I'm blogging at the comfort of MY ROOM!!

yeah...finally in my own room blogging!!hehehe!!juz finish downloading all the stuff for my computer so shall not write much....uploading some pics taken recently!!Lots more to come i'm sure!!!*winkz* 1.22am already!!gota go pack my stuff for chalet then go zzzzz liao!!!!


2 pretty gals!hehe


Izaac's already 1 yr plus!!


nice fridge!


me & my messy room


jess wru?

I miss blogging.....

it have been a while since i blog man....yes yes...hardly come down here to the internet cafe so u know...they are undergoing renovation so i'm now seated at computer no.11...with 2 gays beside me...haiz....

It had been a wow week for me....given xmas was juz over...taken lots of pics but u know...cant download them here...my PC already arrive at me place last week..but i still lazy to go get the internet connection stuff done...ok i'll TRY to get it done by this week..I HOPE so too..hahaha!!!

Juz went to the gym,meeting jess and rach later at bugis..we're gona discuss the NY countdown thingy over dinner..haiz!!Val cant make it!wasted...plus Mic's pretty sick..hope she get well soon...at least soon enough to come for the chalet!!Haiz...i'm still jobless...$$ running super low man!!!!!!!!SUCKS!!

It has been SSOO long since i last blog..probly shd update ppl alittle..start from xmas..nothing much really..on xmas eve got dinner at home..afterwhich went midnight mass with Mag...mass was boring really..(shdnt be saying that ya..haha)then me and mag went 'chom chom' for supper...we then hang ard gardens till abt 4.30am!!!!well...2 gals...can talk for the whole day man!!!!plus i have not seen her for a long long time!!Xmas day was alright....woke up real late...met up with rach,val and zhihong...went kelly's place and slack..eat and watch telly....hahahaha!!slack and eat till 9+..we went ktv...sing till 1+ then HOME!!quite boring rite....hahhaa!!But i cant wait for countdown....

Haiz...alright lah...no mood to blog today also...damn tired.....shd be back soon...

It's gona rain.....

i'm sitting in front of computer no 22 at the internet cafe again...juz went to the gym..no program today..so heading home after this..probly will go supermarket to do some 'marketing' after this...

started this week with a bang!hahaa....well at least jess dropped me/us 2 'bombs'...i gladly accept them thou...hahah!!today's wed but no drinking for me..went on monday with the gals thou...this time w/o Jess!!hahaha!!she cant drink liao!!we went No 5...not too bad!!the music's good too..really good...a nice chill out place i would say....chatted for the whole nite with the gers!!all our 'thick-skin',one-sided conversation!!hahah!!but its really good...to chill out and juz talk...really cant wait for xmas + NY countdown where we'll all meet and chill out + talk even more!hahah!!!(Mic,go ok??!)

wanted to go & cut my hair BUT lazy......really hate to go to the hair dresser...so do not understand y some ppl can visit the salon every other day....so ma fan!!!everyone's like wah..ur hair very long hor..bla bla...keep very long already rite..ya lah!!obviously...but also because i lazy to go cut...so juz keep it long lor!hahahahah!!so sian....mama buying a PC only end of this week...then wait for then to deliver think gota wait till next week....+ gota install internet stuff...AIYO!!!!!!!i'm a super tech no idiot...so would like everything done up asap...

alright...gota go check my mails + send resumes...as usual..will be back!!!*winkz*

yoyoyoyo!!

I'm back!!been a while since i blog man!!at some internet cafe along city hall..haiz....no com at home...gota wait till next week!!sian!!i'm fine w/o a com really...but write my blog here cant upload pictures!!took quite a few pics this week...will load when i get the chance to!!& MIC LOK if u are reading this...I GOT NO COMPUTER LOR!!SO MUZ WAIT FOR THE PICS~!!!WAAAIIT!!

Hmmmmmmm......where should i start man!!my jobless days are ok...doing what i do best!!SLACK!!hahaha!!!shit...damn hungry now,never eat anything since morning then juz went to the gym...TIRED...later going Raffles City to buy bday present for papa..its his BDAY tmr!!probly the same old thing..SHIRT!Boring rite..i know but well..what can u get for a 60 yr old man!?

This whole week was quite ok...went clubbing with the gals on wed..didnt went last week as i was sick...mama was saying,never work then sick!!hahaha!!weather bad mah...not my fault...hehehe!!izaar juz msg me saying he's not wking there too...haiz..long story for him..probly meet up with him soon to gossip!hohohoh!!Duno what happen to jess lately..she seems so moody...val was telling me jess say she'll tell us wat happen when the time is rite...hmmm...really hope she's ok!!Rach went China...for 2 weeks!!!!!haiz.....w/o her ard so boring....nobody to go out with...RACH I MISS U!!!!!!ewww....so mushy rite...hahahahaahaha!!!(i still love men ok...)

wahh...2 more weeks to xmas!!really fast ya...before we know it,it'll be 2005!!scary how time flies man!!i'll be 23 next yr!!!!!!OH NO!!alright lah...23 sounds ok rite..hahahaha!!!val was asking me got any NY resolution...no man!!i have long not belive in that....but probly to get a new job..hahaa!!and to bring my friendship with the gers closer!!i think its the time of my life where i feel friendship's very impt to me..the support and stuff.All of us got friends..but friends that are with us thru the good & bad...not alot i would say...i've really learnt how to appreciate ppl and the gers are the few that i'll always treasure...Ewww....so mushy again!!haha!!

Alright lah...got other stuff to do..gota check my mails!!surf net...send resumes...and internet cafes charge by the hr lor!!cannot be so lor sor!!hahaha!!I"LL BE BACKKKKKKKKK....again!!*winkz*

15mins before the concert


JAY!!


izaar

SHITTY SITEC

will not be blogging that regularly after today already....got SITEC at expo..blardy hell..my wkend's burn again!!but Sat still gota go watch my Jay Chou concert!!hehe!!doing my hand-over today...go blardy expo in the afternoon....and for the next 4 days too!!SIAN!!But will get Monday off..tue come in to clear my stuff...Wed juz come get my pay-cheque & YEAHHHH i'm a free woman!!!hehehe!!!

The cloud of dust talked to Izaar ytd and ask why his mood seems so bad...coming into the office late lately..and he said because his morale's low.Me leaving and stuff..hehee!!so touched ya...told izaar i know he'll miss me!!HAhaaha *think skin*(Izaar said talking to him any longer he'll die lor!!hohoho i totally understand,talking to the cloud for more than a min will kill all ur brain cells lor!!) i'll seriously miss him(Izaar) too!!but told him as much as i do not like going Dunlop Rd but i'll try to go there one of the Weds to see him perform!!hahahahha!!he's such a retard..say if i really go he'll announce my name & tell the whole club i'm there!!& make sure the spot light's on me!!IDIOOT!


SMILE!!!!

The above pic was taken and sent specially to Jess coz we know she cant come out as she gota look after her beloved niece.....hehehe!!*ever evil us*

ytd met Val for gym...the steambath was cool man!!!SHIOK!!!hahaha!!!Val's crazy!!ask me next time go early in the morning like 7am!!as much as i wana workout but gym over Zzzz???NO WAY!!!afterwhich we met up with mic go dbO for a drink....the shot was GOOOOD!!!i like.....went Mdm Wong for a little while...ok lor...still the same but where the hell are the gers???its like a guy's club now lor...hmmm!!!hahaha!!me val and mic are up to no good again....we are in the PUNK'D mood again....*wink* (Mic if u r reading this....IT'S ON!!!!)

LAZY WED

bridget jone's soundtrack seems quite cool ah...saw the ad on telly...duno if i shd buy...like the song Everlasting Love by Jamie Cullum...hmmmmm....hahha!!watching the show next week anyway so will see how!

After work meeting Val...going gym then probly a drink...this week has been quite ok..either going home or gym after wk...nothing much,predict it'll be that way for the next 2 days....haiz!!that's what happens when one is super duper broke!!

i've been stoning for 5mins in front of my com not knowing what to write....how sad ya!!LIFE!!!LIFE!!!how much more boring can it get?!sometimes i really question myself...wat's my purpose on earth??wat's consider living our life to the fullest??i hear this all the time but wat exactly's the meaning of it?Fullest...wat is fullest?how we know its the fullest?alright...i'm not making sense again...

sometimes i wonder too...i'm only 22 but y do i seem like a slave for $$ already?!some ppl my age are still studying..enjoying what a 22 yr pld shd be enjoying...have the kinda freedom that they seem to be entitled to...wat Father William Goh said on sunday hit me again...ppl who yearn/pray for freedom will never ever get freedom...go think abt it..its a simple sentence but means alot...i never ask for freedom really coz i never felt that i'm deprive from any...i usually pray for peace...and to lessen the pride that i have in me.Prayer's a very personal thing ya...but guess its ok to share too!*winkz*

So sian!!duno where to go for lunch..me and izaar lazy to walk somemore!!but our sales director might drive us to Zion road for lunch...haha!!i'm very full..had heavy breakfast...doubt i'll have lunch lah...intend to go dinner b4 heading the gym..so will skip lunch!!damn......its only 12pm....already feeling so sleepy!*SNORE*

A Simple Nite Out

All the pictures were taken last Sat,Rach's bday!Rach's mouth kana scratched so it look abit like her mouth's bleeding...she's absolutely not happy abt it!hahahah!!!


Rach,Val,blur looking Xia & ME!


the background's quite eerie ya..


nothing better to do...


Jess's beloved niece!!

7 more days to Freedom!!

so sleepy....juz came back from lunch..i'm soooo full till i can explode,literally...!!stoopid izaar can still say "then can i poke u?"duhh.....

everyone ard me's down with the flu bug or coughing fits..aiyo!!really man!!its like EVERYONE lor!!probly of the bad weather...i've been having sore throat for the whole week too...

Model's down to the last 3!!like i say i already know who the winner is..but ytd's episode's cool!haha!!all real damn bitchy(incl the judges)!well...12 gers living under 1 roof wat do u expect?peace??wait long long!hahaha!!cant wait for next week's ep thou....think shandi cheated on her bf...saw the shots ytd

cant wait for Jay's concert this sat!!!hahaha!!rach msg me this morning saying dun forget to bring light sticks & posters!DUHHH!!!hahaha!!think i really some Jay fanatic ah....i'm not really into him...juz like his songs...in fact i cant wait for this week to pass!!!QUICK!!!

me & izaar really super slack mode lately...come into the office at 9.40...go smoking break also take like 15mins...chit-chat outside...play pool on msn...hahaha!!really heck care liao lor...leaving soon anyway....so really is like bo chap liao lor!!i know its very bad lah...but well WHO CARES!!!!

Was feeling kinda moody over the weekend,had a big argument with my mama..and the whole thingy really brought my morale level to the lowest...havent felt so down for the longest time..went Novena on sat and i'm certain Our Lady heard my plea..coz my prayers were answered the very next day,so i will attend Novena for the next 9 week...i know my determination level's zero but i REALLY would try...no promises but i WILL try...

Pictures Close to my Heart

like i said..i'm so into posting of pictures in my blog hahaha!!!!these are only a few...dun wana flood my blog with pics lah ya...*winkz*


the frds from church that will always be in my heart

The Guru & Moi

dear old Ben & Moi!

wat can i say abt Mishi??

Unknown Creature

its friDAYY!!but i'm damn broke....seriously badly broke!!the next few weeks i'll be a good mama ger..NO MORE LATE NITES,EAT AT HOME,NO MORE DRINKING...which also means...NO LIFE till my next pay!!*bUhuhu*

so sian...me and izaar juz upgrade our msn..where we can play really stupid sound effect and irritate the hell out of each other!!hahaha!!DANM FUNNY!!it'll only work if the other party has that feature too...he also damn attitude lately..come in office at 10am!!aiyo....that 'unknown creature' sitting behind him was asking me where is izaar...i ask blur say duno.haha!!i usually dun entertain ppl asking me stupid Q!we give our BDD director alot of nicknames..the latest being unknown creature!haha!!previously we'll call him cloud of dust..coz he's so irritating ARRGGHH!!!till he seems to have a cloud of dust above his head all the time(cloud is really an understatement)..wat else..oh ya!!D-A-H...DumbAss Harry..coz all his questions are like DAHHHH=Duhhhh...(izaar's irritating me with the pontianak song AGAIN!!!EWW!!!)

today after wk will head down to the gym...then home for dinner...broke man!tmr's rach's bday!!!hahaha!!!after so long...but it's not gona be anything like mine or val's lah...she'll juz have dinner at SHAVILLA!we both shatec grad but havent been there b4..hahaha!!go there see how our juniors are doing...if still up to standard!hohohoh!!its juz gona be me val rach and xia lah..u know after u past the 21 mark,bday is simply another day....SERIOUS!!gone are the chalets days,bbq,tonns of frds celebrating....LONG GONE!!!

WOOOWW!!i did it!!!

me & jess!!

jess & mic!

me & val!!

(left to right)Jess,Val,Mic & Moi!


OMG!!!i'm so blardy proud of myself!!!!!me this techno idiot actually manage to post pic onto my blog!!!WAHHH!!!!seriously i'm so proud of myself.....well i always know i'm pretty smart!!wahhahaha!!!juz when i was getting bored of blogging...haha!!trust me u'll see more pics man!!!THIS IS FUN!!!hahahah!!!*typical gemini*

alright all the above pics were taken last wed when we were out clubbing...alot more in fact but these are the 'clearer ones'.2 of the pics were actually featured on dbO webbie.cool ya....

hmmm...went drinking with jess & val at dbo last nite..a really short one lah..we left abt 10.30..mama was like so early today ah...haha!!wat's her problem?come back late also say..come back early also say...MUMS!!!

really in super duper good mood lately sia...so good till nothing quite pisses me off..*i hope*hahaha!!yeah..later going great world for lunch with izaar..so long never go there liao!!can eat duck rice!!got craving man!!since duno when....hahaa!!!alright!!will go look for more pics to post on my blog liao!!!

LAlaalala!!

lalala!!y can't there be a labour law stating we wk 4 days?then everyone will be a happier person ya!haha!!

let me recall wat i did over the long wkend...hmmm...i sort of forgotten wat i did on fri..ohh!!!met up with daphne!!haha!!went dinner then walk walk ard and stone at McCafe Lido till abt 11+...sat slack at home for the whole day..eat,sleep,watch telly...sleep again!hahaha!!!sunday went out with rach..went town then head to bugis to catch The Incredible..ermm...not quite my kinda show but its alright lah...wana watch Shutter thou!!it'll be out this week...seems scary!ytd...oh ya!slack at home AGAIN!hahaha!!!slept the WHOLE day..yes the whole day!!hmm....think i juz 'nua' for the past 3 days lor....SHIOK!

today wanted to go drinking with val but she might or might not make it....so juz keep my fingers cross lor...i'm really in lala mode these few days!!haha!!no idea y either!!probly its the festive season??its rach's bday this sat...FINALLY she's 22 like us...hahaha!!!haiz..time to go source for xmas pressies already!!in fact i already know what to get for the gers..juz gota buy 6 of the same & i'm done!!gota think what to get for xchange present now....can officially go shopping!hahahah!!!

have been meeting up with the gers alot lately...hahaa!!!i'm not complaining lah...rach was telling me her mum was saying she dun seem to have much frds except us..actually that's wat my mama always say too!mama keep saying 'ur lesbian ah?'duhh?!them over men??i really dun think so!!hahahah!!ok lah...dun need so many frds rite..juz need a few real gd ones & we can consider ourselves very bless!!hahaha!!!was msging val last nite & she said she wana relax abit for these 2 mths..k lah,she work so hard over the yr..wat is 2 mths of r&r?!that's the way to live life ya!!for me i'll be taking the whole of dec off to catch up with frds,really alot of catching up...hahaha!new job?alot of ppl asking me that...seriously no hurry man...i dun wana go into a job for the sake of doing so...probly will do part-time for half a yr bah...haha!!go back being a bartender...hmm...very likely...will update again!luckily i dun have a mama & frds that keep asking y never go find job & stuff...*heng*!hate it when the ppl ard me are overly concern abt me being jobless..duhhh...wat's wrong man!!i'm only 22 ya!!not 42!!

Selamat Hari Raya Adifitri

woww!!it's fri!!!haha!!work half day only some more...super good mood today..but feeling idiotic today too!haha!!FINALLY i'm the one pissing & irritating izaar..hahah!!he actually did a sign for me "IDIOT AT WORK" hahaha!!damn funny!

its a short week man!!on leave on wed..slack at home!!met up with the gers later at nite..ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!!!met up with jess 1st for dinner along md sultan..not too bad!!guess what time we were done?7.20pm!duhhh...still so early so we went to this pet shop near 7-11...didnt intend to go in TILL i saw 2 of my FAVEEEE dogs guarding the door..JACKY & GOLDIE!!haha!!as if its really their name..SO CUTEEEE!!!!we went in..played with them & DUN WANA COME OUT!haha!!we reach dbO at 8.10pm..DAMN EARLY!haha!!door still not open...yes we were the 1st AGAIN!!at least we got the seat we wanted...juz next to the ladies bar...had a few shots & waited for the rest...aiyo!!!SO JAM PACKED!!!cant even get a drink after 11!!wanted to go zouk but after some kind advices from a few frds who're already there..we decided not to & head to NB..Q was long but not as bad...we self entertain while waiting!!haha!!take pictures like nobody's business...its like some kids playing with camera phones for the 1st time!

We actually got a table!!not too bad...went to the platform with the gers...so pai-seh...haha!!coz so high mah..then stand rite in front facing ermm...ALOT of ppl..BUT think non of us really cared!haha!!the music was GOOD man!!but the crowd's ermmm....BORING....they're juz moving their head & looking at us lor..we r the only crazy ones,dancing & shouting like its our club..hahaha!!but nice...luckily never see familiar faces in the crowd..hahah!!!!after that proceed to a DAMN cannot make it club at central mall....shall not say more coz if i say its boring its REALLY boring...left the place at 5am...by that time all super cannot make it already...hahaa!!we all sat in front of MOM to flag cab & Mic LOCK...too bad i got no video cam to film what u did man!!u'll laugh sia!!!after Mic left there's this idiotic group of ang-mos in a cab that stopped in front of us...trust me i've never find ang-mos THAT irritating...cute but all a bunch of REAL IDIOTS!!

tmr got roadshow at millenium walk..sian!!sunday gota be there too!!!there goes my wkend..how nice!with sick face harry somemore...

HPless Day

forgotten to bring my hp today.....such a wrong day to not bring my hp...haiz!!& i really wana vomit blood 'guiding' my mama over the phone to check something for me on my hp...i so totally GIVE UP!

i'm feeling a little sick today....think i might be running a temperature...feeling a little feverish...i dun wana fall sick!!tmr is my drinking day!!!haiz....can i fall sick on fri instead?this wkend got roadshow at millenium walk...i dun wana go!!!so pls make me sick on fri!!!PLEEASE!!

went acid bar with rach & val last nite...haha!!when 3 gers are gathered...its gossip time man!!we got this really cosy corner seat...can juz sink in the sofa..!!b4 that we actually went indochine..but its not that fantastic lah!!that's y me & val say go acid bar...

duno if u guys do come across frd that like to boast alot..till its so part of their life and its no longer considered boasting!we have a frd like that and we wonder y muz she do that?i mean we are all frds ya...dun have to say things that are not true to make urself look u know..ermm...'in'?its like directing ur own film with ur own script & acting it out on ur own kinda thing....i'm totally fine with ppl like that one lah,as long as it doesnt affect me,i'll take it as listening to story lor...i need not believe but there's also no need to 'expose' that particular person either...afterall we're frds ya..

& how can we not talk abt MEN...yummy!hahah!!!we may be very close but yet we have very different taste when it comes to men!!val..she and her older men!only men above 30 will qualify to be her bf lor!!but not the uncle type ya..she got HIGH expectation k....REAL HIGH i mean...haha!!!for rach WE REALLY GOT NO IDEA!!we say given her 'unique' character & temper...all we can say is all the best to her future bf!!hahahah!!!for me...i'll definitely need a real man man ya...i can never accept a submissive men!NEVER..i got too much pride & character so i'll need someone who can take control of me..!SEE...3 diff kinda men...hahaha!!

damn..think i'm really falling sick...i'm feeling so drowsy & cold.....

Stop Spending $$!!

its............monday!damn....so blardy hot over the last 2 days!!!what's wrong with everyone today?its full attendance in the office!!at 9.40am?!hmmmm........anyway i was late..reach office at 9.20am..haha!!WHO CARES!

quite a weekend for me man!sat went town with mama..bought story books,a pair of jeans from topshop..NICE!then went mass with mama at St Joseph...nice church!!not so sure abt the priest thou...hahaha!!he speaks with a super thick indian accent..i swear i didnt catch a word he said during homily....sort of fell asleep...haha!!mama was like what did he juz said?hahha!bought a t-shirt from bugis village...only $12!!!gota go there again...thou its BLARDY HOT & CROWDED!!

ytd met up with rach,xia & zhihong!never see him for like 7 yrs??!!after we grad from sec sch..that was long ya!!he juz came back from aust...he pretty much look the same lah...went suntec marche for lunch..& never ever let rach go order food again man!!she order like she hasnt eaten for a month!!!eat so much till there's no room for dessert!!*sob*went to buy a pair of shoes from vnc..haha!!cheap & nice!we then shop shop ard...drive to east coast park...nice weather to suntan!hehe!!hang out and chat till abt 7pm...went ktv!!!hehehe!!left ard 10pm then had something to eat at food street...*yum*havent had such A weekend for a long time already....

meeting val for a drink after wk...i wana go New Asia...we'll see how later lah..we always change at the very last min...hahaa!!!was talking to rach ytd & was saying that we are very blessed to have this group of frds(only 4 lah) ard us..rach was saying she has a super bad attitude & find it very difficult to click with ppl but yet we can all click..or shd i say we all have attitude in our own way..if ppl who duno us will be like..Rach the anti-social sarcastic bitch..val the big eye pretty+'dao'stuck up ger,me the super skeptic+cynical+never open to others bitch,xia the super nice..anything also can ger..we are all so different YET we can be such good frds for soooo long!sometimes we wonder y too...hhaa!!

for me i feel is coz they are truly sincere & real...i mean some frds when they are attached they'll juz stick to their bf..go everywhere also bring bf..it can be quite irritating at times...that have never happen within us b4..we sort of draw the line quite clearly..they also always make the effort to meet up & keep this fellowship going...not giving the crap of busy,no $$ etc..even if they r busy or gota meet bf & cant meet up they will followup with a call the following week to arrange for a drink or something(i appreciate that ALOT!)..and most imptly they are very genuine..never trying too hard..able to take sarcasm lightly(so very impt)!!some ppl juz cant take that!!i dun understand y??!!when we get-together,we are open to opinions,having the freedom to say whatever we want to..not worrying if anyone of us will be offended coz we know that will not happen.its frds like that that allows us to grow & mature...thats what really matters at the end of the day....what's the point of having so many frds when most of them's redundant in ur life?....literally..

talk alot today ah...hahaha!!!monday mah..ususally got MORE things to do...& say!haha!!alright..gota go do my passover stuff liao...oh no..think its gona rain...

I'm sure its gona rain AGAIN!

sian...no plans for the weekend...actually have lah...going tim sum with the gers on sunday then going out with mama tmr..haha!!gg out with mama MEANS i'll have a walking atm ard with me..hehehe!!!she wana attend mass at St Theresa mah....so will go with her...i wana go Queensaway to print t-shirt as well..afterwhich probly go town 'walk walk'..SIAN TMR GOTA WK!!

hahaha!!so funny...ytd wanted to go eat western food with izaar,but when we reach the kopi shop...that store's CLOSED!hahah!!!so funny...no choice but to really fast...him i mean!but today we going concorde shopping centre to eat...its a super ulu place lah...so he will not be caught eating..DUHHHH!!

no plans for today...will go straight home after wk...will be home alone tonite coz mama going church...so will settle my own dinner...most probly is maggie lah..super lazy!!gona watch my korean drama again....hahaha!!!

took the same bus with my cool guy again this morning!!hahaha!!usually will not see him if i'm late..BUT i saw him!!hehehe!!he's wearing a deep pink T with jeans and THAT cool shades again...NICE....& & & he sat beside me on the bus!!!!OWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!i swear that he smells good..............

*Huiping - Haiz..its a long story,will tell u when we meet up next week k?dun really wana put it in the blog lah!i also wana slack at home lor!!!enjoy tai tai life..that is IF i have a sugar papa to support me man!!i'm waiting................*smilez*

i'm hungry!

it's official..i'll no longer be wking with my current company..last day will be 30 Nov!!haha!!long story so shall not blog...

went ktv with cindy last nite...cindy's my shitty face operations mgr's gf..no idea y he manage to find such a good lady!!haiz....poor cindy!

going hot yoga with rach later after wk...since lynn goh going SWIMMING...duhhh...haha!!i cant swim lah so it seem kinda boring!!izaar's really rubbish..he's fasting YET he smoke!duhhh....but he really never eat & drink lah...sian!!gota go lunch alone till after hari raya....

izaar juz msn me say wana go eat western food...hahah!!CRAZY guy!!still cannot resist temptation...hahaa!!i also quite evil lah...keep asking him to go...

so sian...no mood to blog..going for lunch..BYE

We're a Miracle

Here we are, safe at last
We can breath a sigh, seems the storm has passed
All our friends would ask us why with all that stood between us
Why did we even try no one know, imagined we could make it
But it only made us glad, we both believed...

All my life, I felt incomplete
But you turned my soul, with your love so sweetly
You hear my thoughts, you read my mind
You're the part of me, I thought I'd never find
No one I know can make me feel like you do
Hold me and I feel like I can fly...

The chance was so unlikely
That we would ever win
Two stars above the heavens
Destiny brought you to me

You and me, we're a miracle; meant to be
And nothing can change it
Mountains move
And oceans part
When they are standing in our way
You and me, we're a mircale;
Angels stand watching over
And heaven shines upon us, everyday

Its gona rain...AGAIN?!!

Izaar's on mc!!!!SIANNNN!!!!later gota go out man!!else staying in the office will be a torture!!!(already made plans to meet Rach & Xia for lunch..hohooho)

monday nite was alright...had dinner with mama at amk S11 then head to church.next week's Top Model will be exciting man!!they'll all be in tyra's new video..DANCING!!wah!!!way cool!!katie's finally voted out...ok lah,she's pretty BUT so whiny & such a cry baby!!my fave's still Sara...sian!!i already know who the winner is.......

have been msging jess this morning when i was in the train...forgot to bring story book lah..so nothing to do!haha!!was telling her we shd go catch a movie next week...sooo long never watch movie liao!dun quite enjoy watching movies but will never miss Brad Pitt's show...*winkz* Have been making alot of plans meeting up with these guys lately..clubbing+drinking aside lah...i mean a decent outing..shopping,dinner or juz chilling out.these are the ppl that i really treasure ALOT,so the least that i could do is to maintain this fellowship.I usually dun take the initiative to ask ppl out BUT there're exception!cant wait for our buffet dim sum this sunday..xmas party & our NY countdown!!!!i simply love yr end man!!!

Its already 10.20am but i'm still alone in the office!!alright lah..i'm not complaining....but w/o izaar ard in the office...it can get quite boring...or shd i say VERY!!

Damn...it's gona rain AGAIN!!!!

I love SPONGEBOB!!!

there's this poll on the morning show(98.7).."are s'porean men attractive?"hmmm.....i would love to dedicate a whole page of my blog on this man!!But guess i better not....hahaha!!!its Monday so dun wana be so evil....alright we shall not touch on their fashion taste but really...they lack a thing call charisma.Its quite tough to find a true gentleman ard anymore man!!not like there were any to start with!*evil laugh*

its payday today!!!was telling izaar that i'm damn farking broke!!gota pay this pay that...sian!!!he's not any better lah..hari raya coming,gota give parent extra..blah blah!!he said something real funny,his cousin & AUNTIES are making babies like they are making cakes...hmmmmm!!!

my wkend was damn boring!!sat was pretty much wasted doing redundant stuff...spend the whole sunday ZZZ!!!i really did!woke up at 11am...watch abit of telly...mum bought lunch...slept again at 1pm...woke up at 7+...had dinner....watch telly till 10 then back to Zzzz!!hahaha!!but still tired today!mama juz changed the sports channel to cartoon!!YEAH!!!got nick,cartoon net & disney channel!!!i can watch cartoon for the whole day lor!!!SPONGEBOB!!!!!!!!!

gota really start saving $$ already...going bkk next feb...& i wana start a small business with xia xia..SOON i hope!hahah!!!haiz...not in the mood to blog so will talk abt this another day..& LYNN GOH SPENT $220 doing her hair!!!!!!!OMG!!!

damn...gota face shitty face Harry again!

RELAX MODE

was on mc ytd...haha!!technically i'm sick..had gastric,but in actual fact i couldnt wake up!hahaha!!went drinking with the gals on wed and for once i cant quite wake up!!i usually am able to lor...probly coz of the damn good weather..BUT i really had gastric!hahaha!!

Wed nite was fun..saw jess's niece...so adorable!!!(BUT babies are still mafan creatures)so jess man!!as usual we went to dbO 1st!me & val played a little prank on jess!a brief rundown of our prank plan:

1)i'll 'accidentally' send her a msg meant for Val (SMS:Val,u not going tonight because of Jess rite?) in the afternoon
2)To avoid all calls/msg from Jess after THAT sms
3)After meeting up avoid talking abt the msg and simply tell her Val cant make it
4)Reach dbO then i'll tell her Val not happy with her coz she told someone something real bad abt her(which jess will SO not lor!)
5)Val will turn up at dbO pretending nothing happen keeping jess in suspense
6)Reveal to her that it's all a bday prank!hahahaha!!!

Jess cried but all was good lah...hahaha!!!!*so evil*

didnt really drink alot on wed thou...coz we didnt have shots...its all cocktail so its more of bloated & sick then drunk or real high...afterwhich we went zouk!haha!!ordered vodka lime(1+1 mah)been a long long time since i've been there....haiz!!!but i'm condemn by my mama....at least for the next 2 weeks i cant go club already....SHE'S REALLY GONA LOCK THE DOOR!!(she's serious)hmmm...but as long as i reach home b4 12,shd be ok!!so still can go alley or acid!hahahaha!!!!!!!

FINALLY we have finalised our plans for NY countdown.Me,val,jess & rach will book a chalet at downtown east!we dun wana go really 'happening' place coz mafan..damn pack,later got prob going home then super ex...+ no transport..blah blah...so go chalet,can chill out,talk,bbq,lots of booze,have fun at WW Wet,suntan!!something diff lah..not something that we'll do every other day mah...a mini gathering!

me & izaar super relax today..haiz..wat's new!!we watching shows from the net!haha!!nobody in the office mah...so heck lah!!we were watching msian idol..DAMNNNN funny!!!super drama as well...!!today izaar wore a baseball cap,sweatshirt+jeans...was telling him..wahhhh so boyband(which he absolutely hate!)haha!!he still sang a tune from BSB...damn act cute!!he so drama mama today!!oh i so love & hate him!he's singing & irritating me AGAIN!!!!think i sort of wrote alot today ya...u know..juz one of those days!!haha!!went hot yoga with lynn goh ytd...shiok!!!!

2 more days to paydayyyy!!!!!

Baby cockroaches found in my cup!!!!!

ewww!!!!!!!how disgusting's that!!alright....i didnt wash my cup b4 i left ytd..so still got some teh beng in there....this morning i came & found so many baby cockroaches in there!!!!!!!EWWWWW!!!!!SICK!!!!!damn disgusting lor......now i'm having difficulties finishing my packet of teh-beng man!!!!EWW!!!& that stoopid izaar's not helping lor.....can still tell me to do the fear factor act...DUHHH!!IDIOT!!the question is.....do i still wana use THAT cup again......EWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!

today's wed!!which also means drinking day!hahaha!!!we've got 'new' members to our alcholic family today!!Rach is joining us...yes!!after so long!!!jess's sis also joining us coz she juz came back from France...cool!!hahaha!!!cant wait!!!think my mama's already sick of nagging every wed morning...hahaa!!she seems to realise that i'll never be home for dinner every wed...last mth she was still threatening to lock the door if i dun come home b4 12!today she was like..see u wear like that,not coming home for dinner rite?hahaha!!my mama's getting smarter each day ya....*winkz*

going out later..look ard for props..for my next game promo..its a US desert warfare kinda game lah..so looking for toy helicopter and stuff...have been looking ard since last week but damn!!dun kids nowadays play with helicopter anymore???its so blardy hard to find those military kinda heli!all the shopkeeper's telling me..how abt aeroplane?duhhh....i bought lots of stuff from army market thou...cool!!all the camo stuff!!once again its' NOT the SAF kind.......oh ya..anyone reading this knows where i can find those big toy helicopter??the green color kind.....(if only there's ppl reading my blog lor..)

4 more days to payday.........HURRY UP!!!!

No more anonymous comments!

haha!!i really do not like to be kept in suspense SO dear all who wana leave a comment pls leave ur name k??would like to know who have been reading my blogs too ya....*smilez*

Yeah!!Time to head home!!!!guess this is the only happiest time of the day for me man.....*how sad*

I'm Bored of Blogging!

being the typical gemini...i get bored of things easily & yes i'm getting bored of blogging too!!well we'll juz see how long more i can blog k....hehehe

another rainy morning....Zzzzz!!!raining=gloomy?i beg to differ!!not too sure abt the frds ard me thou..juz gota know that a good frd of mine broke off with her bf...its always sad to hear things like that...but well Life goes on ya...i'm always lost for words when i hear these kinda thingy..nothing we outsiders can do either..words of comfort?crap...emotional support?how??all we can do is juz lend a listening ear ya...talking too much is simply adding probs to prob....

guess no one on earth can quite predict wat's gona happen in the future..a couple can be all lovey dovey at one pt of their life but who knows??i've learnt to never say never...(yes..i'm being a skeptic again)some things are simply beyond our control...after the end of my 1st relationship some 6 yrs ago!!i've told myself to never expect too much from a relationship..we can say SO much and plan SO much but the higher we go..the harder we fall...all the i love u,i'll never leave u,i'll never have a change of heart..CRAP!!at the end of the day only comes disappointment...after 3 failed relationships,i came to realise that its strange how Love can turn into hatred then into disappointment...

till now i still do not understand..why love when ultimately we'll end up being disappointed?with ourselves..with our partner...with Love?seriously i duno if i can still love like i did before.One can say i'm selfish but who isnt...true love is rare but i kinda doubt if it truly exist...sometimes its the simpler things in life that is tough to find...But once again,who can truly say that they know or understand what Love is?it all comes down to how & wat our heart tells us....

Raining Season

rainy season!!yeah & booo!!yeah coz can wear stylo milo jackets and ones' mood will be better in cool weather,boo coz cant go suntan!haiz....anyway i always prefer the rain than the sun!

have been late for wk very much lately...hahah!!!so shiok to cuddle in bed man!!if only i have the whole week free!!can ZZZZ!!!!havent had my norm 12hrs sleep for a
long long time already man!!

ytd witness a grp of church mates going thru confirmation.Mixed emotions....happy for them yet sad that my journey with them at rciy have ended...u know the thing abt parting is that we'll always say things like ya..we'll keep in touch k?meet up soon..miss u..blah blah....but seriously how many ppl really take it seriously??i heard that a million times during graduation..pri..to sec..to shatec..till now but honestly how many ppl do we really keep in contact regularly??alright..i'm being a cynic again...that's me lah...but i sure will really miss them..esp on sundays....haha!!!

alright!!it's official!!i'm gona revamp my room!!hahaha!!got 2 theme in my head...either gothic or US military theme.Izaar was telling me..oi thought u Catholic?can have gothic looking room meh?i was like huh??y cannot?yes yes i know if u trace back the origins of gothic..it has something to do with the witches..supernatural..cults...but DUHHH!!!not like i'll have voodoo dolls or wat in my room rite!!its juz the 'feel'..mysterious look!!I LIKE!!i wana PAINT MY ROOM BLACK!!!!hahaha!!*kidding lah* as much as i want to..but my mama will scream man!!the other is US military kinda feel...i've ALWAYS like camo stuff...not the SAF kind lah..*disgusting*..more of the US desert warfare kinda camo...COOOOL!!!i'm going army market later to buy some camo nets for my new game promo...so will go c c look look anything i can add to my room...hahah!!hmmm..or probly i'll combine both theme ya!!not bad.......my dateline's by 1st Jan 2005!!

i cut my fringe again....hahaha!!but this time round its not exactly the china doll kind..coz the ger layered it very much...so not so chi-na like the previous time...k lah..not SO bad...

went zara on sat...BORING!!nothing new..haha!!or probly coz no $$ so didnt really have'the mood' lah...Topshop having sales..damn!!!cant they have it like end of the mth??!got so many nice stuff!!told myself i cant go town till next mth...VIC!!CONTROL!!!!but really gota buy new shoes...very long never buy shoes liao...wana go JB to buy but recently like not very safe lor....heard so many scary encounter...so no choice gota buy them here...alright..another 5 MORE DAYS......

jess juz msg me..Vic wana go drinking this wed?haha!!that stopid ger always say dun wana go then in the end cant control still go!but well...ladies gota make FULL use of ladies nite ya!!as much as i dun fancy gg dbO..that's THE only place ard offering FREE drinks all nite!i know Chinablack as well but ewww super sucky place!!BAD MUSIC,SUPER BAD CROWD!!and they only offer certain free drinks...Duhhh!!!no shots...CHINABLACK JUZ SUCKS lah!!it shd change its name to botakboiplace!

Yeah!!got Top Model tonite!!!

This Fri SUCKS big time.....

Oh man..moodswing again...yes i know its fri(so?!)..& no its not pms..juz plain MOODY...

The truth always hurts ya....know what i mean?the straight in ur face kinda truth.The know but yet dun quite know kind...& ultimately picking up the pieces then *bang*!The after effect can be a little too much for one to accept ya..alright,once again i've got no idea what the hell i juz said.

There are sooo many thoughts growing & running in my pwwuny head!!it has been going 180km/hr since last 2 mths!!its crazy man!its one of those things u really wana share yet dun really feel like sharing with the wrong person...i dun like to share personal stuff with ppl who are so...hmmmm...or put it this way...i enjoy sharing with like-minded ppl which..well not alot ard ya!and i'm really not someone that will call or take the initiative to open up myself & blah blah blah my probs...really not me man!yes...its the wk of my pride & ego again....

In the meantime its probly only to izaar that i'll share really deep...well i see him practically 6 days a week man,wat u think!!he truly understands & well probly its a guy's thing lah...they always see the bigger picture that gers dun...& that really helps...simplify things i guess,no idea!at times it'll boil down to u wondering where the fark's everyone when u need them.so near yet so far kinda feeling....exactly how i'm feeling right now!browsing thru ur phbook yet wonder...who shall i msg.....SUCKS!

Everybody make mistakes from time to time ya...so do i!But mistakes that will make u regret for life?probly not many....how on earth do we deal with that?!wo bu zhi dao!!!i'm not feeling lost..confused maybe...& the thought of how stupid & ignorant we can get at times..making impulsive decisions then end up regretting!!YES THAT'S ME!!that sucks man!!big time!!Arrghh!!!!!!

Have been attending Novena lately...never had the habbit to but juz have the urge..did not pray for anything in particular...juz attend..that's wat my mama have been telling me..pray to our Lady more....our Mother's always there to help..i sincerely hope so....

Cuban Music's way Cool!!!

its already 9.30am and i'm still alone in the office!!well its thurs..izaar performs at bagackers every wed nite..so its a norm that he's late on thur lah...

hahhaa!!was saying ytd that coz got rehearsAL in church so not going drinking...*opps* ended up at dbO & mdm wong!!wahahaha!!!!aiya...sort of ended early mah..9.30pm...and val so on last nite......so juz go lor.....i didnt reach home late ya...before 1am...hehe!!but was kinda tired last nite so didnt quite drink...was wearing office wear somemore,so feel alittle errr...aunty?dbO was having some Ms dbO show..BORING!!!they close up the dancefloor!!DUHHH!!!Ms dbO on a ladies nite?pls lah...have it on a fri/sat when all the men come out to play lah..y the hell do i wana see 8 not very pretty gers with the 'pls vote me' smile,sashaying ard...hahahahaha!!!!*so mean*...but confirm next week i'm not going drinking....i swear...hahah!!(we'll see lah)

i'm eating like a pig this mornz man!probly coz i didnt have dinner last nite?hmm..other then my mama's egg sandwich..i bought 2 muffins(*yuum*)+my daily dosage of teh-beng..and cookies!oh my!all that for breakfast!on a normal day i'll only have teh-beng & probly biscuit......

speaking of the devil...here comes izaar..haha!!with his up to no good grin again!honestly wking here will be damn boring w/o him!the world needs more ppl like him man!!i dun mind having a bf like him thou!very much...hahaha!!wasted he's a muslim...haiz~!!i'm so influenced by his music taste lately...starting to like cuban,latino,brazilian music....music with lots of drums & beat..cool!!!

DAMNNN!!!!i regret saying izaar's nice!!HE's irritating me with the pontianak song AGAIN!!!!!EEEWWWW!!!!HOW i hate him now!!!

Hot Yoga's Shiok!

its mid week!and i refused to wake up this morning.....no idea y?probly coz it was raining last nite?so damn cooling....SHIOK AH!haha!!went HOT yoga with rach ytd!!*piangz* really HOT man!!!sweat like nobody's business!!1 & a half hr!but k lah...detoxicfy my system..hahha!!!

today got church rehearsal so cant go drinking......haiz!!this mth damn broke also lah...so take it as saving $$ lor..

have been doing alot of thinking this week as in what i wana do after confirmation.Druce said something that struck me....we are all lost after something ends.I was & i am now.well prob i'll go back to my shell lor....and rot in there!!wahaha!!!guess that's me lah..always very protective of myself..hmmm...community stuff's really not my cup of tea lah...coming back as facil is already a big challenge for myself...its already pushing myself to my limits ya,so enough lah...oh man!..dun start tis else i'll talk rubbish & make no sense....but still no doubt this 6mth has been very meaningful! :)

sian!!!my farking bdd director's PISSING ME OFF AGAIN!!!!Izaar's damn evil..say probly when he was young he swallowed a crayon by mistake....hahaha!!but that was funny!!a walking crayon!!oh no..i'm so evil today(oe everyday?!)!!really gota go confession on sat liao!!Izaar worse!!fasting still talk bad abt ppl!!hahahaha!!!!but well since i'm already going confession...might as well.......

Babies Drool....Ewww!!

damn..its sucky monday again....!!Arrghh!!!sat suppose to go suntanning but it RAIN in the morning!!!haiz....then met Druce go Novena before discussing for sunday's session which turn out errrr....not quite what we expected...but well at least we tried...hahaha!!!sun as usual went church...so sad..its our last class liao!!haiz....well...nothing last forever anyway......

After class me & lynn went chai lee's place to see her darling...a very beautiful GOLDEN RETREIVER!!!!hahaha...no lah...actually its to go see her baby ger...aiyo...i really really do not fancy babies man....THEY DROOL!!!!eewww........but she's cute lah....hahaha!!!me and lynn were like pigs lor..went compass pt da bao food to chai lee's place...we bought a little of everything at old chang kee!hahaha!!bought sucky sushi...drinks...and tidbits!!hahaha!!!and its only meant for us lor......PIGS...haha!

haiz...i'm really broke man!!BROKE!!!& i hate that feeling!!cant go town...meet ppl also muz go ulu places...oh no!!its only the 18!!another half a mth to go.....HOW?!!!i think i spent all my $$ on food!!DRINKS!CLUBBING..........arghhhh!!!TERRIBLE!!!cant go Zara...no TOPSHOP.....*CRY*

Having a reaL bad sore throat & cough till i dun even dare to talk much in case i have a 'coughing fits'...yes....where i'll keep coughing non-stop for say 3mins?yes and i cant control it....till i'm so scared to take the train or bus....hate it!!and my voice's Duhhhh after 10pm!!so for this period of time i'll not pick up calls
after 10...i'm serious!MY MAMA ACTUALLY ASK ME TO SHUT UP COZ I SOUNDED HORRIBLE....*CRRRYYYY*it has been going on for a week!!!take cough syrup already also like that.....prob i really gota not take spicy food for a while..but r u kidding me?!!no chilli = no good food!!!haiz....i might as well join izaar to fast lah!!!

y are so many ppl born in Oct?!

Its Thurs!!yippy!!duno y the hell i'm so happy either sia!probly coz went drinking last nite!havent been for 2 weeks already...it was a very last min thingy lah..jess called me ard 4pm,say wana go for a 'short' drink anot..so yaya papaya say surely will go back b4 10pm.End up leaving at 12.30am!haha!!well wat's new....have not truly enjoyed drinking/clubbing since val's bday till last nite man!!!me & jess were so blardy high till we end up sitting outside 7-11!!!a scene that we always condemn others of doing...hahahaha!!!but really cannot make it!!and jess,ur cha-cha move's TERRIBLE!!!but damn funny!!hahaha!!!

Imagine...2 damn high gers sitting by the roadside toking abt the serious things in life...wah!!hahaha!!!so cannot make it already yet still trying so hard to be sober and talk abt the chim things....have no idea what i did when i got home last nite coz mama was nagging at me this morning saying i muz be drunk..blah blah......hmmmmm *wondering*

Mic u missed the fun....hahah!!!if u r reading this...zouk next mth k?this mth me & jess damn broke!so many Oct babies...aiyo!!!!let me know when ur exam's over ya...

yippy!finally off this sat & i'll be going suntanning...hehhee!!after so long...finally found time to go suntanning...jess was saying muz sun till black black or else we'll not leave!!siao ah!haha!!& no idea y i juz cant get tan tan...WHY??!!blardy hell,ppl take a day to have nice tan i go SOO many times still LIKE THAT!!mama always say i waste time only......haiz....

meeting val after wk today..oh no muz tell myself no more drinking tonite...we shall go Mos to drink teh-beng instead...haaha!!mama says drink too much not good for the liver..serious!!that was wat she was nagging to me this morning!duhhh.....

HYPOCRITES!

i'm officially in 'bitch mode' today!!SERIOUSLY!!!the 2 stupid fellows who so happen to be my superior's driving me crazy!i'm sorry man!!dun expect me to be that Ms Nice anymore...they didnt pass down the message properly & its their damn blardy problem..dun push everything back to me!!duhhh!!!guys really make damn good bitches too ya!!even better than gers!wat duhh...now everyone's sort of blaming me for the delay of a new game that shd be release tmr..HELLLO!!!!info's not passed down to me & its my fault?!!lazy like hell behind the boss..today boss come back then act one kind...HYPOCRITES!!!make me the scapegoat & kana scolded by the boss...irresponsible farkers!still can come and act nice in my face!!fark off man!!i dun need that!

They are in close contact with the boss when he was away...i already told them whatever i have to on my part...if THEY FORGET & did not convey the message...its NOT MY BLARDY FAULT!!!!!Damn pissed today!!kana scolded for something that i did no wrong,worse of all,HAVE TO accept the fact that IT IS MY FAULT!!!duhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Izaar's damn pissed too...a graphic designer having to do production work...not like he have nothing better to do.And as usual...the 2 farkers only know how to talk but wouldnt help...act busy....wat they do best!sometimes i even wonder if they have brains....probly yes...juz that its up their arse...

duno what's happening to me lately either....not in the best of mood i guess...everything & anything can sort of make me flare up...alright...i know its not good..but it'll be over soon coz i'm quite a nice person...REALLY!!

Did some crazy stuff over the wkend...meet up with 2 frds and walked from Tampines Mall to Geylang...YES...WALKED!!hahah!!took us abt 3 1/2 hrs....had supper then cont from Geylang to Paya Lebar where we finally call it a day!!cant take it!!was already 3.30am!!hahaha!!so in total it took us 6 hrs....damn tired but it was good fun...haha!!

really damn pissed today!!ARRGHHH!!!!havent been sooo angry for awhile man!!ppl who know me well shd know that it takes alot to make me really pissed & angry..so more or less shd know how much fark i went thru today ya!!!SHIT!!!!i doubt tmr will be any better man....duno y...juz feel so....

*damn!!David Yeo's eliminated from Spore Idol.....*sob* Yeah!!today got America Top Model!well..at least something good to end this sucky Monday!

Run To You

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
Oh a girl that's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
Oh woah what's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share them with
Tell me what does it mean

Run away, no
I need you here I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
No if you only knew how much I wanna run to you
Ya know I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away

Probably..i duno...Why?

feeling quite down & moody today...in fact i would say very...ALOT of stuff running thru my mind.Met up with a frd ytd...2hrs of conversation that leads to a whole nite of thoughts.i've nvr met someone so pessimistic EVER b4 in my whole life..yes i'm serious.for that whole 2 hrs i was dumb for words...1st time have i ever not know wat to say..and i really mean i DUNO wat to say..to him nor myself.its not those typical Q&A conversation...its juz something that do not require any answers yet at the end of the day i question myself...why?

for the whole nite i was wondering..am i being over optimistic abt everything & anything that ever happens to me?have i not been thinking enough?or do i simply refuse to do so?am i not putting enough effort in the ppl & stuff ard me?i duno...i think..i really do but not for long i guess..i avoid when problem arise..i duno..alot of shit happened to me over the past 2 mths..yet there is never a time did i quietly sit down and think abt it..why?i have all the time in the world to do so yet i refuse to..probly yes i wana avoid...avoid wat?i question myself too...i refuse to tok to anyone abt it..i refuse to even question myself...y?i duno...i guess somewhere in me i know that reality sucks....i duno...

i start to ask myself what kind of life have i been leading for the past 22 yrs...i duno..probly my 'optimism energy' have been overshawdowed by all the pess stuff in that short 2 hrs...last nite i couldnt sleep coz so many crap in my head...everything juz comes...YES!EVERYTHING!this morning when i woke up..DAMN its still there!!!i hate it coz this is usually not the case...thus i hate to think..i hate it when there's no solution...hate to hate myself...hate it when i cant find an answer to my question...i really dun wana end up being those fellow who finds everything in life sucks..know what i mean....

Met up with another frd later at night...he told me that i shdnt let the pess stuff ard me affect me coz i'm so optimistic but its tough..it really is...prob there's very little effect on pess ppl when an opt person speaks to him/her...but its a BIG effect on an opt person when a pess person speaks to him/her.no idea what the fark i juz said...he said so many things to me but to be honest,non of which quite goes into my brain.....yes i admit i'm very stubborn in many ways...but all this emotional stuff is way too much for me to handle man...way too much....have been bottling all my troubles/prob in my heart but always solve it using my mind...wat the fark am i talking abt again?!no idea...

i always think that i can handle my own life/emotions.There's no need to share what i truly feel with others...no need to tell others what kind of shit i'm going thru..no need advises coz i can solve my own problems...am i wrong?probly....shd i open up more?am i setting standards that are way too high for me to handle?probly...shd i not be so stubborn in my own VicWorld?probly....shd i allow ppl to enter my world?probly....but what is in VicWorld?i have no idea either....PRIDE?

duno if anyone ever feels the way i do....is it usually the case?when u start to think...everything else starts to come into ur mind..is that how our brain works?once u get it wking it juz doesnt stop?i duno.....can we control wat goes into our mind?i duno....well at least i cant...

bernard,if u think that i'm not thinking enough coz i have not been to the lowest pt of my life...u are so wrong....u will never wana know how low i have been man.i dont potray that dosent mean i have not.guess its juz coz i refuse to allow myself to fall into my own trap..i duno...many a times i let my pride get over me...refusing to let others discover who i truly am...probly me myself is refusing to let moi discover myself too....i duno...

to be honest i duno y the heck am i feeling how i'm feeling right now...as much as i tell myself to not let others affect me,the cruel fact is that it does...well probly its not the ONE thing but the MANY things that lead me to how i'm feeling now....have i been suppressing my feeling way too much?i duno.....watgoes ard comes ard?probly...after 22yrs...is it getting the better of me?probly yes.....

Wwoooo!

juz came back from lunch with izaar at our cafe...WWoooo...saw a good looking guy sitting next to our table!wahhh...for once there's a good looking male species at Tan Boon Liat man!!haha!!was telling izaar that that guy's kinda cute...know what he told me?never say another guy's cute to a cute guy...Duhhhh.....MEN!but he's really cute...somewhere btw Allan Wu & Chris Lee.. *drooling*

Slacky Thursday

woke up late this morning!took a cab to wk...blardy ex to take cab in the morning man!esp when my wkplace is within the cbd area...meter states 8.80 but ended up paying additional 5.50 for erp..peak charges!!wah!!!makes no sense rite!haiz.......cant claim somemore....

met up with val last nite...went bugis wanting to look for jess's bday present but...hehehe!!!found nothing....luckily there's one more week!end up drinking at Liang Seah St..haha!!but didnt stay there for long..had a mug of SUCKYYY stella (duhh...they serve popcorns) then we decided to head to alley..kinda miss the chips lah..haha!!oh..we did not go to alley but acid bar coz cosier...we had 6 rounds of chips!!!!can u imagine!!aiyo......but NICE!!!hahha!!left ard 11.45..got 2 very kind cutie ang-mos got a cab for us BUTTTTTTTT me & val regretted the moment we got on the cab coz the cabbie 's an indie...and i'm not racist!!THE CAB STINKS!!!!the whole journey was terrible man,its not the drinks that makes us wana puke but the smell!!ewwwww!!!

bought this really cute spongebob bottle from seiyu...CUTE!!hahaha!!!i had the same but powerpuff gers one as well...stooopid izaar says so old still buy cute stuff...helloo...i'm not THAT old lor...hahhaa!!!AND I LOVE SPONGEBOB!!!

yeah..finally got plans for new yr countdown!hahaha!!!going chalet+bbq at downtown east!its a small affair lah..juz some close buds(in fact only me,val,rach & jess) gather,gossip,drink + chill out...

damn free today coz boss outstation!hahaha!!me and izaar playing online pool and crapping once again....*grinZ*

i wana go home!

how ironic!i usually blog early in the morning..shortly after i come into the office....today i'm blogging late at nite!!yess....i'm still in the officEE!!Arghh!!!so much stuff to do!!!i'm done with my stuff...waiting for izaar to complete his part and we can leave...10pm at TAN BOON LIAT BUILDING!!!i dun even dare to go to the toilet to pee man!!& sttttopid izaar keep scaring me........but its really kinda eerie outside lor....

So tired...*yawn* hungry...aiyo...suddenly got craving for prata!!*drooling* damn sian...luckily today got nothing nice on telly...else i'll curse & swear man!!haha!!hopefully i can claim hrs off tmr then can come in the afternoon...can ZzzZ....!!!

its 10.15pm already!!!!gota go rush izaar as well as to irritate him....hohohoho!!!after wking non-stop for 12hrs...we both going alittle bonkers liao!!*grinZ*

Who am i?

*sigh* its monday AGAIN!did not blog for 3 days...lets start from fri..went wala with jess & val..one word..sucks!for the whole nite only had a glass of black russian..how sad's that man!but the live band there's good ya...the bartender's super friendly too..other than that the rest sucks!

had gastric on sat..so took mc and slept for the WHOLE day..yes..whole day..from the moment i got home on fri morning ard 2am to 7pm on sat...had dinner then went back to sleep till sunday morning!hahah!!its damn shiok man!!!

sunday was alright..as usual went church in the morning afterwhich caught white chix at j8!damn funny but quite a crappy show.went amk s11 with daph to meet up with bernard for dinner.we sat there to chat till abt 11.30pm!haha!!but it was all good..

topic that we shared during class ytd was "Who am i"...hmmmm...quite a chim topic really,coz for a matter of fact how many of us truly know who we are??& r we really who we think we are?not too sure abt that man....well who am i?optimistic is always wat i use to describe myself.... but sometimes too op till it seems like i heck abt everything ard me...hahaha!!& i'm no worry-nut coz i always feel its a waste of time..i got this really lay back attitude which...hmmmm..duno if its gd or bad man!bottomline,i like who i am now...being consistent is a diff thingy altogether..after coming out to THE wking society long enough...we learn to wk smart man!sometimes being too stubborn sticking to our so call values is a slow suicide!i'm not saying we have to put on a fake front or be hypocritical all the time but like it or not its juz how things are outside our world!others might chose to differ but well one juz gota wait,learn & see......

I never quite enjoy talking to ppl who have not stepped into the wking society coz some of them are simply so naive!thinking that everyone & everything will go their way and they can always be who they are.HELLUUU...we are talking abt the REAL world lah..worse part is some degree holders will think that juz becoz they have a so call U degree..they will be given 'special grant' or something..MY FOOT!!wait long long lor!

damn....gastric pain again.....izaar on mc today also..sian!!!

PAYdaY!

yippy..it payday!haha!!first thing i'll do after wk is head to Topshop!have been wanting to get this top for a while,a green top!i'm a little obsessed with green lately....SO NICE!!!

fark....i actually left my hp on-site last nite!!after my product launch i juz left in a hurry..duhhh....stupid me!i forgot to tell mama that i cant meet her for dinner at chinatown...she cant get me thus ended up waiting for an hour+...*sooo guilty* hey i shdnt be ya...got scolded by her too...so its all fair!haha!!gota go collect my phone later in the morning..sian!!!raining somemore...this kind of weather...shd be home ZZZzz man!!!what the hell am i doing here?!

today'll be a busy day sia...after product launch got alot of stuff to settle...billings esp...!!numbers..figures...Arrghhh!!but well...it's payday...*SmileZ* guess $$ is my only motivation nowadays....

*I wana go watch Scary White Chicks!!!!*

Make me an instrument of Your peace

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace.Where there is hatred,let me sow love;where there is injury,pardon;where there is doubt,faith;where there is despair, hope;where there is darkness,light;where there is sadness,joy.

O,Divine Master,grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;to be understood as to understand;to be loved as to love;For it is in giving that we receive;it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;it is in dying that we are born again to eternal life.

Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou amongst women,and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,now and at the hour of our death. Amen.

Rainy Thurs

this whole month sucked really...its in fact one of the downs of my life,cant allow myself to fall any deeper..where,i have no idea.One can say i'm cheating myself but who cares!its not easy to be all cheerful when deep down i'm so not,smiley when i feel like crying,hang out w frds when all i wana do is to stay in my room to comfort myself in front of the mirror..but hey,no one told me that life's gona be a bed of roses..no one mention that everything in life will go my way..SO?The cruel fact is that life goes on...we shd be spreading joy,not misery to the ppl ard us...

Many will say Vic..so cynical,skeptical abt everything,i guess i am...and i do not see anything wrong with that.i'm no saint..no doubt i'm optimistic abt alot in life but hey..we cant be hiding in our own lalaland all our lives!u can say i'm being hard on myself by doing so but dun we only learnt thru the hard way?i'm juz trying to be realistic..it's alright to be sad & complain/whine coz we are afterall human,we have emotions..things like that,beyond our control.Wat next?to be a loser & whine 24/7?let the whole world know how miserable we r?is sympathy a remedy?probably....

ppl who knows me will know that i'm very open when it comes to sharing...can talk abt anything under the sun..but 2 things i dun quite share - My Love Life & Family issues,2 that are close to my heart so there's really no need to share except to 1 or 2 close buds.

so much running thru my mind coz alot of frds ard me havent been feeling too happy.My good buds will know that I never quite say things to keep them in their lalaland but will bring them back to sucky earth..haha!how difficult is it to say nice words man?"ohh..no worries,everything will be alright" "dun cry,its not your fault" duhh!!when we are not in the right mind to analyze,we need rational and constructive advises..hmmm...guess this doesnt apply to all ya..so i'm truly blessed to have frds that will always pull me back to yes...sucky earth!i dun need ppl to keep telling me things will be alright..i'll feel better as time goes by when I'M NOT!CRAP...

Alright...enough of the depressing stuff..on a lighter note..IT'S MID WEEK!!hehe!!& 1 MORE DAY TO PAYDAY!!broke,so cant go drinking till then..but i will on FRI!hahaha!!going wala wala...heard so much abt that place from jess & val so its time to go c c look look..haha!!it has been a long time since the 3 of us went drinking coz val's soo busy lately..well we're all slaves for $$..who isnt ya!

ARGHH!!all the drilling & knocking from next door's killing me!!!STOPPPPP!!!!damn irritating!!!

Don't Tell Me

You held my hand and walked me home
You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go?
Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love
Guys are so hard to trust
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl?
The one who gives it all away

Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you, this time?
Did you think that it was somethin I was gonna do and cry?
Don't try to tell me what to do,
Dont try to tell me what to say,
Your better off that way

Don't think that your charm and the fact that your arm is now around my neck
I'm gonna ask you to stop, thought I liked you a lot, but I'm really upset
Get out of my head get off of my bed yeah thats what I said
Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl, the one who, throws it all away

This guilt trip that you put me on won't, mess me up I've done no wrong
Any thoughts of you and me have gone away

I'm better off alone anyway

Miserable Week...when its only Monday!

damn!!!Jay Chou really extend his show to 2 days!!ARRGHHHH!!!*bang head against the wall*

my wkend was farking boring!spend the whole sat ZzzZ...sunday went church then met up with mag..alright lah...meeting up with mag was not boring..hehe!!havent seen her for like so long lor!my official sis in Christ..haha!!went Bugis & saw so many things i wana buy!!PAYDAY!!!PAYDAY!!!!but still i bought a ring & 2 braclet!!NICE!!!hahaha!!!watch New Police Story...DAMN!!!!do Daniel Wu look good man!!!Vic hereby declare Daniel Wu the sexiest man in Asia...EVER!!Oh man...how on earth can an Asian man look so fine?!!if only i have a bf looking THAT good sia...alright...i'm in my lalaland again!*smiLez* my $8.50 was well spent!!helllooo to watch Daniel Wu....err...Jackie WHO???

Had sinful food ytd!!Apple crumble from swensons but wwwwoooo....its good!!!well...ok lah..going kickboxing again today...so shd burn some calories..haha!!*always cheating myself* Aiyo..i'm gona be a good ger till i get my pay sia!!no more shopping....no Zara,Topshop,no good food,no drinking....no clubbing...Arghhhh!!!!KILL ME MAN!!!

Think i've been attracting the wrong kind of guys lately.....so wrong!!!Oh no...HELP ME!!well.....think juz kill me again ya....*DIED*

Why am i here??!

sitting here in the office crapping & playing online pool with izaar again...hahaa!!it has somehow become a norm for us every sat..it's damn redundant to come wk on sat lor!*switch off mode*

ytd was fri but damn boring....time passes SOOO slow!!went nowhere....head straight home after wk...cook maggie..watch telly then basically did nothing!!this wkend's gona be damn crap too...no plans AT ALL!!aiyo....today after wk going kickboxing..then most prob will head home..meeting a buyer for my bag in the evening..mama have plans this evening so will be home alone AGAIN!*damn* nowadays even my mama's more happening than i am sia!!think few yrs down the road i'll be the one nagging at her..y come back so late lah...go where...with who?hahaha!!

joy joy...cant wait for u to come back from china/bkk man!!haha!!keeping my fingers cross that they'll have what i ask u to buy for me!!hehe!!& cant wait to go shopping with u again next mth..ok..i'm counting down...4 more dayzzzzzzzz...*wiNkz*

i'm already planning for xmas man...hey..& its really not too early..every yr so last min then plan!always end up at crappy places!so this yr muz really plan something interesting!hahaha!!but first of all gota fix a date!!!something that we guys can never ever compromise!!24th?25th?26th?aiyo!!gota shop early for presents too...HATE CROWDS & Qs!!hmmm...buying online's quite a good idea ya......& where to go for countdown as well...haha!!s'pore's a damn boring place for big festivals like that man...its always the same old places...haiz!!well its SINGAPORE!!what can i expect ya...

damn!!it's only 10.30am...2 1/2 more hrs to go...Arrgghhhh!!HELPPPPP!!!

OC's Back!!

finally met up with val last evening..havent seen her for awhile & glad that she made the effort despite her hectic schedule.guess that's the diff btw good bud & casual frds ya...going the extra mile...alright,dun wana start preaching...

went crystal jade for dinner...*yum*,walk walk ard...went coffee club to have brownies..Eeekk!!*sucks man* brownies ala mode have not tasted so bad b4 sia!afterwhich we head to alleybar for a drink...as usual i had my black russian & damn!the chips there sure taste good!!!think whenever i go there,i eat more chips than i drink...haha!!its refillable anyway.....so juz eat ya!!had a good long chat with val & i sure know y we are good bud man...we share the same vision in many things.. relationship...life,work..ya man!no way can i can live my whole life with a nice man who can only provide me with stability & security...i'm one greedy woman....*smiLez* well who isnt?

Izaar was juz telling me his ghostly encounter at his gf's place last nite...straight in the face kind!ewwwww........*spooky*

will be home alone tonite man..mama going church..so will have to cook maggie..but shit!no eggs!!what's maggie w/o eggs...haiz...prob will go da-bao from hougang pt then,so lazy to cook...eekk...the sucky place that sells sucky food....

Set adrift on memory bliss of you

Count the days the hourglass
Days go and all I do is think of you
And wonder where you are at night
I remember everything
Every smile even all the reasons why
You say I pushed you out of my mind

Baby you set me
Set adrift on memory bliss of you

Destiny is everything
Reality's replaced you with
The biggest emptiness
You've ever had in life
Bet you say that I don't care
Bet you say that I don't even think of you
But god knows how wrong you are

Baby will you be there
Just give me time
To fix my life
Baby will you be there
When I open my eyes
After all the time I've spent
Wishing you

Sadness has overwhelmed me
But my thoughts carelessly
Imagine that you're happy
With your life right now
I guess that's just the way life goes
Forever's gone so now I must
Place you with all the things
That I could never have

Sad Thurs??i hope not!

Today don't seem like a very good thurs for many ya..Izaar on urgent leave coz gf admitted to hospital..both Mic i know are having a bad day/week.Aiya..Mic,wat's up with u & Alfred?can meet up to 'su ku' if u want ya..anytime!!& ya u sucky beer cum gin tonic drinker!eekk!!haha!!no worries man..u r not alone,i'm a weired alcoholic too!i drink nothing but liquor..BLACK RUSSIAN!!!haha!!absolutely NO beer or wine *puke* like wat jess always say..i'm a sadist when it comes to drinking coz i LOVE the 'burning sensation'..WATEVER ya!hahaha!!

Mish,know u'll be reading this..once again WELCOME TO THE REAL WORLD!nothing's easy..NOTHING!!the only way to 'survive' is to adapt to watever is coming..not the other way round ya...alot of things are really beyond our control..we juz have to make the best out of ourselves..its always easier to change ourselve to adapt to everything than to change everything juz to suit us..know wat i mean...i'm sure u do!lower our expectations..make life easier,for us as well as the ppl ard us.it's ok to complain (coz i always do!) but the impt thing is to complain & move on...if there's nothing we can do then its not our fault ya..dun have to be so hard on oneself..dun have to make our life so miserable ya...sing with me again!!"ALwayz loOk on The BrigHt siDe of life..lalala!!!" And yes..He is always listening..juz that are we willing to spend the time to allow Him to do so....

rush home to catch the finale of Amazing Race...damn!!Chip & Kim won....dun really think they deserve it but well...Colin's not that bad afterall ya...he broke down & said he love Christy & that's all that matters..which is true!hahaha!!its exp sweet when words like that come out from a guy like colin...brandon's very sweet too...oohh...those curls..sexy..haha!!a lot of reality tv coming up..America's Next Top Model 2's coming back...Tyra Banks..one of my fave models...gota watch!in fact i'll watch anything lah..i'm a reality tv freak.

Do Penquins Sit?

haha!!!i know i'm crappy lately..asking real dumb questions & irritating the hell out of ppl esp izaar..but he still entertain me saying they dun sit but squat...& apparently he's rite!ya rite!!!haha!!asking him y pink's en evil colour..r snails blind..do starfishes have hands..blah blah...Hey imagine this..a whole row of penguins SITTING by the ocean stoning or even smoking!...hahaa!!Alright..juz ignore what i juz said!all morning we both have been chatting on msn,playing online pool & damn!he's good!

Damn reLAX today coz no one's in the office!thou i have a few product launches coming up....haha!!yeah..it's mid-week!time passes damn fast ya....which also means my next pay's coming soon....hehe!!saw this Burberrys wallet last week...hmmmmm!!!shd i shd i not..well i DO need a wallet anyway....howssss?!haha!!Every month b4 payday i'll draw up a shopping list...which is not good man!!there's a few good shops at lucky chinatown..bags r like damn cheap..& yes i have a weakness for bags..bags!!!!

I've been trying to get rid of my stuff at ebay...haha!!i can sell..& buy again!in that case mama got no excuse saying i waste $$ ya...Vic's so smart!response have been quite ok...not too bad!haha!!met a buyer at Orchard mrt last sat..but the fark thing is i took down her hp no wrongly..& she dun have my no...i only know she's call Li Hoon!I did the most embarassing thingy...which was to ask everyone waiting there...errr sorry but r u Li Hoon?& Mic we always do stuff like that together ah..the super paiseh stuff!that time was outside Alfred's camp..hahaha!!Thank God i managed to find her man!else gota take that big shoes box to jess's place...

Today's wed but i'll be a good ger..no drinking session till next mth...haha!!guess juz not in the mood bah...jess also feeling the same way..it's only a break,not like i'll quit drinking!duhhh....kidding me?!Mic & jess if u're reading this...where to for ur bday bash?u can run but u cant hide ya..not after what i went thru for my bday!*wiNkz*

Who was here?

Izaar's damn cranky today man!!hahaha!!everything that he says & do is super lame but i like!haha!!Well at least something to brighten my day! *smiLez**

Ytd was juz another boring day...head straight to home after wk..dinner,slack,watch tv..chat with Rovin till abt 11+..aiyo..are all NS guys so bored when they are in camp??haha!!but he's funny lah...then ZzzzzZZ

Havent mention this to anyone but mama...there's a few 'strange happenings' in my office lately..take this morning for example,me & Izaar are normally the first to come to the office and before that we'll have breakfast at the cafe.From downstairs we saw that the main door was wide open so we were thinking..wah who will come so early.All along we thought it was our Sales Director coz at times he'll come early.After breakfast,we went up then errrr....the door was closed & locked,went in the lights & air-con's on.....i dun quite believe stuff like that so was telling izaar prob he went for breakfast or something...then at abt 9.45..my sales & bdd director came in the office...errrr & they say they juz arrive only...STRANGE!!!my MD dun come in till 12...technical ppl also dun come in till 10+..SO WHO WAS IN HERE??????????

Is salt still call salt when its no longer salty?

I'm so tired to even type man!So many things running thru my mind this morning but yeah...brain dead again..slept like damn late last nite...got home at abt 9pm, went out again to drink with another frd at abt 10pm..so to be precise i got home officially at 1.30am.

Guess who i saw this morning?BEN!!another hougang neighbour of mine...he's working!!hahha!!alright...my impression of Ben has always been a rich brat(the good brat)...always helping out at church..super slack..eat eat eat & sleep..no worries abt anything...WAH!!But he's working part-time!how cool ya...hahaha!!!think will get to see him more often coz we both gota take NEL to Outram....!!But Ben,seriously u still look good with that additional 15Kg *i swear* u never looked bad anyway...guys look better with that excess fats...but u gota STOP hor...no more additionl 15kg!hahaha!!

Ya...i'm STILL not over the salt thingy..shit should have asked Ben this morning!I'm sure he'll have the ans for me,he always do..well hope i'll see him tmr!

My wkend was quite boring yet fruitful..(do ppl still use this word?!)Anyway,went Mt E to treat my lower back pain that has been bugging me for the longest time,duhh...was asked to go for a $480 scan of my spine coz she suspect one of the disc is out of shape & hitting the nerve.she then recommend me to do physiotherapy for a week which i'm still considering!!Told my mama abt it and scare the hell out of her man!haha!!u know lah..old ppl..physiotherapy is a BIG word..afterwhich..played mahjong at jess's place,and i lost!haiz..its ok lah..we had fun still!!Hey..babychamp taste quite gd...and jess hope u enjoyed the red wine we got u ya!Know u'll like lah...sucky beer & wine drinker *wiNkz*

Sun is the norm lor..church..then went lunch at Bishan with Mish & Daph followed by evening mass with Mish & the rest..dinner with Mic & Kelvin then home..Oh no!!i actually spent the whole day with MISH!!!But class was damn funny ya!Victor=Funny!haha!!Wat is a role play w/o him!It'll be fun to have a little bro like him rite!Duno if Jorlyn will think otherwise..haha!!But he's really a darling lah..AND I WANA WATCH HAROLD & KUMAR!!!!*cry*

Woww..quite a few ppl from church gona watch Jay Chou's concert...Nicola,Jamine..but damn!Jasmine actually manage to get the $148 seats...me and Nicola only got the $128 ones..haiz..watever lah!!Me & Nicola were saying there better not be additional show man!!Or else i'll kill myself ya!

So slack mood today sia...think i everyday also slack mood lah ya!hahaha!!!Gota be the pasta i had ytd man...feel like shitting now.....

Yippy Friday

Feeling chirpy but izaar's on mc today..:( had food poisoning...haiz...for once i have to be good and not irritate anyone...

On most mornings i'll see this dude at the bus stop..(we both gota take the NEL lah)he's not like drop dead gorgeous or super cute but he dress to kill man!Well at least it killed me..hahha!!havent seen too many guys ard with good dress sense for a long long time..his style..I LIKE...today i see him again..he's wearing:

White long sleeve T acc by red short sleeve T
Beige cargo pants
Big Adidas sling
Dark Green Birkenstock
Super cool sunglass

Everytime i see him he's so well dressed(with broad shoulders & hips)..ragged look,spot with a mohican hairstyle!!(Vic like...!)think ytd he was wearing white T/grey sweater/dark blue jeans/adidas kickboxing shoes.Wooooooo....i'm always impress with guys/gals that knows how to dress WELL.But sad to say spore guys are WAY too boring to watch man!!Wat's with the endless black/blue t-shirts??!Sneakers are the ONLY thingy they'll wear...duhhh...anyone realise that toes look kinda sexy too?And thinking wearing shirt with jeans is impressive?THINK AGAIN!!!It 's high time someone go tell them that its not!alot of guys will say spore so hot,wat else to wear?duhhh...it simply a waste of time talking to guys like that man!HOPELESS!!!!And Nike's not the only place selling T ya..ZARA too!nicer,hiper & chic!Alright...all the above are simply what i feel...some girls might like 'simple dressing' guys but no no for me man!u can not look good but u HAVE to dress good.....and guys our age using wireless earpieace..-_- PLEASSSEEE!!!It not cool man...super turn off...

It's 10.30 but i'm still alone in the office..haha!!Blasting Usher's songs and singing like nobody's business...who cares man!!haha!!lalala....lalaa....

Damn!Jay Chou's $148 concert tix are all sold out!!!The seatings left for $128 are so pathetic!Die die wana go watch so no choice but to to take the pathetic seats left lor..was thinking to book only end of the month but Mastercard holder got priority booking..so juz log in to see WAHH!!!all the tix are selling like hotcakes man!!was telling Rach cannot man..how pathetic we also gota take coz i dun wana end up sitting at the balcony!Wah..today only the 3rd day & most of the tix have been sold....well its Jay mah...his 1st big scale concert here somemore...CAN'T WAIT!!

Vic's Nite Out

*FARK* Before this post i was already done typing but duno kay po go click what then everything's gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!me and my itchy finger!!!!ARRRRRRGGHH!!!

2.30am - came back from zouk
2.45am - towel in hand but still stoning on my comfy sofa
2.50am - mama started scolding me
3.00am - before mama starts yelling at me..i decided to go bathe
3.15am - mama cont her nagging (y i wash my hair lah..come home so late blahblah..)
3.30am - ~ZzzZzz~
6.30am - *damn* woke up thinking its already 7.30!!
7.30am - mama sleeps beside me & STARTED NAGGING!!!!ARRRGGGHHHH!!!!
7.40am - had enough of 'wake-up nagging',drag myself to go wash up
7.45am - stone in front of the mirror doing my hair & make-up
8.05am - zombie walking to the bus stop
9.10am - reaches office & starts writing my blog with all my brain cells DEAD!

*Should have come to the office after zouk man since its juz across the road...:)

Alright..i'm not THAT stone lah...but not sure as the day passes man!hahaha!!!mambo was ok ytd..but we still stayed till 2am..haiz..wat's new anyway?!But jess ur frd's quite a good dancer ya..but i err forgot his name..haha!!in fact i dun even rememeber any of their names!*wiNkz* oh ya!!mahjong sssion this sat BUT we still short of one ka!!Rach cant make it..she got family gathering!!Anyone interested???sms me k??PLSSSS!!!heheh!!

Had dinner at this so call Jap fast food thingy at Cineleisure with jess ytd.The curry rice sucks man!!the raman that jess had looks good thou...will go try again!And yes Mic...we WALKED to dbO from cineleisure & its not THAT far lah........

Juz recieve an invitation from PAc Net to go watch a special screening of The Terminal at Lido..duhhh....only 1 tix?!i dun mind catching that show but alone??on a sat?hiaz...a tix gone to waste...haha!!wana catch harold & kumar thou..heard from izaar that it a damn funny show...prob this sunday lah ya...

My boss dropped me an email saying we'll be releasing 7 games in the next 7 weeks...haiz...time to work my arse off again...*Yaaawwwwnnn* Is it lunchtime yet?

Mambo Nuit

C'est un bon matin de mercredi et le Seigneur fait s'il vous plait ce jour un bon l'un pour tout le monde et la me.Paix...

Well apparantly Glenn's fine..lastest was that he went Bandung with his Mum so he's not in Jakarta during the bombing..*thank God* He has already contacted his very anxious godpa abt his whereabt...Think he sort of scare the hell out of everyone ya..haha!!

Aiyo...really not joining RCIY lah..met up with Ash and Eve ytd and were talking abt this thingy..many ppl are being sponsor/befriender for the wrong reasons,most of the time is for our own sake but seriously its abt giving and journeying with the neophytes or enquirers..which i'm really not capable of.If there's not enough input in someone then how are we going to spread the word?It's juz a matter of time we'll leave the ministry..alright i'm not saying we have to join a ministry and get stuck there for life but u know.....y is there a lack of sponsors every yr?Coz ppl dun know the responsibilities that comes with it,many a time we do thing coz everyone's doing it or simply for the fun of it.But at the end of the day we are not serving...so when we cant take that we leave...but really lah,RCIY not my thing..But if u guys decide to do it u'll definitely have ALL my support!!!*smiLez*

And know what Mish,i'm joining a ministry!!The Sunday Catholic Ministry...haha!!!Well guess i'll go back to being a sunday catholic for a while...then attend the Little Rock thingy once in a while....quite meaningful also mah!!*gRinz* Y are u surprise daph?u guys really touched me damn much lor!Dun know u all that well but i really never regret coming back as facil to journey with ur...serious!Well not EVERYONE in this batch touched me lah...but definitely the few that i mention....& u are one of them!*i swear* *wiNkz* U're reading my blog..and u mention not kay po juz concern rite....so at least i know u are CONCERN abt me mah...how not to be touched?!hehe!

Wed nite=ladies nite=endless drinks=MAMBO NITE! hahaha!!alot of shit happen these 2 weeks so u know lah...wouldn't allow myself to be unhappy for long coz Vie courte et nous avons obtenu pour l'apprecier au plus plein et est heureux ! Which also means Life's short & we got to enjoy it to the fullest & be happy!!haha!!Have not been practicing my french for a while but think its correct lah...but Qui les soins? (who cares?)

Sunshine After the Rain?

thanks for your comments Mish*hugz*..you are so rite,we view things differently when we are in different position.Sometimes being in the situation itself we tend to be more stubborn & still wandering in our lalaland (which i hope i'm not!)Guess alot of things requires 2 hands to clap ya?Like what i told u...many a times in life we juz gota take a step slow to allow ourself to think rationally,and sorry is quite a redundant word..y do we say sorry?It's an over-rated 5 letter word.....is Sorry a "u r forgiven' pass??Definitely not so in Vic's world...haha!!Mish u think too highly of me man..i'm no way near a firm decision maker..i juz dun like to dwell on stuff..

Had very sinful food this morning...Izaar bought me a pack of Hersey chocolates!One of the few things that i'll never say no to man!haha!!k lah..once in a while...hahaa!!(if u believe that u'll believe anything man!)

Was just reading an article that says MAC magazine voted Jude Law the sexiest man for 2004.Oh man..r u kidding me,he's the sexiest when Brad Pitt's 2nd?Jude Law's alright but he's no way the sexiest man!Vic's pick for year 2004..who else but Brad Pitt!!Follow closely by Johnny Deep then Rob Lowe..oooowwww...who else will look better in an armor than Brad in Troy?Russell Crowe?Come on!stop cheating ourself...and which man will still look good with eyeliner other than Johnny Deep in Pirates of the Carribean?Do i even have to say more for Rob Lowe(those eyessss!)(guys with attitude...Vic like...!)*drooling* ok better stop here boy else i'll go on & on & on on on....*gRinz*

Ok can anybody tell me how do i add picture and stuff onto my blog?Was that a silly question?y the hell is Mish's blog so nice with so many nice pics and background and mine...errr...i really super techno idiot so do pardon me lah...hahaha!!All the experts out there....kindly advise...*sMiLez*

P/S: i'll be praying for your safety Glenn..guess anyone who got the email from Steven would be too...

Cheaters

Are lost love that easily replaced?Where have all our basic morales and trust gone to?Aint we taught to stay faithful to our partners?If one is so easily tempted then why are we still call human and not animals?Even dogs stay faithful...y not human?

I'm too lost for words now man...y be a lover when ultimately u'll end up being a cheater?y be so nice at the beginning when the true fact is u are not?A thousand sorries will not make up for the hurt u've brought to that someone...Whatever that is said or done at this point are all plain excuses..i'm sorry but once a cheater..u'll remain as one for ur whole life..nothing beats being a cheat man..u mAY not have ur morales but i do...yes u are so right,2nd chance never did or will exist in my dictionary.

I've no idea how to end this man but guess that's life ya!And Life's GREAT man!

Gloomy Monday

Feeling super duper down over the weekend.Alot of happenings last week..well life goes on..so still gota remain cheerful and smiley...:) My wkend was quite boring..mahjong session postpone once AGAIN...haiz...no choice coz jess got show and i can't make it in the evening(mic,know u r damn disappointed..next week k?!)...sunday went church followed by lunch at S11(finally no need to eat sucky food at 322!)...went town walk walk..bought 3 CDs!!haha!!NERD,USHER and Jay Chou!!a bit waste $$ but ok lah..watch MTV music awards till abt 1am last nite..and Usher's soooo sexy....his dance move,body,smile...*drooling*

Ytd at class we were talking abt leading a Christian life..esp Catholics..gota abstain from eating meat on Fri..its so difficult to lead a Christian life man!i dun even make the effort to remember its Fri ya..but i'm seriously trying...err..not the meat part but the attending mass part..haha!!i've juz realise the imptance of attending mass and how powerful prayers can be...now that RICY's coming to an end..really gota think what's next man...quite sad to part with the new pals i've made...ppl who have touched me so blardy much!Mish,Daph,Kevin,Steven,Evelyn & all lah..esp Kevin...i really cant affirm him enough man!

Was trying to get Daph's hp number ytd but nobody seems to realise that my phone is Panasonic..and keep sending me her no. via business card..Duhhh!!!!i didnt get her number till like 10pm lor!And its HER msging me!!haiz....

Jay's latest album's cool man..esp the lovey dovey songs...can cry!!somemore feeling depress these few days...doesnt seem to help ya...haha!!but its nice lah..he's kinda cute for an asian too...i never find asian men attractive but well there're definitely exceptions..Daniel Wu,Daniel Wu,..err..think that's abt it..hahahahaha!!!

Yup..juz change blog coz it more interesting here ya...but given me this techno+webbie idiot.....hmm....i'll try lah yaa..heheh!!Haiz!!cant wait for Wed..can go mambo!!And yes mic finally rite!hahaha!!!& pls no more long island..it sucks big time!