RELAX MODE

was on mc ytd...haha!!technically i'm sick..had gastric,but in actual fact i couldnt wake up!hahaha!!went drinking with the gals on wed and for once i cant quite wake up!!i usually am able to lor...probly coz of the damn good weather..BUT i really had gastric!hahaha!!

Wed nite was fun..saw jess's niece...so adorable!!!(BUT babies are still mafan creatures)so jess man!!as usual we went to dbO 1st!me & val played a little prank on jess!a brief rundown of our prank plan:

1)i'll 'accidentally' send her a msg meant for Val (SMS:Val,u not going tonight because of Jess rite?) in the afternoon
2)To avoid all calls/msg from Jess after THAT sms
3)After meeting up avoid talking abt the msg and simply tell her Val cant make it
4)Reach dbO then i'll tell her Val not happy with her coz she told someone something real bad abt her(which jess will SO not lor!)
5)Val will turn up at dbO pretending nothing happen keeping jess in suspense
6)Reveal to her that it's all a bday prank!hahahaha!!!

Jess cried but all was good lah...hahaha!!!!*so evil*

didnt really drink alot on wed thou...coz we didnt have shots...its all cocktail so its more of bloated & sick then drunk or real high...afterwhich we went zouk!haha!!ordered vodka lime(1+1 mah)been a long long time since i've been there....haiz!!!but i'm condemn by my mama....at least for the next 2 weeks i cant go club already....SHE'S REALLY GONA LOCK THE DOOR!!(she's serious)hmmm...but as long as i reach home b4 12,shd be ok!!so still can go alley or acid!hahahaha!!!!!!!

FINALLY we have finalised our plans for NY countdown.Me,val,jess & rach will book a chalet at downtown east!we dun wana go really 'happening' place coz mafan..damn pack,later got prob going home then super ex...+ no transport..blah blah...so go chalet,can chill out,talk,bbq,lots of booze,have fun at WW Wet,suntan!!something diff lah..not something that we'll do every other day mah...a mini gathering!

me & izaar super relax today..haiz..wat's new!!we watching shows from the net!haha!!nobody in the office mah...so heck lah!!we were watching msian idol..DAMNNNN funny!!!super drama as well...!!today izaar wore a baseball cap,sweatshirt+jeans...was telling him..wahhhh so boyband(which he absolutely hate!)haha!!he still sang a tune from BSB...damn act cute!!he so drama mama today!!oh i so love & hate him!he's singing & irritating me AGAIN!!!!think i sort of wrote alot today ya...u know..juz one of those days!!haha!!went hot yoga with lynn goh ytd...shiok!!!!

2 more days to paydayyyy!!!!!

Baby cockroaches found in my cup!!!!!

ewww!!!!!!!how disgusting's that!!alright....i didnt wash my cup b4 i left ytd..so still got some teh beng in there....this morning i came & found so many baby cockroaches in there!!!!!!!EWWWWW!!!!!SICK!!!!!damn disgusting lor......now i'm having difficulties finishing my packet of teh-beng man!!!!EWW!!!& that stoopid izaar's not helping lor.....can still tell me to do the fear factor act...DUHHH!!IDIOT!!the question is.....do i still wana use THAT cup again......EWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!

today's wed!!which also means drinking day!hahaha!!!we've got 'new' members to our alcholic family today!!Rach is joining us...yes!!after so long!!!jess's sis also joining us coz she juz came back from France...cool!!hahaha!!!cant wait!!!think my mama's already sick of nagging every wed morning...hahaa!!she seems to realise that i'll never be home for dinner every wed...last mth she was still threatening to lock the door if i dun come home b4 12!today she was like..see u wear like that,not coming home for dinner rite?hahaha!!my mama's getting smarter each day ya....*winkz*

going out later..look ard for props..for my next game promo..its a US desert warfare kinda game lah..so looking for toy helicopter and stuff...have been looking ard since last week but damn!!dun kids nowadays play with helicopter anymore???its so blardy hard to find those military kinda heli!all the shopkeeper's telling me..how abt aeroplane?duhhh....i bought lots of stuff from army market thou...cool!!all the camo stuff!!once again its' NOT the SAF kind.......oh ya..anyone reading this knows where i can find those big toy helicopter??the green color kind.....(if only there's ppl reading my blog lor..)

4 more days to payday.........HURRY UP!!!!

No more anonymous comments!

haha!!i really do not like to be kept in suspense SO dear all who wana leave a comment pls leave ur name k??would like to know who have been reading my blogs too ya....*smilez*

Yeah!!Time to head home!!!!guess this is the only happiest time of the day for me man.....*how sad*

I'm Bored of Blogging!

being the typical gemini...i get bored of things easily & yes i'm getting bored of blogging too!!well we'll juz see how long more i can blog k....hehehe

another rainy morning....Zzzzz!!!raining=gloomy?i beg to differ!!not too sure abt the frds ard me thou..juz gota know that a good frd of mine broke off with her bf...its always sad to hear things like that...but well Life goes on ya...i'm always lost for words when i hear these kinda thingy..nothing we outsiders can do either..words of comfort?crap...emotional support?how??all we can do is juz lend a listening ear ya...talking too much is simply adding probs to prob....

guess no one on earth can quite predict wat's gona happen in the future..a couple can be all lovey dovey at one pt of their life but who knows??i've learnt to never say never...(yes..i'm being a skeptic again)some things are simply beyond our control...after the end of my 1st relationship some 6 yrs ago!!i've told myself to never expect too much from a relationship..we can say SO much and plan SO much but the higher we go..the harder we fall...all the i love u,i'll never leave u,i'll never have a change of heart..CRAP!!at the end of the day only comes disappointment...after 3 failed relationships,i came to realise that its strange how Love can turn into hatred then into disappointment...

till now i still do not understand..why love when ultimately we'll end up being disappointed?with ourselves..with our partner...with Love?seriously i duno if i can still love like i did before.One can say i'm selfish but who isnt...true love is rare but i kinda doubt if it truly exist...sometimes its the simpler things in life that is tough to find...But once again,who can truly say that they know or understand what Love is?it all comes down to how & wat our heart tells us....

Raining Season

rainy season!!yeah & booo!!yeah coz can wear stylo milo jackets and ones' mood will be better in cool weather,boo coz cant go suntan!haiz....anyway i always prefer the rain than the sun!

have been late for wk very much lately...hahah!!!so shiok to cuddle in bed man!!if only i have the whole week free!!can ZZZZ!!!!havent had my norm 12hrs sleep for a
long long time already man!!

ytd witness a grp of church mates going thru confirmation.Mixed emotions....happy for them yet sad that my journey with them at rciy have ended...u know the thing abt parting is that we'll always say things like ya..we'll keep in touch k?meet up soon..miss u..blah blah....but seriously how many ppl really take it seriously??i heard that a million times during graduation..pri..to sec..to shatec..till now but honestly how many ppl do we really keep in contact regularly??alright..i'm being a cynic again...that's me lah...but i sure will really miss them..esp on sundays....haha!!!

alright!!it's official!!i'm gona revamp my room!!hahaha!!got 2 theme in my head...either gothic or US military theme.Izaar was telling me..oi thought u Catholic?can have gothic looking room meh?i was like huh??y cannot?yes yes i know if u trace back the origins of gothic..it has something to do with the witches..supernatural..cults...but DUHHH!!!not like i'll have voodoo dolls or wat in my room rite!!its juz the 'feel'..mysterious look!!I LIKE!!i wana PAINT MY ROOM BLACK!!!!hahaha!!*kidding lah* as much as i want to..but my mama will scream man!!the other is US military kinda feel...i've ALWAYS like camo stuff...not the SAF kind lah..*disgusting*..more of the US desert warfare kinda camo...COOOOL!!!i'm going army market later to buy some camo nets for my new game promo...so will go c c look look anything i can add to my room...hahah!!hmmm..or probly i'll combine both theme ya!!not bad.......my dateline's by 1st Jan 2005!!

i cut my fringe again....hahaha!!but this time round its not exactly the china doll kind..coz the ger layered it very much...so not so chi-na like the previous time...k lah..not SO bad...

went zara on sat...BORING!!nothing new..haha!!or probly coz no $$ so didnt really have'the mood' lah...Topshop having sales..damn!!!cant they have it like end of the mth??!got so many nice stuff!!told myself i cant go town till next mth...VIC!!CONTROL!!!!but really gota buy new shoes...very long never buy shoes liao...wana go JB to buy but recently like not very safe lor....heard so many scary encounter...so no choice gota buy them here...alright..another 5 MORE DAYS......

jess juz msg me..Vic wana go drinking this wed?haha!!that stopid ger always say dun wana go then in the end cant control still go!but well...ladies gota make FULL use of ladies nite ya!!as much as i dun fancy gg dbO..that's THE only place ard offering FREE drinks all nite!i know Chinablack as well but ewww super sucky place!!BAD MUSIC,SUPER BAD CROWD!!and they only offer certain free drinks...Duhhh!!!no shots...CHINABLACK JUZ SUCKS lah!!it shd change its name to botakboiplace!

Yeah!!got Top Model tonite!!!

This Fri SUCKS big time.....

Oh man..moodswing again...yes i know its fri(so?!)..& no its not pms..juz plain MOODY...

The truth always hurts ya....know what i mean?the straight in ur face kinda truth.The know but yet dun quite know kind...& ultimately picking up the pieces then *bang*!The after effect can be a little too much for one to accept ya..alright,once again i've got no idea what the hell i juz said.

There are sooo many thoughts growing & running in my pwwuny head!!it has been going 180km/hr since last 2 mths!!its crazy man!its one of those things u really wana share yet dun really feel like sharing with the wrong person...i dun like to share personal stuff with ppl who are so...hmmmm...or put it this way...i enjoy sharing with like-minded ppl which..well not alot ard ya!and i'm really not someone that will call or take the initiative to open up myself & blah blah blah my probs...really not me man!yes...its the wk of my pride & ego again....

In the meantime its probly only to izaar that i'll share really deep...well i see him practically 6 days a week man,wat u think!!he truly understands & well probly its a guy's thing lah...they always see the bigger picture that gers dun...& that really helps...simplify things i guess,no idea!at times it'll boil down to u wondering where the fark's everyone when u need them.so near yet so far kinda feeling....exactly how i'm feeling right now!browsing thru ur phbook yet wonder...who shall i msg.....SUCKS!

Everybody make mistakes from time to time ya...so do i!But mistakes that will make u regret for life?probly not many....how on earth do we deal with that?!wo bu zhi dao!!!i'm not feeling lost..confused maybe...& the thought of how stupid & ignorant we can get at times..making impulsive decisions then end up regretting!!YES THAT'S ME!!that sucks man!!big time!!Arrghh!!!!!!

Have been attending Novena lately...never had the habbit to but juz have the urge..did not pray for anything in particular...juz attend..that's wat my mama have been telling me..pray to our Lady more....our Mother's always there to help..i sincerely hope so....

Cuban Music's way Cool!!!

its already 9.30am and i'm still alone in the office!!well its thurs..izaar performs at bagackers every wed nite..so its a norm that he's late on thur lah...

hahhaa!!was saying ytd that coz got rehearsAL in church so not going drinking...*opps* ended up at dbO & mdm wong!!wahahaha!!!!aiya...sort of ended early mah..9.30pm...and val so on last nite......so juz go lor.....i didnt reach home late ya...before 1am...hehe!!but was kinda tired last nite so didnt quite drink...was wearing office wear somemore,so feel alittle errr...aunty?dbO was having some Ms dbO show..BORING!!!they close up the dancefloor!!DUHHH!!!Ms dbO on a ladies nite?pls lah...have it on a fri/sat when all the men come out to play lah..y the hell do i wana see 8 not very pretty gers with the 'pls vote me' smile,sashaying ard...hahahahaha!!!!*so mean*...but confirm next week i'm not going drinking....i swear...hahah!!(we'll see lah)

i'm eating like a pig this mornz man!probly coz i didnt have dinner last nite?hmm..other then my mama's egg sandwich..i bought 2 muffins(*yuum*)+my daily dosage of teh-beng..and cookies!oh my!all that for breakfast!on a normal day i'll only have teh-beng & probly biscuit......

speaking of the devil...here comes izaar..haha!!with his up to no good grin again!honestly wking here will be damn boring w/o him!the world needs more ppl like him man!!i dun mind having a bf like him thou!very much...hahaha!!wasted he's a muslim...haiz~!!i'm so influenced by his music taste lately...starting to like cuban,latino,brazilian music....music with lots of drums & beat..cool!!!

DAMNNN!!!!i regret saying izaar's nice!!HE's irritating me with the pontianak song AGAIN!!!!!EEEWWWW!!!!HOW i hate him now!!!

Hot Yoga's Shiok!

its mid week!and i refused to wake up this morning.....no idea y?probly coz it was raining last nite?so damn cooling....SHIOK AH!haha!!went HOT yoga with rach ytd!!*piangz* really HOT man!!!sweat like nobody's business!!1 & a half hr!but k lah...detoxicfy my system..hahha!!!

today got church rehearsal so cant go drinking......haiz!!this mth damn broke also lah...so take it as saving $$ lor..

have been doing alot of thinking this week as in what i wana do after confirmation.Druce said something that struck me....we are all lost after something ends.I was & i am now.well prob i'll go back to my shell lor....and rot in there!!wahaha!!!guess that's me lah..always very protective of myself..hmmm...community stuff's really not my cup of tea lah...coming back as facil is already a big challenge for myself...its already pushing myself to my limits ya,so enough lah...oh man!..dun start tis else i'll talk rubbish & make no sense....but still no doubt this 6mth has been very meaningful! :)

sian!!!my farking bdd director's PISSING ME OFF AGAIN!!!!Izaar's damn evil..say probly when he was young he swallowed a crayon by mistake....hahaha!!but that was funny!!a walking crayon!!oh no..i'm so evil today(oe everyday?!)!!really gota go confession on sat liao!!Izaar worse!!fasting still talk bad abt ppl!!hahahaha!!!!but well since i'm already going confession...might as well.......

Babies Drool....Ewww!!

damn..its sucky monday again....!!Arrghh!!!sat suppose to go suntanning but it RAIN in the morning!!!haiz....then met Druce go Novena before discussing for sunday's session which turn out errrr....not quite what we expected...but well at least we tried...hahaha!!!sun as usual went church...so sad..its our last class liao!!haiz....well...nothing last forever anyway......

After class me & lynn went chai lee's place to see her darling...a very beautiful GOLDEN RETREIVER!!!!hahaha...no lah...actually its to go see her baby ger...aiyo...i really really do not fancy babies man....THEY DROOL!!!!eewww........but she's cute lah....hahaha!!!me and lynn were like pigs lor..went compass pt da bao food to chai lee's place...we bought a little of everything at old chang kee!hahaha!!bought sucky sushi...drinks...and tidbits!!hahaha!!!and its only meant for us lor......PIGS...haha!

haiz...i'm really broke man!!BROKE!!!& i hate that feeling!!cant go town...meet ppl also muz go ulu places...oh no!!its only the 18!!another half a mth to go.....HOW?!!!i think i spent all my $$ on food!!DRINKS!CLUBBING..........arghhhh!!!TERRIBLE!!!cant go Zara...no TOPSHOP.....*CRY*

Having a reaL bad sore throat & cough till i dun even dare to talk much in case i have a 'coughing fits'...yes....where i'll keep coughing non-stop for say 3mins?yes and i cant control it....till i'm so scared to take the train or bus....hate it!!and my voice's Duhhhh after 10pm!!so for this period of time i'll not pick up calls
after 10...i'm serious!MY MAMA ACTUALLY ASK ME TO SHUT UP COZ I SOUNDED HORRIBLE....*CRRRYYYY*it has been going on for a week!!!take cough syrup already also like that.....prob i really gota not take spicy food for a while..but r u kidding me?!!no chilli = no good food!!!haiz....i might as well join izaar to fast lah!!!

y are so many ppl born in Oct?!

Its Thurs!!yippy!!duno y the hell i'm so happy either sia!probly coz went drinking last nite!havent been for 2 weeks already...it was a very last min thingy lah..jess called me ard 4pm,say wana go for a 'short' drink anot..so yaya papaya say surely will go back b4 10pm.End up leaving at 12.30am!haha!!well wat's new....have not truly enjoyed drinking/clubbing since val's bday till last nite man!!!me & jess were so blardy high till we end up sitting outside 7-11!!!a scene that we always condemn others of doing...hahahaha!!!but really cannot make it!!and jess,ur cha-cha move's TERRIBLE!!!but damn funny!!hahaha!!!

Imagine...2 damn high gers sitting by the roadside toking abt the serious things in life...wah!!hahaha!!!so cannot make it already yet still trying so hard to be sober and talk abt the chim things....have no idea what i did when i got home last nite coz mama was nagging at me this morning saying i muz be drunk..blah blah......hmmmmm *wondering*

Mic u missed the fun....hahah!!!if u r reading this...zouk next mth k?this mth me & jess damn broke!so many Oct babies...aiyo!!!!let me know when ur exam's over ya...

yippy!finally off this sat & i'll be going suntanning...hehhee!!after so long...finally found time to go suntanning...jess was saying muz sun till black black or else we'll not leave!!siao ah!haha!!& no idea y i juz cant get tan tan...WHY??!!blardy hell,ppl take a day to have nice tan i go SOO many times still LIKE THAT!!mama always say i waste time only......haiz....

meeting val after wk today..oh no muz tell myself no more drinking tonite...we shall go Mos to drink teh-beng instead...haaha!!mama says drink too much not good for the liver..serious!!that was wat she was nagging to me this morning!duhhh.....

HYPOCRITES!

i'm officially in 'bitch mode' today!!SERIOUSLY!!!the 2 stupid fellows who so happen to be my superior's driving me crazy!i'm sorry man!!dun expect me to be that Ms Nice anymore...they didnt pass down the message properly & its their damn blardy problem..dun push everything back to me!!duhhh!!!guys really make damn good bitches too ya!!even better than gers!wat duhh...now everyone's sort of blaming me for the delay of a new game that shd be release tmr..HELLLO!!!!info's not passed down to me & its my fault?!!lazy like hell behind the boss..today boss come back then act one kind...HYPOCRITES!!!make me the scapegoat & kana scolded by the boss...irresponsible farkers!still can come and act nice in my face!!fark off man!!i dun need that!

They are in close contact with the boss when he was away...i already told them whatever i have to on my part...if THEY FORGET & did not convey the message...its NOT MY BLARDY FAULT!!!!!Damn pissed today!!kana scolded for something that i did no wrong,worse of all,HAVE TO accept the fact that IT IS MY FAULT!!!duhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

Izaar's damn pissed too...a graphic designer having to do production work...not like he have nothing better to do.And as usual...the 2 farkers only know how to talk but wouldnt help...act busy....wat they do best!sometimes i even wonder if they have brains....probly yes...juz that its up their arse...

duno what's happening to me lately either....not in the best of mood i guess...everything & anything can sort of make me flare up...alright...i know its not good..but it'll be over soon coz i'm quite a nice person...REALLY!!

Did some crazy stuff over the wkend...meet up with 2 frds and walked from Tampines Mall to Geylang...YES...WALKED!!hahah!!took us abt 3 1/2 hrs....had supper then cont from Geylang to Paya Lebar where we finally call it a day!!cant take it!!was already 3.30am!!hahaha!!so in total it took us 6 hrs....damn tired but it was good fun...haha!!

really damn pissed today!!ARRGHHH!!!!havent been sooo angry for awhile man!!ppl who know me well shd know that it takes alot to make me really pissed & angry..so more or less shd know how much fark i went thru today ya!!!SHIT!!!!i doubt tmr will be any better man....duno y...juz feel so....

*damn!!David Yeo's eliminated from Spore Idol.....*sob* Yeah!!today got America Top Model!well..at least something good to end this sucky Monday!

Run To You

I know that when you look at me
There's so much that you just don't see
But if you would only take the time
I know in my heart you'd find
Oh a girl that's scared sometimes
Who isn't always strong
Can't you see the hurt in me
I feel so all alone

I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away

Each day, each day I play the role
Of someone always in control
But at night I come home and turn the key
There's nobody there, no one cares for me
Oh woah what's the sense of trying hard to find your dreams
Without someone to share them with
Tell me what does it mean

Run away, no
I need you here I need you here to wipe away my tears
To kiss away my fears
No if you only knew how much I wanna run to you
Ya know I wanna run to you
Won't ya hold me in your arms and keep me safe from harm
I wanna run to you
But if I come to you
Tell me will you stay
Or will you run away

Probably..i duno...Why?

feeling quite down & moody today...in fact i would say very...ALOT of stuff running thru my mind.Met up with a frd ytd...2hrs of conversation that leads to a whole nite of thoughts.i've nvr met someone so pessimistic EVER b4 in my whole life..yes i'm serious.for that whole 2 hrs i was dumb for words...1st time have i ever not know wat to say..and i really mean i DUNO wat to say..to him nor myself.its not those typical Q&A conversation...its juz something that do not require any answers yet at the end of the day i question myself...why?

for the whole nite i was wondering..am i being over optimistic abt everything & anything that ever happens to me?have i not been thinking enough?or do i simply refuse to do so?am i not putting enough effort in the ppl & stuff ard me?i duno...i think..i really do but not for long i guess..i avoid when problem arise..i duno..alot of shit happened to me over the past 2 mths..yet there is never a time did i quietly sit down and think abt it..why?i have all the time in the world to do so yet i refuse to..probly yes i wana avoid...avoid wat?i question myself too...i refuse to tok to anyone abt it..i refuse to even question myself...y?i duno...i guess somewhere in me i know that reality sucks....i duno...

i start to ask myself what kind of life have i been leading for the past 22 yrs...i duno..probly my 'optimism energy' have been overshawdowed by all the pess stuff in that short 2 hrs...last nite i couldnt sleep coz so many crap in my head...everything juz comes...YES!EVERYTHING!this morning when i woke up..DAMN its still there!!!i hate it coz this is usually not the case...thus i hate to think..i hate it when there's no solution...hate to hate myself...hate it when i cant find an answer to my question...i really dun wana end up being those fellow who finds everything in life sucks..know what i mean....

Met up with another frd later at night...he told me that i shdnt let the pess stuff ard me affect me coz i'm so optimistic but its tough..it really is...prob there's very little effect on pess ppl when an opt person speaks to him/her...but its a BIG effect on an opt person when a pess person speaks to him/her.no idea what the fark i juz said...he said so many things to me but to be honest,non of which quite goes into my brain.....yes i admit i'm very stubborn in many ways...but all this emotional stuff is way too much for me to handle man...way too much....have been bottling all my troubles/prob in my heart but always solve it using my mind...wat the fark am i talking abt again?!no idea...

i always think that i can handle my own life/emotions.There's no need to share what i truly feel with others...no need to tell others what kind of shit i'm going thru..no need advises coz i can solve my own problems...am i wrong?probly....shd i open up more?am i setting standards that are way too high for me to handle?probly...shd i not be so stubborn in my own VicWorld?probly....shd i allow ppl to enter my world?probly....but what is in VicWorld?i have no idea either....PRIDE?

duno if anyone ever feels the way i do....is it usually the case?when u start to think...everything else starts to come into ur mind..is that how our brain works?once u get it wking it juz doesnt stop?i duno.....can we control wat goes into our mind?i duno....well at least i cant...

bernard,if u think that i'm not thinking enough coz i have not been to the lowest pt of my life...u are so wrong....u will never wana know how low i have been man.i dont potray that dosent mean i have not.guess its juz coz i refuse to allow myself to fall into my own trap..i duno...many a times i let my pride get over me...refusing to let others discover who i truly am...probly me myself is refusing to let moi discover myself too....i duno...

to be honest i duno y the heck am i feeling how i'm feeling right now...as much as i tell myself to not let others affect me,the cruel fact is that it does...well probly its not the ONE thing but the MANY things that lead me to how i'm feeling now....have i been suppressing my feeling way too much?i duno.....watgoes ard comes ard?probly...after 22yrs...is it getting the better of me?probly yes.....

Wwoooo!

juz came back from lunch with izaar at our cafe...WWoooo...saw a good looking guy sitting next to our table!wahhh...for once there's a good looking male species at Tan Boon Liat man!!haha!!was telling izaar that that guy's kinda cute...know what he told me?never say another guy's cute to a cute guy...Duhhhh.....MEN!but he's really cute...somewhere btw Allan Wu & Chris Lee.. *drooling*

Slacky Thursday

woke up late this morning!took a cab to wk...blardy ex to take cab in the morning man!esp when my wkplace is within the cbd area...meter states 8.80 but ended up paying additional 5.50 for erp..peak charges!!wah!!!makes no sense rite!haiz.......cant claim somemore....

met up with val last nite...went bugis wanting to look for jess's bday present but...hehehe!!!found nothing....luckily there's one more week!end up drinking at Liang Seah St..haha!!but didnt stay there for long..had a mug of SUCKYYY stella (duhh...they serve popcorns) then we decided to head to alley..kinda miss the chips lah..haha!!oh..we did not go to alley but acid bar coz cosier...we had 6 rounds of chips!!!!can u imagine!!aiyo......but NICE!!!hahha!!left ard 11.45..got 2 very kind cutie ang-mos got a cab for us BUTTTTTTTT me & val regretted the moment we got on the cab coz the cabbie 's an indie...and i'm not racist!!THE CAB STINKS!!!!the whole journey was terrible man,its not the drinks that makes us wana puke but the smell!!ewwwww!!!

bought this really cute spongebob bottle from seiyu...CUTE!!hahaha!!!i had the same but powerpuff gers one as well...stooopid izaar says so old still buy cute stuff...helloo...i'm not THAT old lor...hahhaa!!!AND I LOVE SPONGEBOB!!!

yeah..finally got plans for new yr countdown!hahaha!!!going chalet+bbq at downtown east!its a small affair lah..juz some close buds(in fact only me,val,rach & jess) gather,gossip,drink + chill out...

damn free today coz boss outstation!hahaha!!me and izaar playing online pool and crapping once again....*grinZ*

i wana go home!

how ironic!i usually blog early in the morning..shortly after i come into the office....today i'm blogging late at nite!!yess....i'm still in the officEE!!Arghh!!!so much stuff to do!!!i'm done with my stuff...waiting for izaar to complete his part and we can leave...10pm at TAN BOON LIAT BUILDING!!!i dun even dare to go to the toilet to pee man!!& sttttopid izaar keep scaring me........but its really kinda eerie outside lor....

So tired...*yawn* hungry...aiyo...suddenly got craving for prata!!*drooling* damn sian...luckily today got nothing nice on telly...else i'll curse & swear man!!haha!!hopefully i can claim hrs off tmr then can come in the afternoon...can ZzzZ....!!!

its 10.15pm already!!!!gota go rush izaar as well as to irritate him....hohohoho!!!after wking non-stop for 12hrs...we both going alittle bonkers liao!!*grinZ*

Who am i?

*sigh* its monday AGAIN!did not blog for 3 days...lets start from fri..went wala with jess & val..one word..sucks!for the whole nite only had a glass of black russian..how sad's that man!but the live band there's good ya...the bartender's super friendly too..other than that the rest sucks!

had gastric on sat..so took mc and slept for the WHOLE day..yes..whole day..from the moment i got home on fri morning ard 2am to 7pm on sat...had dinner then went back to sleep till sunday morning!hahah!!its damn shiok man!!!

sunday was alright..as usual went church in the morning afterwhich caught white chix at j8!damn funny but quite a crappy show.went amk s11 with daph to meet up with bernard for dinner.we sat there to chat till abt 11.30pm!haha!!but it was all good..

topic that we shared during class ytd was "Who am i"...hmmmm...quite a chim topic really,coz for a matter of fact how many of us truly know who we are??& r we really who we think we are?not too sure abt that man....well who am i?optimistic is always wat i use to describe myself.... but sometimes too op till it seems like i heck abt everything ard me...hahaha!!& i'm no worry-nut coz i always feel its a waste of time..i got this really lay back attitude which...hmmmm..duno if its gd or bad man!bottomline,i like who i am now...being consistent is a diff thingy altogether..after coming out to THE wking society long enough...we learn to wk smart man!sometimes being too stubborn sticking to our so call values is a slow suicide!i'm not saying we have to put on a fake front or be hypocritical all the time but like it or not its juz how things are outside our world!others might chose to differ but well one juz gota wait,learn & see......

I never quite enjoy talking to ppl who have not stepped into the wking society coz some of them are simply so naive!thinking that everyone & everything will go their way and they can always be who they are.HELLUUU...we are talking abt the REAL world lah..worse part is some degree holders will think that juz becoz they have a so call U degree..they will be given 'special grant' or something..MY FOOT!!wait long long lor!

damn....gastric pain again.....izaar on mc today also..sian!!!

PAYdaY!

yippy..it payday!haha!!first thing i'll do after wk is head to Topshop!have been wanting to get this top for a while,a green top!i'm a little obsessed with green lately....SO NICE!!!

fark....i actually left my hp on-site last nite!!after my product launch i juz left in a hurry..duhhh....stupid me!i forgot to tell mama that i cant meet her for dinner at chinatown...she cant get me thus ended up waiting for an hour+...*sooo guilty* hey i shdnt be ya...got scolded by her too...so its all fair!haha!!gota go collect my phone later in the morning..sian!!!raining somemore...this kind of weather...shd be home ZZZzz man!!!what the hell am i doing here?!

today'll be a busy day sia...after product launch got alot of stuff to settle...billings esp...!!numbers..figures...Arrghhh!!but well...it's payday...*SmileZ* guess $$ is my only motivation nowadays....

*I wana go watch Scary White Chicks!!!!*