4 more days to Jess's Wedding

juz reached home....met up with the gers for nearly the whole day today!rach & mic finally got their dress...suppose to be feeling happy after meeting them but somehow i'm sitting in front of my com feeling pretty down...no idea why...probly coz i'm too tired and hungry.My back's giving me prob again,feeling rather fustrated.

not hungry when i was out with the gers..so didnt eat.Now that i'm home..feeling soooo hungry!lazy to cook maggie...nothing to eat at home....Arrgghh!!feel like eating handmade noodles so badly...........maybe will call kel later ask him if he wants to go eat supper....I'M REALLY HUNGRY!!need to talk to someone as well..who else better than my guru......

my cough's finally getting better...no longer coughing like before..still will cough but at least not as bad....that's one good new for sure..after 3 weeks of suffering man!

too tired & hungry to blog liao.....

It's raining man!

its the weekend again....how fast ya!and it's finally raining!!well at least it did this morning when i woke up....it was pouring man!!thanks for the ride this morning kel!appreciate that ALOT~!!paiseh couldnt make it for breakfast...but supper again anytime man!hahaha!!

had a little 'relative outing' today...grandpa's death anniversary so everyone sort of met up to pray.Afterwhich me,mama,2 aunties and 3 cousins went to town jalan jalan...had dinner...town was damn packed!!always hated going there during the wkends but well....no choice!hahaha!!it was all good anyway,havent gone out like that for a long long time......

meeting the gers tmr to finalise the stuff to do on jess's wedding!how to 'torture' jimmy...hahha!!as well as to help out jess lah..she seems really stress lately over her wedding....wow...5 more days to her wedding man!!before that will meet up with rach 1st to go buy her dress.She hor..aiyo!!wat else can i say!!hahah!!have not been attending mass regularly...I'LL BE GOING MASS TMR...i hope!hahahah!yes...i will go for confession next week...THAT i really would be....hahaha!!

saw this really cute little twin star toy at cineleisure today!!!but was hesitating coz i got nowhere else to put my toys anymore!!gona revamp my room...soon!hahah!!yes i really will..in order to accomodate more stuff i've got to....i sooooo love little twin star!!and daffy duck.....havent seen him ard much after Warner Bro close down...how sad!and yes...my best frd..Monkeys!hahaha!!mic if u r reading this,stop laughing!nothing wrong with liking monkeys alright!have a new liking for Spongebob!!!havent been collecting yet but would love to get a Patrick soft toy thou...haha!!he's so adorable!that super blur look..haha!!!

woke up so early this morning....so real tired now......lets' pray that it'll rain tonight.......PLS DO!

When will i get well??

yes..i'm STILL gona complain abt my sickening cough....haiz!!kept coughing at wk till everyone's like..VIC!u alright???haiz........dun even dare to pick up the phone!cant even speak a full sentence w/o coughing!!and my voice sucks now man!!

Rach still didnt manage to get a dress!!aiyo!!!she keep saying still early...she hor!!never change her being last min habbit!

Told Kenny to keep a look out of nice big face watch when he goes Bangkok...and he really bought me one!!hahaha!!!so nice of him.....design a little funny but ok lah..nice!hahhaa!!!STILL i want my DKNY watch............I WANT!!!

Jess juz email me her wedding pics...so nice!!hahah!!i also want to get married liao lor!*envy*

Really gota attend Novena this week onwards already....duno y but juz wana.Havent been getting my peace ever since i fallen sick.Nothing seems right or going my way.In fact feeling pretty miserable on the inside.Sick as i may be but its only through these times that i realise how impt my frds were to me.Frds that bother to send me little sms to see how i'm doing,frds that avoided food that they like to accomodate me,frds that bought me cough sweets,frds that call & ask how i'm doing every now & then,frds that reccomanded me different cough remedies,frds that told me to stop clubbing & drinking(cant believe it!!),frds that even bought me a get well cutie bear that absolutely made my day!Trust me....all these will always remain in my heart.I always appreciate little gestures like that from frds....love u all peeps!Console myself at the end of the day that its not that bad to fall sick...coz u truly see who's there for u......*smile*

Taken my medicine....time to Zzzzz......*damn*

Stopid ME!

i actually forgot to bring my wallet out today!!ARGGH!cant take cab!!cant draw $$!!luckily in the afternoon met up with mama..else!!

mama bought me story books today...hahah!!happy happy!so many books i wana buy... kino at bugis got nothing much...still prefer the one at taka...but still manage to get 2 books..hehe!!

still no sign of improvement for my coughing man!!haiz...mama juz bought a new cough syrup for me to try...ewww!!its terrible when i'm in an enclosed area..like the bus,a room,cab......SUCKS man!!2 weeks of torture......ARGGHHHH!!!and the air's so bad lately.....!havent had spicy food for the last 2 weeks...juz added a LITTLE chilli to my wantan mee earlier and i cough like hell....end up not finishing it...HAIZ!!!only had yusheng for dinner...now so blardy hungry!in fact i'm always hungry lately..ever since i had that stopid cough & sore throat,either i'll skip my meal or end up not finishing.......SAD SAD SAD!!i wana eat good food!!!!!*cry*

Val juz sms me say wana go dbO!ARRGGHHH!!!!CANNOT GO..........BUHUHUHU!!!!!1st time rejecting her when it comes to going dbO!!never go zouk for steven's bday as well...HAIZ!!!dun even remind me....I'LL BE BACK!!

Gota wk tmr liao...after wk will go shop shop for rach's dress!she dun have much time left...7 more days to jess's wedding!!hahaha!!

Oh man...sales sales sales everywhere!!so many things so little $$$!!!i wana go shoppping!!Joy!!when u coming back from aussie???miss u liao!!hahaha!!!

Mama start nagging again.......time to eat sucky medicine AGAIN!!!!!*sulk*

Wat a Week man....

haiz....wat a week man!!sick sick sick..thought i had recovered but was so wrong...my coughing got worse...very worse!juz seen a doc again..MORE MEDICINE!!!*puke* eat till i'm feeling so weak....havent been eating much lately as well...life's so miserable!!*cry*

Yes Mic i got ur msg!!i wana go UK funfair too!!wait till we get better ok??Very soon i hope!!sorry havent been answering ur calls...either i was asleep or didnt wana talk....will call u to chat when i get better alright?Thanks for ur concern as well...*muack+hugz* send my apologies to steven as well....

Oh ya finally got my dress!!yeah!!and guess wat..its on 50%!!i'll be cursing myself if i bought it before the sales man!!CK Tangs rockz!!hahah!!so happy when i saw that it was on sales!and i LOVE the dress!!so nice....hahah!!wow...9 more days to jess's wedding!!how time flies man!!its always such a blessing to attend weddings...somehow everyone'll be in the 'i wana get married mood'...well at least i would!hahah!!

not gona 'lor-soh' too much today...gota go take my sucky medicine & zzzz AGAIN!!!

Its a blardy HOT day!

Happy happy day today!!haha!!went out with mama in the afternoon and we bought quite alot of stuff!!my walking atm...hahaha!!!bought 2 bottoms...some cosmetics and a nice top!!mama bought 2 tops as well.....YEAH!!shopping never fails to make my day...esp when i dun have to pay!!hahaha!!but i treated her to lunch at chinaaquare...so i'm not THAT bad...hohoho!!

Haiz.....my shopping list's getting longer and longer each day!!so many things so little $$!!1st on my list is that DKNY watch....LOVVVVEEE it..but close to 200+...thou i like the white face one better..STILL its like $170+!!*cry*!!mama's gona sponsor half for my dress liao so dun want her to sponsor my watch as well....BUT!!haiz!lets see what else...oh saw a pair of pumps at chinasquare juz now!!49 bucks!!but its cute thou....if i buy mama surely nag say buy shoes again?!wana buy sneakers as well...clothes..SKIRTS!wana watch Romeo & Juliet's theatre play.....Arghhhh!!!!going crazy juz thinking!!

Yes MIC..haha!!know me so well rite....know i'll not eat thinking no one in the world knows!hahah!!i cant swallow pills like u alright!!can swallow a 50cent coin size pill...!haha!!but yes i'll TRY to take them regularly and get well asap so can go drinking with u asap!didnt know u are so naggy....hohohoho!Mic know u'll be reading u..wana go UK funfair????*winkzzzzzz*

have been talking to izaar lately..to be honest other than kelvin,izaar's the next best person to talk to man!i enjoy talking to like minded ppl...engaging in conversations that will blow me away!!dun know how others feel but i'll do anything for a good conversation...not easy to find alright!i always feel that i shd go join some debate session coz there's always something i can say at the end of someone else's sentence..yet ONLY with kelvin & izaar,i simply become speechless!like a little ger listening to God speak..yes they are kinda THAT powerful!hahah!!that's y whenever i have doubts or unsure abt stuff or the deeper things in life...they'll be the ones i'll call..yes only them!!u can always chat/talk with other ppl but its juz different!!or shd i say i'm different...i need more than juz plain advises which i can tell myself if you know what i mean!(i'm pretty powerful myself..i think!haha!so i'll need someone more POWERFUL!)

but i'll chose izaar over kelvin coz we share the same sense of humor!!DRY SENSE!!i like!!hahah!!we're always sarcastic to each other yet we'll never take it serious...i always say he's the perfect example of an idiot..& u guys go think what he'll reply!hahaha!!!if u have been following my blog since long long ago...yes i did say izaar's the kinda guy i like!never ashame to admit that...hahaha!!!like guys with the 'mature/cool' kinda humor...not the u know..irritating/lame/try too hard/dirty kind.

Alright..gota go watch telly di!!havent bathe either....CIAO!!

Wat's happening to my VOICE?!

Was forced to go see a doc today..mama threaten to not let me out of the house unless i go see a doc!!!*CRYYYY*now gota eat medicine somemore..and i'm sure a pills idiot...damn!!!

juz had dinner with the gers....lazy to download the pictures so will leave it for tmr...hahah!!jess has 'grown' again!!!Wowowowow!!was discussing abt her wedding...so so cannot wait!!!less than 15 days!!scary rite......but so exciting!!gota go search for my morning and evening dress di...like as if its my wedding man!!gave the gers a ppt slideshow that i did up not too long ago(valentine day pressie for them)...juz recieve a very touching sms from jess regarding the ppt,its really nothing lah..juz feel like doing alittle something.Glad she liked it too!!*smilez*i love u too jess!!hahah!!

tmr gota head to the gym...havent been to the gym since last week...somemore was ny..then last few days sick never go!after that might go dinner with parents or go watch constantine with rach!!YEAH!!!finally geta watch that show liao....

haiz...gota go bathe then eat sucky medicine liao...else mama will never stop nagging!!!ARRGGHH!!!and my voice sounds scary now man.....EEEEWWWW!!!!i'm like Shrek!!will change when it past midnight!!!haha!!

There're so many food i wana eat!!But cant...

Valentine day but never recieve flowers...no pressies...*cry* mum was juz saying this yr no flowers ah....damn!my cupid's not wking today man!How sad!

slack at home...having coughing fits all day so no point going out anyway!having block nose and everything's tasteless!!blahhhh.....so didnt eat much either....feels like shit to be sick man!mum's endless nagging......Argghhh!!!have been eating shity food lately...mum cook porridge,noodle soup...and all can't add chilli...juz now dip a little and i choke till mum scolded me....BU HUHUHUHUHU!!!*sulk*

meeting the gers for dinner tmr!!gona 'lou yu sheng'!!hahaha!!so happy can see the gers again....going jimmy's dad place to eat.But well everything'll be tasteless so what's the point...

damn!!till now still havent manage to catch Constantine!!wanting to watch the show since last yr when i saw the shots.....rach says tmr after dinner or wed will watch with me.HOPE SO!!!!so many good shows lately...all i wana watch!!wana watch Hitch too!and how can i forget SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!!!YEAH!!!cant wait.......

Boring day today so nothing much to blog..........did someone juz say its Valentines' Day??

No food for the whole week?!

today's a really bad day man....not feeling well yet still gota spend my afternoon trying to expain stuff that i still do not see where the prob lies!how i hate chatting with ppl who do not see my point at times...ppl who chose to read between the lines...ppl who doubt and not trust what i said..and he actually used payback time..hello!!think i'm better than that alright..not so petty till have to do stuff like that!damn!& i seriously hate it when ppl watever me!Fark man!!how rude is that?!WATEVER!!!this word shd be banish from the dictionary man!

have been feeling ill since last nite already....coughing like i juz kana TB!!cough till i puke!and got nag and scolded by mum somemore..for being sick!!how sad rite...then this morning got fever...38.2...think the flu bug's landing soon as well....wat a way to start my new week ya!!damn!(and mic if u r reading this i'm sure u are the carrier...HEADQUARTERS!)

Val juz sms me saying she juz broke off with her bf....really appreciate her letting me know and confiding in me.Like what she said,i was rite from the beginning abt their relationship...but that's not the point lah.Like i told her,at the end of the day if she think what she's doing is rite then all we can do is to support.And Val is someone that i always have faith in..one whom i admire alot coz once she step foot on something,she never look back till she succeed.same when it comes to relationship...she never dwell and get back on her feet real fast...that's the way ger!!

back to my coughing fits....i'm seriosuly coughing till my stomach hurts..my back starts to hurt AGAIN!!and now i dun even dare to talk...coz i never know when i'll start coughing non-stop......*cry* my mum dun even allow me to eat spicy food and chilli till i recover!!ARRGHHHH!!!!!!!isnt that telling me no food till i recover?!what's life w/o spice/chilli??????

Pictures!Yeah!

these are some pictures taken on the 2nd day of cny...too lazy and tired to upload..so only 3 pictures...*smilez*


mama,puppy & moi!


me & mama!


me and my cousins!

Dreamland?!

Nice Pic!


we've come so far...


best sisters!

did i drink alot today?!no idea man....juz had prata with val & rach at thomson!!YUMMIE!!!!but too shaq to blog........Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Is there truly a pot of gold at the end of each rainbow?

Is it always disappointment after having hope?is there truly a pot of gold at the end of each rainbow?i never like to have hope in everything i do..for a very simple reason...i'm afraid of disappointment...very for a matter of fact.

Optimist i may be,but at times i can be vulnerable too...so much that i can no longer comfort myself.Totally lost control over my mind and heart...no longer know the Vic that i myself know......i have to admit i'm a very down to earth & rational lass but this time round,i'm not so sure.Feels like the whole world had juz came crushing down on me...every little thing will trigger my tears now...my tears have been so worthless lately.

I juz wana be left alone....very alone..juz me,my CD,my monkey and my worthless tears.....

Bread or Love?

stayed home the whole day today....didnt even go to church....gota go confession next sat...bu huhu(mama kept nagging)

managed to pack my room today..hahha!!not a fantastic job but STILL!!packed and came across some stuff that brought back many memories..sms Hanse a while ago and got the good news that he'll be getting married soon.bitter-sweet for me thou...sincerely happy for him that he has found his true happiness,yet on the other hand a little disappointed.Guess that's life ya..what's urs will never run and wat's never to be urs will never ever be.....i've learnt that the hard way,very hard.Its such an ironic feeling,when a couple's in a relationship,they'll say/plan so much for the future,wat to expect together..blah blah....then at the end of the day u see the other party end up with another gal/guy..its simply an awkard feeling..if that's the word to use.Have been saying very cliche stuff lately but well..if u truly love someone,u would want him/her to be happy,be it with u or someone else.REAL TOUGH but life sometimes juz leave us with not much choices...

gota head to the gym tmr!slack for the whole week so tmr gota buck up!hahah!!will go chinatown 1st to get some CDs...wana get the Jay Chou live in concert.Finally no work this week so better do the stuff i wana do man!!After chinatown will go gym..then do some last min shopping!hahah!!wana get shoes!!!

like i mention in my last few blogs...did ALOT of thinking lately...shared some,kept some...thinking abt my journey thru life...i wouldnt dare said i've been thru alot but definitely enough to reflect.Wat i thought were impt to me in the past are no longer impt anymore...and vice versa.One very big issue's $$...it can no longer satisfy me.I'll be slapping myself if i'm to say its not impt..but surely not THAT impt.Wat Rach always say to me,if a prob can be solved using $$..it'll no longer be called a prob.How true isnt it?but yet there're so many things in life that cant be bought or be solved using $$!can we buy back time??How i wish...(i really do!)but we cant..$$ can only bring us happiness from the outside in...its true happiness that comes from the inside out.A very cliche sentence again...Bread or Love?i would definitely chose bread in the past...but now?Love....guess i need not explain any further..material over emotions??nahh...not for me!bread & Love..both happiness ya..but bread satisfy us from the outside in..Love??its only emotions that comes from the inside....seriously...how many of us can really find true love???i believe i had,but yet i allow it to slip thru my fingers.....

Lord,will you bring him back into my life again?I'm sure regret's a form of punishment for me from You...but i truly ask You Lord to give me a 2nd chance.......if only You are listening to my prayers....Amen

Class 95 rocks tonite!

out the whole day with rach(half a day to be precise)...both of us went home feeling damn pissed!but well...we honestly dun have to over a not very impt person...crap!!

went last min cny shopping..haha!!i finally bought SOMETHING!not quite in the mood to shop lately so ya...rach's going on a 'hot date' tmr!!!!hahaha!!wish her all the best man!!we had a really good chat these 2 days(face 2 face,phone & msn)...told her stuff that have been in my heart all this while..stuff that happened lately,stuff that i thought i would never ever share with,stuff that have been so close to my heart..felt really good after talking & sharing.So much had happened lately,so its great to have a frd to share it with..a frd who's always there...and thanks for putting up with all my endless complains....honestly i really duno wat i'll do w/o rach this buddy...she too shared alot with me and i really appreciate that!most imptly thanks for always standing on my side and never doubting wat i do or the decisions i made....that's wat true frds are for!*touched*

me & rach went serangoon gardens last nite with 2 other frds for dinner...a shitty evening but other than that the sushi teh there's quite cool!!food alright lah..but atmosphere really good(gota remove ur shoes!!).Always enjoy gg to the coffeebean there but last nite was a total disappointment..dun wana bring it up anymore.But me and rach had fun walking home..to HER HOME in fact...CHEATER!!!!hahaha!!but we had a good walk and a good chat too...gossip and juz talk abt EVERYTHING!(gota know something from rach that pissed me off big time too!)that's the kinda conversation i enjoy..me & rach have develop some kinda telepathy thingy lately...hahahaha!!!its really cool!!guess i really cant run away from this good frd man!!

gota stay home to clean my room tmr.....my mum simply ignore my messy room!!!haiz....alright lah...gota do wat i gota do rite...bo bian!!cant believe it'll be a NEW YR in 3 days time!have already made plans for my cny holidays...hahah!!wed going dbo drinking with RACH!yeah!then sat gg dinner at jimmy's place with the gals!follow by KTV!!!Yippie!!!!cant wait!!havent seen jess for a while....juz recieve her wedding invite today..less than a mth to her wedding!!!wahhhhhh!!!THAT I REALLY CANT WAIT!!!*BIG SMILE*

**Class 95's playing really cool songs tonite!lalala.....laalaalala**

6 more days to CNY??

Another tired day juz past....

Suppose to go drinking with mic but gota wk OT and reallllly damn tired as well...with my damn backache..no amt of alchohol can make me smile anymore man!*cry*

its less than a week to cny!!omg!!so fast.......still havent got my ny clothes...but this yr i'm really not in the mood...dun even feel the presence of cny approaching...not a tiny bit of it....but i know i can have a good rest!!THAT'S FOR SURE!juz wana 'nua' at home.......

Have plans to go dinner with the gers during cny..but no idea where!!jess cant eat seafood so alot of chinese restaurant's out....my mind's really blank...IDEAS IDEAS!!!i need ideas!!

i know i'll sound like a whiny,grumpy woman again but my stoopid backache's really killing me and sucking up ALL my energy!that sounds so cliche but it really is!i'm going crazy man!!its making me soooo pek cek every single day!!nothing seems rite..the worse part is that the pain's so irritating till its affecting my beauty sleep...KILL ME MAN!!can u imagine...feeling damn tired physically yet cant sleep....torture sia!!esp for someone who lovessss to zzzzzzzz.....

Haiz...morale have reached -1000000 lately...doing lots of thinking..thinking and thinking...have not over worked my pweeny brain for a while already!so much comes into my mind..people,scenerios,past happenings,decisions that i have made over the yrs,regrets,happiness..........

i'm tired...too tired to think,too tired to type....guess i can only pray.....

Remember,O most gracious Virgin Mary,that never was known that
anyone who fled to your protection,implored your help,or sought your intercession,
was left unaided.Inspired with this confidence,i fly onto you,Virgin of virgins,my Mother.To you i come,before you i stand,sinful and sorrowful.Mother of the Word incarnate,despise not my petitions,but in your mercy hear and answer me. AMEN

I've never felt like this before.....

it has been ages since i last blog......i'm honestly getting bored of blogging liao...who comes to my blog anyway?!but well...

feeling physically stressed lately...my backache's acting up again....its really spoiling my mood and i absolutely hate it!hate it when i'm not able to control my own emotions..1000000 times worse than PMS..I SWEAR!it got so bad till its affecting my sleep and my daily life....haiz....dun wish to cont..

i'm seriously dead beat..i need a good rest...a good sleep....and a good shoulder to cry and lean on.....so much have happened within the span of a week....is it day or night now?monday or tue?dead or alive?i have no idea....

O Most merciful Lord
You are the God who works wonders
In my great need & distress
I open my heart now before You
Through Your apostle, St Jude
May Your will be done in my life