what i can buy..so many nice stuff!!i used to enjoy buying stuff from ebay..esp from US...so cheap..juz gota pay postage....but nowadays not much time on hand to do serious e-shopping man!

mic juz msg me to go drinking tmr...yippy!always happy when ppl ask me to go drinking..no idea y either...hahah!!wonder when can we club like before.....all night drinking...dancing like no tmr....club hopping.....gone are the days i guess.....

Caught the show House of Wax over the wkend.....not too bad...quite gross thou...!Chad Michael's damn sexy in that show!!*drool big time* i like......hahaha!!!anyway...so many nice shows coming up.....wana watch Monster in Law...coming out this week.....Cursed..think out Jun 2...and the veery much anticipated MR & MRS SMITH on June 9!!!!!i already have that poster hanging in my office....BRAD PITT................the ultimate SEX GOD....okok...time to sleep VIC!!

gona meet my Brad now....nite!

i'm dead

ARSENAL WON!!!!!YIPPPPIEEE!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Did roadshow for the WHOLE FUCKING DAY...i'm seriously tired....or shd i say i'm dead....my shoulder,neck,and back's killing me.....yes...killing me...so many times i feel like crying coz the pain's so unbearable and damn irritating me...i so cannot take it!it feels like i was beaten on my back by 20 guys!lower back's sooo irritating me...now even the shoulder!!URRRGGHHHH.......

so pain till cant sleep again.....i so hate this...so fucking tired yet the pain is ARRGHH!!wat i'm a little disappointed is that uncle toh never seem to understand that...................he always tries to but many a times his expression juz give him away........duno if he ever realise but that expression always makes me hate myself.i feel so obligated to do many things and if i fail to i'll be so upset with myself.......i so hate this feeling.........i'm feeling it tonight again......i really dun like the feeling of being forced into doing things i dun like to....but i have been feeling that way for the past 2 weeks......

Haiz...hungry....its already 3.20am!no choice...juz gota go sleep and hope my pain and fear will go away......the pain's so bad till i dun even feel like waking up.....

I'M LONELYYYYY

The chorus is specially dedicated/sang to my Uncle Toh...he doze off AGAIN!!haiz...I'm SOO LONELY......*winkzz*

Lonely I'm Ms Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Ms. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got that one good girl whose always been there like ya Kno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I was feenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuz ever since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Ms. Lonely (Ms. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuck
Around and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, I
Really wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Ms. Lonely (Ms. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been through never thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing u cuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made me be so happy but now so lonely


I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Ms. Lonely (Ms. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl and come on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id ever hurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

I'm so lonely (so lonely)
I'm Ms. Lonely (Ms. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, (so lonely),
Ms. Lonely, so lonely

i'm awake!!

definitely wana catch Man-U vs Arsenal match this Sat!BUT........i wking till 10pm!!stupid event....haiz!!and the match starts at 9.55pm!howwww?!!!no matter wat will go watch man!hellloo...its Arsenal winning the FA cup lor...how can i miss it?!!haha!!Uncle toh wouldnt be too happy to read this thou....BUT STILL!!!GO GUNNERS GO!!wahaha!!

So tired but cant get to sleep...no idea y man...so many thing on my mind recently.Work has been crazy...the intense pressure is out of control man!feeling scared every nite that things might not be done and what else have to be done...blah blah...its endless man!!ENDLESS!!duno how long my pwunny head can take all this shit but well, hate to say this....life blardy hell goes on!so stress lately....hair looking like shit,face in bad condition,dun even bother dressing up to work....how sad rite......

Cant wait for this long weekend thou!!half day on fri!going to the gym!meeting the gers!!getting paid!!YIPPY!!so many things wana buy...........cant wait!PAY DAY!PAY DAY!PAY DAY!!!!PAY DAY!!

OUCHHHH

my back's aching again...dun think can have a good nite sleep tonite man!!haiz!!so tired yet cant sleep....how painful is that isnt it?!my back's not exactly painful kinda ache...its more of the irritating kinda ache....its making one feel so URRGEEEEE!!!!!actually was already pretty bad ytd ...sort of gotten worse today.....my back's feeling so numb,its like there's a big plaster stuck on my back...*CRRRY*

suppose to go drinking with val but she gota work OT so decided not to....met up with my uncle toh instead!!hahaha!!not that bad after all...

the past 2 days was very much hell for me....work sucks big time!!so many things to do...hard to get along superior...datelines datelines dateline!!paying me peanuts to take up such huge responsibilities and gota be put under such intense pressure..gota ans for mistakes that are not created by me....haiz....dun wana bring it up again....its over anyway....

so hungry now......so very very hungry.........feel like eating prata!!!!!!!!!haiz...shd probly try to get some sleep and dream of my prata.........

JESS is back in town!!

after so long.....


we're back!


moi & the sexy mama!!


cool!


the buddy meeting session for uncle toh...


CHEEZEEE!!


CHEEEZEE AGAIN!!

Finally get to go drinking with our dear old jess!!she had red wine lah...so its alright!!i have my OOWWWWWW black russian!!after sooo long!!hahaha!!was a short one but i truly enjoy it very much!!wat i really like...a simple drink with friends.It was quite last min...they msg me ard 5+ to ask if i wana go WALA then i was like y not?!i will never give up the chance to meet up with them nor the chance to drink!!hahaha!!was suppose to meet another frd today but well as usual she cant make it....wat's new anyway?!think i asked her 3 times and always end up not meeting....i seriously will not try for the 4th time......i have other frds that i treasure more man!!hahaha!!at least i know i tried!!

Went WALA and saw jess's bro there as well!!haha!luckily i brought camera!!nowadays i never leave home w/o my cam....haiz...so missed the times when me and the gers go clubbing and drinking...but guess we all grow up and proceed to different stages in life...Jess's gona name her baby JOSH!!so cool rite!!nice name!!!my potential godson's name is JOSHHH!hehehe!!really touched that Val have been doing her best to meet up with us despite her busy schedule...that's wat frds are for...always there at the rite time...felt quite bad when i couldnt go dbo with her last wed so decided to go today to make it up!!i'm not that of a bad frd afterall rite...waahaha!!

so pissed and disappointed with uncle toh...the juz have to end my lovely day like that...haiz....as usual he didnt realise it and went to sleep.......yes that's my bf...

SAFRA annual D&D

My first company D&D and guess wat...its actually at SAFRA Mt Faber..my office is at Mt Faber which honestly made it worse!!juz one floor down onlY!!everyone so dun have the mood!!but well it was alright lah...not THAT bad....hahhaa!!!the theme was circus...so DUHH rite...hahaha!!!the food seriously suck BIG TIME!!!!aiyo!!!everyone was like...ewww!!!everything ended at abt 1.30am....but i left ard 12.30 coz uncle toh came to fetch me,plus the fact that it was indeed boring towards the end...ok lah!!lazy to write...juz look at the pictures ya!!


the pretty gers of SAFRA!haha


my colleagues and boss


me & my manager

*snore*

went KL with uncle toh during the long weekend....thought it was meant to be my shopping trip BUT who knows its actually my uncle toh that shops like no tomorrow!!!hahaha!!bought so many polo T......

Well think we both were kinda looking forward for that trip since we already hardly have time for each other...so that 3 days's really well deserve and we did enjoy ourselves...like wat uncle toh always say..its not where but who that matters.

We stayed at Berjaya Time Square and MAN that place's BIG!!so many many many shops!!y cant spore have a shopping mall like that too???everything under one roof kind...hahaha!!!

So busy at wk lately....and i meant REALLLLY busy..busy and tired....so much so that thou its a wed today yet i'm home....cant believe i turn down val today!!haiz...i really wana go for my weekly dose of shots but.....seriously cannot take it!!tmr gota wk OT...fri got company d&d.....next weekend burn again!!got event....haiz!!today's a super stressful day for me...irritated and pissed was written all over my face and i simply hate that feeling yet i cant help it......so many things to do..soooo many datelines....intense pressure...so much till i cant take it!!my back's aching AGAIN!!!till its making me so pek chek.....i hate that feeling too...wana go c a doc but no time...by the time i get home already wat time.....wkend also no time...haiz!!!HELPPPPP!!!!!!


lovey dovey...


my dear uncle toh...


wat were we thinking?!!


taking a break and trying to be funny again


the ever famous KL zouk!


2 adorable monkeys!!


in our hotel room


still smiling on the last day!!