Make me an instrument of Your peace

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace.Where there is hatred,let me sow love;where there is injury,pardon;where there is doubt,faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness,light;where there is sadness,joy.

O,Divine Master,grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;to be understood as to understand;to be loved as to love;For it is in giving that we receive;it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;it is in dying that we are born again to eternal life.

Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Rainy Thurs

this whole month sucked really...its in fact one of the downs of my life,cant allow myself to fall any deeper..where,i have no idea.One can say i'm cheating myself but who cares!its not easy to be all cheerful when deep down i'm so not,smiley when i feel like crying,hang out w frds when all i wana do is to stay in my room to comfort myself in front of the mirror..but hey,no one told me that life's gona be a bed of roses..no one mention that everything in life will go my way..SO?The cruel fact is that life goes on...we shd be spreading joy,not misery to the ppl ard us...

Many will say Vic..so cynical,skeptical abt everything,i guess i am...and i do not see anything wrong with that.i'm no saint..no doubt i'm optimistic abt alot in life but hey..we cant be hiding in our own lalaland all our lives!u can say i'm being hard on myself by doing so but dun we only learnt thru the hard way?i'm juz trying to be realistic..it's alright to be sad & complain/whine coz we are afterall human,we have emotions..things like that,beyond our control.Wat next?to be a loser & whine 24/7?let the whole world know how miserable we r?is sympathy a remedy?probably....

ppl who knows me will know that i'm very open when it comes to sharing...can talk abt anything under the sun..but 2 things i dun quite share - My Love Life & Family issues,2 that are close to my heart so there's really no need to share except to 1 or 2 close buds.

so much running thru my mind coz alot of frds ard me havent been feeling too happy.My good buds will know that I never quite say things to keep them in their lalaland but will bring them back to sucky earth..haha!how difficult is it to say nice words man?"ohh..no worries,everything will be alright" "dun cry,its not your fault" duhh!!when we are not in the right mind to analyze,we need rational and constructive advises..hmmm...guess this doesnt apply to all ya..so i'm truly blessed to have frds that will always pull me back to yes...sucky earth!i dun need ppl to keep telling me things will be alright..i'll feel better as time goes by when I'M NOT!CRAP...

Alright...enough of the depressing stuff..on a lighter note..IT'S MID WEEK!!hehe!!& 1 MORE DAY TO PAYDAY!!broke,so cant go drinking till then..but i will on FRI!hahaha!!going wala wala...heard so much abt that place from jess & val so its time to go c c look look..haha!!it has been a long time since the 3 of us went drinking coz val's soo busy lately..well we're all slaves for $$..who isnt ya!

ARGHH!!all the drilling & knocking from next door's killing me!!!STOPPPPP!!!!damn irritating!!!

Don't Tell Me

You held my hand and walked me home
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

I'm better off alone anyway

Miserable Week...when its only Monday!

damn!!!Jay Chou really extend his show to 2 days!!ARRGHHHH!!!*bang head against the wall*

my wkend was farking boring!spend the whole sat ZzzZ...sunday went church then met up with mag..alright lah...meeting up with mag was not boring..hehe!!havent seen her for like so long lor!my official sis in Christ..haha!!went Bugis & saw so many things i wana buy!!PAYDAY!!!PAYDAY!!!!but still i bought a ring & 2 braclet!!NICE!!!hahaha!!!watch New Police Story...DAMN!!!!do Daniel Wu look good man!!!Vic hereby declare Daniel Wu the sexiest man in Asia...EVER!!Oh man...how on earth can an Asian man look so fine?!!if only i have a bf looking THAT good sia...alright...i'm in my lalaland again!*smiLez* my $8.50 was well spent!!helllooo to watch Daniel Wu....err...Jackie WHO???

Had sinful food ytd!!Apple crumble from swensons but wwwwoooo....its good!!!well...ok lah..going kickboxing again today...so shd burn some calories..haha!!*always cheating myself* Aiyo..i'm gona be a good ger till i get my pay sia!!no more shopping....no Zara,Topshop,no good food,no drinking....no clubbing...Arghhhh!!!!KILL ME MAN!!!

Think i've been attracting the wrong kind of guys lately.....so wrong!!!Oh no...HELP ME!!well.....think juz kill me again ya....*DIED*

Why am i here??!

sitting here in the office crapping & playing online pool with izaar again...hahaa!!it has somehow become a norm for us every sat..it's damn redundant to come wk on sat lor!*switch off mode*

ytd was fri but damn boring....time passes SOOO slow!!went nowhere....head straight home after wk...cook maggie..watch telly then basically did nothing!!this wkend's gona be damn crap too...no plans AT ALL!!aiyo....today after wk going kickboxing..then most prob will head home..meeting a buyer for my bag in the evening..mama have plans this evening so will be home alone AGAIN!*damn* nowadays even my mama's more happening than i am sia!!think few yrs down the road i'll be the one nagging at her..y come back so late lah...go where...with who?hahaha!!

joy joy...cant wait for u to come back from china/bkk man!!haha!!keeping my fingers cross that they'll have what i ask u to buy for me!!hehe!!& cant wait to go shopping with u again next mth..ok..i'm counting down...4 more dayzzzzzzzz...*wiNkz*

i'm already planning for xmas man...hey..& its really not too early..every yr so last min then plan!always end up at crappy places!so this yr muz really plan something interesting!hahaha!!but first of all gota fix a date!!!something that we guys can never ever compromise!!24th?25th?26th?aiyo!!gota shop early for presents too...HATE CROWDS & Qs!!hmmm...buying online's quite a good idea ya......& where to go for countdown as well...haha!!s'pore's a damn boring place for big festivals like that man...its always the same old places...haiz!!well its SINGAPORE!!what can i expect ya...

damn!!it's only 10.30am...2 1/2 more hrs to go...Arrgghhhh!!HELPPPPP!!!

OC's Back!!

finally met up with val last evening..havent seen her for awhile & glad that she made the effort despite her hectic schedule.guess that's the diff btw good bud & casual frds ya...going the extra mile...alright,dun wana start preaching...

went crystal jade for dinner...*yum*,walk walk ard...went coffee club to have brownies..Eeekk!!*sucks man* brownies ala mode have not tasted so bad b4 sia!afterwhich we head to alleybar for a drink...as usual i had my black russian & damn!the chips there sure taste good!!!think whenever i go there,i eat more chips than i drink...haha!!its refillable anyway.....so juz eat ya!!had a good long chat with val & i sure know y we are good bud man...we share the same vision in many things.. relationship...life,work..ya man!no way can i can live my whole life with a nice man who can only provide me with stability & security...i'm one greedy woman....*smiLez* well who isnt?

Izaar was juz telling me his ghostly encounter at his gf's place last nite...straight in the face kind!ewwwww........*spooky*

will be home alone tonite man..mama going church..so will have to cook maggie..but shit!no eggs!!what's maggie w/o eggs...haiz...prob will go da-bao from hougang pt then,so lazy to cook...eekk...the sucky place that sells sucky food....

Set adrift on memory bliss of you

Count the days the hourglass
Days go and all I do is think of you
And wonder where you are at night
I remember everything
Every smile even all the reasons why
You say I pushed you out of my mind

Baby you set me
Set adrift on memory bliss of you

Destiny is everything
Reality's replaced you with
The biggest emptiness
You've ever had in life
Bet you say that I don't care
Bet you say that I don't even think of you
But god knows how wrong you are

Baby will you be there
Just give me time
To fix my life
Baby will you be there
When I open my eyes
After all the time I've spent
Wishing you

Sadness has overwhelmed me
But my thoughts carelessly
Imagine that you're happy
With your life right now
I guess that's just the way life goes
Forever's gone so now I must
Place you with all the things
That I could never have

Sad Thurs??i hope not!

Today don't seem like a very good thurs for many ya..Izaar on urgent leave coz gf admitted to hospital..both Mic i know are having a bad day/week.Aiya..Mic,wat's up with u & Alfred?can meet up to 'su ku' if u want ya..anytime!!& ya u sucky beer cum gin tonic drinker!eekk!!haha!!no worries man..u r not alone,i'm a weired alcoholic too!i drink nothing but liquor..BLACK RUSSIAN!!!haha!!absolutely NO beer or wine *puke* like wat jess always say..i'm a sadist when it comes to drinking coz i LOVE the 'burning sensation'..WATEVER ya!hahaha!!

Mish,know u'll be reading this..once again WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD!nothing's easy..NOTHING!!the only way to 'survive' is to adapt to watever is coming..not the other way round ya...alot of things are really beyond our control..we juz have to make the best out of ourselves..its always easier to change ourselve to adapt to everything than to change everything juz to suit us..know wat i mean...i'm sure u do!lower our expectations..make life easier,for us as well as the ppl ard us.it's ok to complain (coz i always do!) but the impt thing is to complain & move on...if there's nothing we can do then its not our fault ya..dun have to be so hard on oneself..dun have to make our life so miserable ya...sing with me again!!"ALwayz loOk on The BrigHt siDe of life..lalala!!!" And yes..He is always listening..juz that are we willing to spend the time to allow Him to do so....

rush home to catch the finale of Amazing Race...damn!!Chip & Kim won....dun really think they deserve it but well...Colin's not that bad afterall ya...he broke down & said he love Christy & that's all that matters..which is true!hahaha!!its exp sweet when words like that come out from a guy like colin...brandon's very sweet too...oohh...those curls..sexy..haha!!a lot of reality tv coming up..America's Next Top Model 2's coming back...Tyra Banks..one of my fave models...gota watch!in fact i'll watch anything lah..i'm a reality tv freak.

Do Penquins Sit?

haha!!!i know i'm crappy lately..asking real dumb questions & irritating the hell out of ppl esp izaar..but he still entertain me saying they dun sit but squat...& apparently he's rite!ya rite!!!haha!!asking him y pink's en evil colour..r snails blind..do starfishes have hands..blah blah...Hey imagine this..a whole row of penguins SITTING by the ocean stoning or even smoking!...hahaa!!Alright..juz ignore what i juz said!all morning we both have been chatting on msn,playing online pool & damn!he's good!

Damn reLAX today coz no one's in the office!thou i have a few product launches coming up....haha!!yeah..it's mid-week!time passes damn fast ya....which also means my next pay's coming soon....hehe!!saw this Burberrys wallet last week...hmmmmm!!!shd i shd i not..well i DO need a wallet anyway....howssss?!haha!!Every month b4 payday i'll draw up a shopping list...which is not good man!!there's a few good shops at lucky chinatown..bags r like damn cheap..& yes i have a weakness for bags..bags!!!!

I've been trying to get rid of my stuff at ebay...haha!!i can sell..& buy again!in that case mama got no excuse saying i waste $$ ya...Vic's so smart!response have been quite ok...not too bad!haha!!met a buyer at Orchard mrt last sat..but the fark thing is i took down her hp no wrongly..& she dun have my no...i only know she's call Li Hoon!I did the most embarassing thingy...which was to ask everyone waiting there...errr sorry but r u Li Hoon?& Mic we always do stuff like that together ah..the super paiseh stuff!that time was outside Alfred's camp..hahaha!!Thank God i managed to find her man!else gota take that big shoes box to jess's place...

Today's wed but i'll be a good ger..no drinking session till next mth...haha!!guess juz not in the mood bah...jess also feeling the same way..it's only a break,not like i'll quit drinking!duhhh....kidding me?!Mic & jess if u're reading this...where to for ur bday bash?u can run but u cant hide ya..not after what i went thru for my bday!*wiNkz*

Who was here?

Izaar's damn cranky today man!!hahaha!!everything that he says & do is super lame but i like!haha!!Well at least something to brighten my day! *smiLez**

Ytd was juz another boring day...head straight to home after wk..dinner,slack,watch tv..chat with Rovin till abt 11+..aiyo..are all NS guys so bored when they are in camp??haha!!but he's funny lah...then ZzzzzZZ

Havent mention this to anyone but mama...there's a few 'strange happenings' in my office lately..take this morning for example,me & Izaar are normally the first to come to the office and before that we'll have breakfast at the cafe.From downstairs we saw that the main door was wide open so we were thinking..wah who will come so early.All along we thought it was our Sales Director coz at times he'll come early.After breakfast,we went up then errrr....the door was closed & locked,went in the lights & air-con's on.....i dun quite believe stuff like that so was telling izaar prob he went for breakfast or something...then at abt 9.45..my sales & bdd director came in the office...errrr & they say they juz arrive only...STRANGE!!!my MD dun come in till 12...technical ppl also dun come in till 10+..SO WHO WAS IN HERE??????????

Is salt still call salt when its no longer salty?

I'm so tired to even type man!So many things running thru my mind this morning but yeah...brain dead again..slept like damn late last nite...got home at abt 9pm, went out again to drink with another frd at abt 10pm..so to be precise i got home officially at 1.30am.

Guess who i saw this morning?BEN!!another hougang neighbour of mine...he's working!!hahha!!alright...my impression of Ben has always been a rich brat(the good brat)...always helping out at church..super slack..eat eat eat & sleep..no worries abt anything...WAH!!But he's working part-time!how cool ya...hahaha!!!think will get to see him more often coz we both gota take NEL to Outram....!!But Ben,seriously u still look good with that additional 15Kg *i swear* u never looked bad anyway...guys look better with that excess fats...but u gota STOP hor...no more additionl 15kg!hahaha!!

Ya...i'm STILL not over the salt thingy..shit should have asked Ben this morning!I'm sure he'll have the ans for me,he always do..well hope i'll see him tmr!

My wkend was quite boring yet fruitful..(do ppl still use this word?!)Anyway,went Mt E to treat my lower back pain that has been bugging me for the longest time,duhh...was asked to go for a $480 scan of my spine coz she suspect one of the disc is out of shape & hitting the nerve.she then recommend me to do physiotherapy for a week which i'm still considering!!Told my mama abt it and scare the hell out of her man!haha!!u know lah..old ppl..physiotherapy is a BIG word..afterwhich..played mahjong at jess's place,and i lost!haiz..its ok lah..we had fun still!!Hey..babychamp taste quite gd...and jess hope u enjoyed the red wine we got u ya!Know u'll like lah...sucky beer & wine drinker *wiNkz*

Sun is the norm lor..church..then went lunch at Bishan with Mish & Daph followed by evening mass with Mish & the rest..dinner with Mic & Kelvin then home..Oh no!!i actually spent the whole day with MISH!!!But class was damn funny ya!Victor=Funny!haha!!Wat is a role play w/o him!It'll be fun to have a little bro like him rite!Duno if Jorlyn will think otherwise..haha!!But he's really a darling lah..AND I WANA WATCH HAROLD & KUMAR!!!!*cry*

Woww..quite a few ppl from church gona watch Jay Chou's concert...Nicola,Jamine..but damn!Jasmine actually manage to get the $148 seats...me and Nicola only got the $128 ones..haiz..watever lah!!Me & Nicola were saying there better not be additional show man!!Or else i'll kill myself ya!

So slack mood today sia...think i everyday also slack mood lah ya!hahaha!!!Gota be the pasta i had ytd man...feel like shitting now.....

Yippy Friday

Feeling chirpy but izaar's on mc today..:( had food poisoning...haiz...for once i have to be good and not irritate anyone...

On most mornings i'll see this dude at the bus stop..(we both gota take the NEL lah)he's not like drop dead gorgeous or super cute but he dress to kill man!Well at least it killed me..hahha!!havent seen too many guys ard with good dress sense for a long long time..his style..I LIKE...today i see him again..he's wearing:

White long sleeve T acc by red short sleeve T
Beige cargo pants
Big Adidas sling
Dark Green Birkenstock
Super cool sunglass

Everytime i see him he's so well dressed(with broad shoulders & hips)..ragged look,spot with a mohican hairstyle!!(Vic like...!)think ytd he was wearing white T/grey sweater/dark blue jeans/adidas kickboxing shoes.Wooooooo....i'm always impress with guys/gals that knows how to dress WELL.But sad to say spore guys are WAY too boring to watch man!!Wat's with the endless black/blue t-shirts??!Sneakers are the ONLY thingy they'll wear...duhhh...anyone realise that toes look kinda sexy too?And thinking wearing shirt with jeans is impressive?THINK AGAIN!!!It 's high time someone go tell them that its not!alot of guys will say spore so hot,wat else to wear?duhhh...it simply a waste of time talking to guys like that man!HOPELESS!!!!And Nike's not the only place selling T ya..ZARA too!nicer,hiper & chic!Alright...all the above are simply what i feel...some girls might like 'simple dressing' guys but no no for me man!u can not look good but u HAVE to dress good.....and guys our age using wireless earpieace..-_- PLEASSSEEE!!!It not cool man...super turn off...

It's 10.30 but i'm still alone in the office..haha!!Blasting Usher's songs and singing like nobody's business...who cares man!!haha!!lalala....lalaa....

Damn!Jay Chou's $148 concert tix are all sold out!!!The seatings left for $128 are so pathetic!Die die wana go watch so no choice but to to take the pathetic seats left lor..was thinking to book only end of the month but Mastercard holder got priority booking..so juz log in to see WAHH!!!all the tix are selling like hotcakes man!!was telling Rach cannot man..how pathetic we also gota take coz i dun wana end up sitting at the balcony!Wah..today only the 3rd day & most of the tix have been sold....well its Jay mah...his 1st big scale concert here somemore...CAN'T WAIT!!

Vic's Nite Out

*FARK* Before this post i was already done typing but duno kay po go click what then everything's gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!me and my itchy finger!!!!ARRRRRRGGHH!!!

2.30am - came back from zouk
2.45am - towel in hand but still stoning on my comfy sofa
2.50am - mama started scolding me
3.00am - before mama starts yelling at me..i decided to go bathe
3.15am - mama cont her nagging (y i wash my hair lah..come home so late blahblah..)
3.30am - ~ZzzZzz~
6.30am - *damn* woke up thinking its already 7.30!!
7.30am - mama sleeps beside me & STARTED NAGGING!!!!ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!
7.40am - had enough of 'wake-up nagging',drag myself to go wash up
7.45am - stone in front of the mirror doing my hair & make-up
8.05am - zombie walking to the bus stop
9.10am - reaches office & starts writing my blog with all my brain cells DEAD!

*Should have come to the office after zouk man since its juz across the road...:)

Alright..i'm not THAT stone lah...but not sure as the day passes man!hahaha!!!mambo was ok ytd..but we still stayed till 2am..haiz..wat's new anyway?!But jess ur frd's quite a good dancer ya..but i err forgot his name..haha!!in fact i dun even rememeber any of their names!*wiNkz* oh ya!!mahjong sssion this sat BUT we still short of one ka!!Rach cant make it..she got family gathering!!Anyone interested???sms me k??PLSSSS!!!heheh!!

Had dinner at this so call Jap fast food thingy at Cineleisure with jess ytd.The curry rice sucks man!!the raman that jess had looks good thou...will go try again!And yes Mic...we WALKED to dbO from cineleisure & its not THAT far lah........

Juz recieve an invitation from PAc Net to go watch a special screening of The Terminal at Lido..duhhh....only 1 tix?!i dun mind catching that show but alone??on a sat?hiaz...a tix gone to waste...haha!!wana catch harold & kumar thou..heard from izaar that it a damn funny show...prob this sunday lah ya...

My boss dropped me an email saying we'll be releasing 7 games in the next 7 weeks...haiz...time to work my arse off again...*Yaaawwwwnnn* Is it lunchtime yet?

Mambo Nuit

C'est un bon matin de mercredi et le Seigneur fait s'il vous plait ce jour un bon l'un pour tout le monde et la me.Paix...

Well apparantly Glenn's fine..lastest was that he went Bandung with his Mum so he's not in Jakarta during the bombing..*thank God* He has already contacted his very anxious godpa abt his whereabt...Think he sort of scare the hell out of everyone ya..haha!!

Aiyo...really not joining RCIY lah..met up with Ash and Eve ytd and were talking abt this thingy..many ppl are being sponsor/befriender for the wrong reasons,most of the time is for our own sake but seriously its abt giving and journeying with the neophytes or enquirers..which i'm really not capable of.If there's not enough input in someone then how are we going to spread the word?It's juz a matter of time we'll leave the ministry..alright i'm not saying we have to join a ministry and get stuck there for life but u know.....y is there a lack of sponsors every yr?Coz ppl dun know the responsibilities that comes with it,many a time we do thing coz everyone's doing it or simply for the fun of it.But at the end of the day we are not serving...so when we cant take that we leave...but really lah,RCIY not my thing..But if u guys decide to do it u'll definitely have ALL my support!!!*smiLez*

And know what Mish,i'm joining a ministry!!The Sunday Catholic Ministry...haha!!!Well guess i'll go back to being a sunday catholic for a while...then attend the Little Rock thingy once in a while....quite meaningful also mah!!*gRinz* Y are u surprise daph?u guys really touched me damn much lor!Dun know u all that well but i really never regret coming back as facil to journey with ur...serious!Well not EVERYONE in this batch touched me lah...but definitely the few that i mention....& u are one of them!*i swear* *wiNkz* U're reading my blog..and u mention not kay po juz concern rite....so at least i know u are CONCERN abt me mah...how not to be touched?!hehe!

Wed nite=ladies nite=endless drinks=MAMBO NITE! hahaha!!alot of shit happen these 2 weeks so u know lah...wouldn't allow myself to be unhappy for long coz Vie courte et nous avons obtenu pour l'apprecier au plus plein et est heureux ! Which also means Life's short & we got to enjoy it to the fullest & be happy!!haha!!Have not been practicing my french for a while but think its correct lah...but Qui les soins? (who cares?)

Sunshine After the Rain?

thanks for your comments Mish*hugz*..you are so rite,we view things differently when we are in different position.Sometimes being in the situation itself we tend to be more stubborn & still wandering in our lalaland (which i hope i'm not!)Guess alot of things requires 2 hands to clap ya?Like what i told u...many a times in life we juz gota take a step slow to allow ourself to think rationally,and sorry is quite a redundant word..y do we say sorry?It's an over-rated 5 letter word.....is Sorry a "u r forgiven' pass??Definitely not so in Vic's world...haha!!Mish u think too highly of me man..i'm no way near a firm decision maker..i juz dun like to dwell on stuff..

Had very sinful food this morning...Izaar bought me a pack of Hersey chocolates!One of the few things that i'll never say no to man!haha!!k lah..once in a while...hahaa!!(if u believe that u'll believe anything man!)

Was just reading an article that says MAC magazine voted Jude Law the sexiest man for 2004.Oh man..r u kidding me,he's the sexiest when Brad Pitt's 2nd?Jude Law's alright but he's no way the sexiest man!Vic's pick for year 2004..who else but Brad Pitt!!Follow closely by Johnny Deep then Rob Lowe..oooowwww...who else will look better in an armor than Brad in Troy?Russell Crowe?Come on!stop cheating ourself...and which man will still look good with eyeliner other than Johnny Deep in Pirates of the Carribean?Do i even have to say more for Rob Lowe(those eyessss!)(guys with attitude...Vic like...!)*drooling* ok better stop here boy else i'll go on & on & on on on....*gRinz*

Ok can anybody tell me how do i add picture and stuff onto my blog?Was that a silly question?y the hell is Mish's blog so nice with so many nice pics and background and mine...errr...i really super techno idiot so do pardon me lah...hahaha!!All the experts out there....kindly advise...*sMiLez*

P/S: i'll be praying for your safety Glenn..guess anyone who got the email from Steven would be too...

Cheaters

Are lost love that easily replaced?Where have all our basic morales and trust gone to?Aint we taught to stay faithful to our partners?If one is so easily tempted then why are we still call human and not animals?Even dogs stay faithful...y not human?

I'm too lost for words now man...y be a lover when ultimately u'll end up being a cheater?y be so nice at the beginning when the true fact is u are not?A thousand sorries will not make up for the hurt u've brought to that someone...Whatever that is said or done at this point are all plain excuses..i'm sorry but once a cheater..u'll remain as one for ur whole life..nothing beats being a cheat man..u mAY not have ur morales but i do...yes u are so right,2nd chance never did or will exist in my dictionary.

I've no idea how to end this man but guess that's life ya!And Life's GREAT man!

Gloomy Monday

Feeling super duper down over the weekend.Alot of happenings last week..well life goes on..so still gota remain cheerful and smiley...:) My wkend was quite boring..mahjong session postpone once AGAIN...haiz...no choice coz jess got show and i can't make it in the evening(mic,know u r damn disappointed..next week k?!)...sunday went church followed by lunch at S11(finally no need to eat sucky food at 322!)...went town walk walk..bought 3 CDs!!haha!!NERD,USHER and Jay Chou!!a bit waste $$ but ok lah..watch MTV music awards till abt 1am last nite..and Usher's soooo sexy....his dance move,body,smile...*drooling*

Ytd at class we were talking abt leading a Christian life..esp Catholics..gota abstain from eating meat on Fri..its so difficult to lead a Christian life man!i dun even make the effort to remember its Fri ya..but i'm seriously trying...err..not the meat part but the attending mass part..haha!!i've juz realise the imptance of attending mass and how powerful prayers can be...now that RICY's coming to an end..really gota think what's next man...quite sad to part with the new pals i've made...ppl who have touched me so blardy much!Mish,Daph,Kevin,Steven,Evelyn & all lah..esp Kevin...i really cant affirm him enough man!

Was trying to get Daph's hp number ytd but nobody seems to realise that my phone is Panasonic..and keep sending me her no. via business card..Duhhh!!!!i didnt get her number till like 10pm lor!And its HER msging me!!haiz....

Jay's latest album's cool man..esp the lovey dovey songs...can cry!!somemore feeling depress these few days...doesnt seem to help ya...haha!!but its nice lah..he's kinda cute for an asian too...i never find asian men attractive but well there're definitely exceptions..Daniel Wu,Daniel Wu,..err..think that's abt it..hahahahaha!!!

Yup..juz change blog coz it more interesting here ya...but given me this techno+webbie idiot.....hmm....i'll try lah yaa..heheh!!Haiz!!cant wait for Wed..can go mambo!!And yes mic finally rite!hahaha!!!& pls no more long island..it sucks big time!