I'm Lost again.....

Juz back from drinking with val...suppose to feel good but somehow somewhere within me i'm feeling so sad...so sad that i dun even feel like sleeping...how i hate this feeling....really sleepy yet can't sleep.

Feeling so insecure abt everything ard me,with myself.Lost all the trust that i thought i've built over the last mth or so...gone in the wind!Another lesson learnt:never bear hopes in anything,yes..anything!The higher the hopes....the more disappointment one will get!Ever had the feeling of looking into someone's eyes and feel that everything's so wrong?A pair of eyes looking at u so deeply yet u still feel insecure...you juz cant't seem to figure wat's going in his mind..that's exactly how i'm feeling now......

Over the last mth or so i've honestly tried my very best to open up,to come out of Vic's world,learning how to trust..how to love again,be the me that i always wanted to be,how to share as a couple,voice out when i'm not happy and not avoiding when a problem arise.But apparently i'm wrong..so wrong!i should never have trusted so soon,fall so soon,come out of my world so soon & be so vulnerable.I never should have left my comfort zone to an area i'm so not used to,a world that seems so cold and so distant.Vic Vic....when will u ever learn ur lesson?!!?DAMN ME!

It may be a little pwuny effort but i really am putting in my best each day...probly not my very best but after all the hurt i've been put thru over the yrs...its seriously my very best....in my context at least.....

i know i'm being the emotional baby once again but i juz need to get this off tonight else i know i'll wash my face with tears tonight.....which i already am now....

My 21st bday wish 2 yrs back was to be truly happy for the next few 21 yrs of my life and i'm wking towards that every single day of my life....even till now i still pray for miracle.When i attend Novena..i ask for nothing but Peace and Happiness...every night when i pray i ask the Lord for His Grace of Peace and Happiness.....

How on earth can one be feeling so happy and loved juz 36hrs ago but yet now feeling so shitty...

Guardian Angel.....where r u when i need u the most???

Told u i'll be back.....*winkz*

our dear old jess's 5mths pregnant


me & rach with the sexy mama!




Finally met up with our 5mths pregnant jess!she's looking good....way better than she did 2 mths ago...hahaha!!that's a good sign....went PS for lunch on sunday..too bad mic & val cant make it!!but there's always another day....haha!!no worries...more to come i believe..as her tummy gets bigger & bigger each day!she told us that she can feel her little boy kicking her now...hmmmmm!!!BOYSSSS...wahahah!!she also share with us how marriage life has been so far.....interesting.....*smile*

Havent been blogging for pretty long.....usually tired after i come home....so basically NO TIME!wahaha!work's alright..so far so good...but damn my back's hurting again....had massage ytd but apparently its of NO HELP at all.......sian!!its basically my spine and lower back that hurts not the back muscle that's y massage dun help bah....NO IDEA!!!

So feel like dancing & clubbing these few days...BADLY!but dun really wana go on wed coz i know i'll stay till very late.....thurs gota blardy hell work....but after not paying cover for nearly a yr or so,the thought of going on fri and forking out 15 to 20 over bucks is like...should i!?!know what i mean.....hahaha!!well....i'll go think abt that...*winkz* but still i want my weekly dose of booze.....val juz asked if i wana go..wahahaha!!!got kaki surely go mah..free somemore...yes i'm damn cheapskate when it comes to drinking...

Manage to catch quite a few shows lately...most recent being The Pacifier...Vin Diesel's SSSEEEEEXXXYYYY...men in white T,cargo pants...how much more sexier can a man get??!!?!that's wat Brad Pitt look REAAAAL good in as well....*drooling*i always believe that a good nice cargo pants is all a man ever need...with a nice pair of sandals....*died of excitment* wahahah!!but that show's really nice....Be cool's not too bad either...black comedy,wat i enjoy....but the plot's really bad thou....

Time to bath...............................................and zzzz!!*snore*

me & uncle toh...

Let us all pray for our Holy Father

havent been blogging for a long long time already!too busy to really....today's my off day...man how i enjoyed it!!!1 full day of sleeping.....damn how i missed this!!havent had much sleep for the past few weeks...its indeed a well deserve rest for me!wahaha!!

went drinking with rach & val last wed and so much emotions within 4hrs...seeing val like she did was the most heart-broken thing ever for me for the longest time.Me & rach were totally lost for words and the least we could do was to be by her side.Seeing her breakdown was like....shitty.guess she bottle up for way too long..its abt time we believe.cried for half hr after going home too...no idea y but i juz did.Probly i can truly feel how she felt...duno.seeing a gd frd having to go thru wat she is gg thru is simply too much bah....heart broken's the word really...

I'm living in LOVE LAND for the past few weeks too...wahaha!!havent felt so loved for way too long.Have met someone who taught me how to love again...feeling so blessed.Never thought i would ever say this but i probly have met the love of my life....after so many yrs i never thought i could ever trust again but somehow somewhere for the last few weeks....there's a brand new meaning to the word Trust for me.*smile*


A final prayer....

Jesus said."Abide in Me, and I in you... for apart from Me you can do nothing."
John 15:4-5

Our Holy Father may no longer be with us on Earth but he's back in God's Kingdom,in the arms of our Heavenly Father.Be sad no more as its God's Will to take him away...We juz have to believe that God always have His plans for us.......

I'll be back!

too tired and busy lately to update my blog lately...but i'll be back!!

i'm sick again....

My dear Vic, I know you will be reading this. I know you dont feel comfortable talking about what had been bothering and haunting you and hence, I have refrained myself from asking you. And another part of me is just so afraid to see you breaking down in front of me. Though I know I would wipe your tears, give you a big hug and tell you everything is gonna be fine. But yet, I know I would feel so damn hurt and I wont brush off the possibility that I might just drop my tears together with you. It just hurts my heart to see my close friend so down. Girl, I dont know what more can I do for you, all I can say is everything is gonna be fine, just open up your heart and embrace everything with two open arms. Alway remember, I am just eight numbers away. Just a ring and I will be there for you, be it a phone conversation, a drinking session or a heart-to-heart talking session.Be strong, girl. Look at me, I had stood strong and so must you! Loving you loads always. *hugs*

gota start off by thanking my DEAREST CLOSEST TO MY HEART MIC...hahaha!!that was wat u said to me too ya....yes..i will definitely read ur blog..really touched..thanks for respecting me and choosing not to probe & question me..no worries i'm doing fine...i juz need time..lots of it....feeling very insecure abt alot of things...probly uncertain...i honestly juz need time...i'll be strong!*smile* y cant ppl close to me be more understanding like u??no doubts in me...i dun have to say anything yet u know i how feel....

Do everything have to spelt out clear for the other party to truly know how u feel??somewhere in me i'm feeling sad & disappointed...ppl doubting my feelings,my trust and committment level,and thinking i'm taking somebody for granted....really sad to hear all these.Dun one listen with their heart anymore??shdnt we be following our heart??haiz.....honestly duno man!i'm lost again....yes...vic's lost...

i want my dose of alcohol.....badly!!!and fark i'm sick agian....stopid cough coming back...with its best friend....FLU.....

really tired...gota go sleep....and Mic...thanks!love u too!pls continue to give me that kinda support k?*smile*

Thanks ppl.....

work's crazy man!ya....back to the stressful days again.Mum will definitely nag in the near future.Used to complain & cry to her when i 1st started doing events 2 yrs back....but now i'm back to the grave i digged!haha!!love the jobscope and stuff..but the workload,amt of stress & responsiblities can really kill!brain not able to relax and rest...really crazy....but i like..wat to do?!haha

oh ya....regarding my last blog....i'm really fine ppl!steven,mic & mishi....thanks for ur msg and sms...really appreciate that ALOT!juz being a baby lah....doing fine really!and steven maybe u're rite...i do dwell when i'm alone..too bad that's me!but no worries..when i'm not alone i'll still be the chirpy & cheerful vic!*winkz*
juz 1 word to u guys...thanks!at least i know there are still ppl out there reading my blog & concern abt my life!:)

really very appreciative this week....during my 1st day of work,alot of ppl actually msg me to ask me how my 1st day of wk is....woww...*touched* that really made my day!it really did...even rachel who dun like to sms send me a sms too......i'm definitely the luckiest ger on earth!hahaha!!the love of my frds....what more can i expect?

alright....too tired to blog...brain cells all killed today as well........

y am i feeling like i do now??

i know i shd be the happiest ger on earth this week but good things juz never seem to last for me ever.No idea y either...juz never had.

i have the supposingly nicest and bestest guy ard me yet i juz can't make myself get out of my comfort zone.Flashbacks are haunting me...very badly...& everything juz comes back to me within a night.Yes....i cant believe that either.And now guilt is all i'm feeling.Trust me i dun even know where all these are coming from...dun ask me y coz i'm asking myself that now too....

Can't believe i actually broke down in front of him...vic vic...how much more drama can u get??i really did try to control but guess the journey home was simply too long...my tears cant help but stream down my cheeks.& it honestly didnt help when he held me in his arms & said everything will be alright.Him innocently not even knowing y i cry,more guilt flows within me....

like i mention in my previous blog...i'm scared...yes even till now when i'm surrounded by endless happiness.probly i always feel i dun deserve any happiness at all.i never knew i could get so vulnerable till now...crying while blogging....how much more drama mama can i get??

The last thing he said to me was that juz tell him when i'm ready to...Oh man...like how??where shd i even start?wat shd i even tell him when i myself's searching for the ans....i'm slow...ya maybe i am.or maybe i'm not?i duno!i never fail to express myself when it comes to writing...but face to face..i totally suck!that's juz me....he asked if i cry becoz i was happy or sad...the truth is...i duno again!i'm not saying that coz i'm avoiding or something...i really duno....

i already said i didnt wana start this relationship so soon rite!!vic vic look what u have done!i dunoo!!what am i suppose to do???its juz me...yes it is!the stopid vic who always think she knows everything abt LOVE but the fact is..i'm the dumbest ger ever!

is it becoz i'm truly falling for this man that's y i'm feeling so lost?is that also the reason y i'm scared of screwing everything up?afraid i might end up hurting him and myself?afraid i cant love him as much as he does in me?He keeps telling me that he cant promise me anything but he'll try.But am i even willing to try?i honestly duno.....i really dun....i'm gona hide in my shell again.Yes...what i always do when i'm lost...hide and not accept reality.I used to have frd that tell me i might have committment prob...is that really true?scared of the big C?I DUNOOOO!

i probly cant get to sleep tonight...its already 5.04am....this feeling sucks..it really does.Juz hope tmr will do me good...Life still goes on and i'll still be vic..smiling...but cant say the same abt how my heart really feel thou.

I believe i'll look back at this blog & laugh my head off for being so drama...but i'm juz blogging what i truly feels now..the drama mama emotional vic....i hate this vic but well.....

Pic of Jess's BIG Day!

Too much to write if i gota write abt wat happened during jess's wedding....shall let the pics do all the explaining.....4 words:Super Tired But Happy!*winkz*


Jess & her ANGELS!

Bride & HANDSOME boi..haha

Jimmy's BIG brothers..

i so love this pic!

At ROM..

Finally Husband & Wife

At Jess's Suite juz before the dinner

Me,Rach,Val & Rebbecca(jess's sis)

Happy Bride with her happy bridemaids

That's the REAL jess man!!

All the bridemaids..after dinner

NITEEEE!

jess's wedding finally over!really happy for her...sincerely wish her a blissful marriage.....suppose to upload the pics for her wedding but TOOOO tired to do so...i'm so blardy tired today...really am...to the extend that even sitting down's tiring!will do that in my next blog...

Manage to catch 'Hitch' today thou....cool & funny show!wat i got out of the show's "Be Yourself & You'll Be Loved".

Is it really that impt to fall in love?my heart's telling me yes but yet somewhere in me's telling me no...no idea y either man!i have been told & jolly well know that its the most fortunate thing to be loved.is it right to allow someone new into ur heart when u know that deep down someone is still there?i know i sound stupid..keep telling ppl to move on when i'm not even practising what i preach...i really tried but failed...if entering a new relationship & trying to get over the old is considered moving on..all i gota say is that i failed twice.At the end of the day i'm still where i was...not moving an inch....

I know i need time...lots of them but how long??i wish i know that too...i admit i'm a cynic...but that's me.Cynical abt lottts of things....probly i'm scared..of wat?no idea!!probly heartache's too much for me to bear and too afraid history would repeat itself & i'll end up where i was again.......i know we will never know if we dun try..but again,do i wana risk & try AGAIN?i really duno....maybe not now...i'm not pressured..that's not the word...stress is not either..probly juz plain scared.Scared of being loved..scared to love,scared to open up myself,scared to go thru everything again for the 3rd time,scared of heartaches,scared of regrets & guilt,scared of losing a frd........vic vic....what's happening???no idea..i'm so lost..hate this feeling but well its all part of life.

Mic know u'll be reading this...no worries lah i'm fine!juz talking crap...dun have to sms me to ask me what happen k?hahaha!!probly too tired as well...i really am!!woke up so blardy early ytd(4.30am mind u!)..slept so late...woke up at 9am today..and still not asleep now..ARGGHHHH!!!!i want my 24hr of sleep back!!!!!!*cry*

MIC GER!!!

mic....mic.....mic....mic....mic!!!!!

i'm missing u...miss u so so much...!!hahaha!!i'm no les lah!now that i'm 98% recovered!!!DRINKING SESSION SHALL OFFICIALLY RESUME NEXT WEEK!!!!!yes u heard me rite.....

i've been out of action for so long!1 mth of non-alcholic day's TERRIBLE!i'm dying!!i want my weekly dose of shots...vodka lime!all nite dancing at zouk!

Thinking of it juz makes me SMILE man!!!seriously i want my alchohol NOW!yes..even if its sucky beer!!ICE COLD BEER!!!

Romeo & Juliet:::ACT 1 SCENE 5

Definitely one of my fave scene...and that's THE way to flirt man...*smile*

Romeo & Juliet (ACT 1 SCENE 5)

Romeo: If I profane with my unworthiest hand.This holy shrine,the gentle fine is this:My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand.To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.

Juliet: Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,Which mannerly devotion shows in this;For saints have hands that pilgrims' hands do touch,And palm to palm is holy palmers' kiss.

Romeo: Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?

Juliet: Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.

Romeo: O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do;They pray -- grant thou, lest faith turn to despair.

Juliet: Saints do not move, though grant for prayers' sake.

Romeo: Then move not, while my prayer's effect I take.Thus from my lips, by yours,my sin is purged.

Juliet: Then have my lips the sin that they have took.

Romeo: Sin from thy lips? O trespass sweetly urged!Give me my sin again.

Juliet: You kiss by the book.

4 more days to Jess's Wedding

juz reached home....met up with the gers for nearly the whole day today!rach & mic finally got their dress...suppose to be feeling happy after meeting them but somehow i'm sitting in front of my com feeling pretty down...no idea why...probly coz i'm too tired and hungry.My back's giving me prob again,feeling rather fustrated.

not hungry when i was out with the gers..so didnt eat.Now that i'm home..feeling soooo hungry!lazy to cook maggie...nothing to eat at home....Arrgghh!!feel like eating handmade noodles so badly...........maybe will call kel later ask him if he wants to go eat supper....I'M REALLY HUNGRY!!need to talk to someone as well..who else better than my guru......

my cough's finally getting better...no longer coughing like before..still will cough but at least not as bad....that's one good new for sure..after 3 weeks of suffering man!

too tired & hungry to blog liao.....

It's raining man!

its the weekend again....how fast ya!and it's finally raining!!well at least it did this morning when i woke up....it was pouring man!!thanks for the ride this morning kel!appreciate that ALOT~!!paiseh couldnt make it for breakfast...but supper again anytime man!hahaha!!

had a little 'relative outing' today...grandpa's death anniversary so everyone sort of met up to pray.Afterwhich me,mama,2 aunties and 3 cousins went to town jalan jalan...had dinner...town was damn packed!!always hated going there during the wkends but well....no choice!hahaha!!it was all good anyway,havent gone out like that for a long long time......

meeting the gers tmr to finalise the stuff to do on jess's wedding!how to 'torture' jimmy...hahha!!as well as to help out jess lah..she seems really stress lately over her wedding....wow...5 more days to her wedding man!!before that will meet up with rach 1st to go buy her dress.She hor..aiyo!!wat else can i say!!hahah!!have not been attending mass regularly...I'LL BE GOING MASS TMR...i hope!hahahah!yes...i will go for confession next week...THAT i really would be....hahaha!!

saw this really cute little twin star toy at cineleisure today!!!but was hesitating coz i got nowhere else to put my toys anymore!!gona revamp my room...soon!hahah!!yes i really will..in order to accomodate more stuff i've got to....i sooooo love little twin star!!and daffy duck.....havent seen him ard much after Warner Bro close down...how sad!and yes...my best frd..Monkeys!hahaha!!mic if u r reading this,stop laughing!nothing wrong with liking monkeys alright!have a new liking for Spongebob!!!havent been collecting yet but would love to get a Patrick soft toy thou...haha!!he's so adorable!that super blur look..haha!!!

woke up so early this morning....so real tired now......lets' pray that it'll rain tonight.......PLS DO!

When will i get well??

yes..i'm STILL gona complain abt my sickening cough....haiz!!kept coughing at wk till everyone's like..VIC!u alright???haiz........dun even dare to pick up the phone!cant even speak a full sentence w/o coughing!!and my voice sucks now man!!

Rach still didnt manage to get a dress!!aiyo!!!she keep saying still early...she hor!!never change her being last min habbit!

Told Kenny to keep a look out of nice big face watch when he goes Bangkok...and he really bought me one!!hahaha!!!so nice of him.....design a little funny but ok lah..nice!hahhaa!!!STILL i want my DKNY watch............I WANT!!!

Jess juz email me her wedding pics...so nice!!hahah!!i also want to get married liao lor!*envy*

Really gota attend Novena this week onwards already....duno y but juz wana.Havent been getting my peace ever since i fallen sick.Nothing seems right or going my way.In fact feeling pretty miserable on the inside.Sick as i may be but its only through these times that i realise how impt my frds were to me.Frds that bother to send me little sms to see how i'm doing,frds that avoided food that they like to accomodate me,frds that bought me cough sweets,frds that call & ask how i'm doing every now & then,frds that reccomanded me different cough remedies,frds that told me to stop clubbing & drinking(cant believe it!!),frds that even bought me a get well cutie bear that absolutely made my day!Trust me....all these will always remain in my heart.I always appreciate little gestures like that from frds....love u all peeps!Console myself at the end of the day that its not that bad to fall sick...coz u truly see who's there for u......*smile*

Taken my medicine....time to Zzzzz......*damn*

Stopid ME!

i actually forgot to bring my wallet out today!!ARGGH!cant take cab!!cant draw $$!!luckily in the afternoon met up with mama..else!!

mama bought me story books today...hahah!!happy happy!so many books i wana buy... kino at bugis got nothing much...still prefer the one at taka...but still manage to get 2 books..hehe!!

still no sign of improvement for my coughing man!!haiz...mama juz bought a new cough syrup for me to try...ewww!!its terrible when i'm in an enclosed area..like the bus,a room,cab......SUCKS man!!2 weeks of torture......ARGGHHHH!!!and the air's so bad lately.....!havent had spicy food for the last 2 weeks...juz added a LITTLE chilli to my wantan mee earlier and i cough like hell....end up not finishing it...HAIZ!!!only had yusheng for dinner...now so blardy hungry!in fact i'm always hungry lately..ever since i had that stopid cough & sore throat,either i'll skip my meal or end up not finishing.......SAD SAD SAD!!i wana eat good food!!!!!*cry*

Val juz sms me say wana go dbO!ARRGGHHH!!!!CANNOT GO..........BUHUHUHU!!!!!1st time rejecting her when it comes to going dbO!!never go zouk for steven's bday as well...HAIZ!!!dun even remind me....I'LL BE BACK!!

Gota wk tmr liao...after wk will go shop shop for rach's dress!she dun have much time left...7 more days to jess's wedding!!hahaha!!

Oh man...sales sales sales everywhere!!so many things so little $$$!!!i wana go shoppping!!Joy!!when u coming back from aussie???miss u liao!!hahaha!!!

Mama start nagging again.......time to eat sucky medicine AGAIN!!!!!*sulk*

Wat a Week man....

haiz....wat a week man!!sick sick sick..thought i had recovered but was so wrong...my coughing got worse...very worse!juz seen a doc again..MORE MEDICINE!!!*puke* eat till i'm feeling so weak....havent been eating much lately as well...life's so miserable!!*cry*

Yes Mic i got ur msg!!i wana go UK funfair too!!wait till we get better ok??Very soon i hope!!sorry havent been answering ur calls...either i was asleep or didnt wana talk....will call u to chat when i get better alright?Thanks for ur concern as well...*muack+hugz* send my apologies to steven as well....

Oh ya finally got my dress!!yeah!!and guess wat..its on 50%!!i'll be cursing myself if i bought it before the sales man!!CK Tangs rockz!!hahah!!so happy when i saw that it was on sales!and i LOVE the dress!!so nice....hahah!!wow...9 more days to jess's wedding!!how time flies man!!its always such a blessing to attend weddings...somehow everyone'll be in the 'i wana get married mood'...well at least i would!hahah!!

not gona 'lor-soh' too much today...gota go take my sucky medicine & zzzz AGAIN!!!

Its a blardy HOT day!

Happy happy day today!!haha!!went out with mama in the afternoon and we bought quite alot of stuff!!my walking atm...hahaha!!!bought 2 bottoms...some cosmetics and a nice top!!mama bought 2 tops as well.....YEAH!!shopping never fails to make my day...esp when i dun have to pay!!hahaha!!but i treated her to lunch at chinaaquare...so i'm not THAT bad...hohoho!!

Haiz.....my shopping list's getting longer and longer each day!!so many things so little $$!!1st on my list is that DKNY watch....LOVVVVEEE it..but close to 200+...thou i like the white face one better..STILL its like $170+!!*cry*!!mama's gona sponsor half for my dress liao so dun want her to sponsor my watch as well....BUT!!haiz!lets see what else...oh saw a pair of pumps at chinasquare juz now!!49 bucks!!but its cute thou....if i buy mama surely nag say buy shoes again?!wana buy sneakers as well...clothes..SKIRTS!wana watch Romeo & Juliet's theatre play.....Arghhhh!!!!going crazy juz thinking!!

Yes MIC..haha!!know me so well rite....know i'll not eat thinking no one in the world knows!hahah!!i cant swallow pills like u alright!!can swallow a 50cent coin size pill...!haha!!but yes i'll TRY to take them regularly and get well asap so can go drinking with u asap!didnt know u are so naggy....hohohoho!Mic know u'll be reading u..wana go UK funfair????*winkzzzzzz*

have been talking to izaar lately..to be honest other than kelvin,izaar's the next best person to talk to man!i enjoy talking to like minded ppl...engaging in conversations that will blow me away!!dun know how others feel but i'll do anything for a good conversation...not easy to find alright!i always feel that i shd go join some debate session coz there's always something i can say at the end of someone else's sentence..yet ONLY with kelvin & izaar,i simply become speechless!like a little ger listening to God speak..yes they are kinda THAT powerful!hahah!!that's y whenever i have doubts or unsure abt stuff or the deeper things in life...they'll be the ones i'll call..yes only them!!u can always chat/talk with other ppl but its juz different!!or shd i say i'm different...i need more than juz plain advises which i can tell myself if you know what i mean!(i'm pretty powerful myself..i think!haha!so i'll need someone more POWERFUL!)

but i'll chose izaar over kelvin coz we share the same sense of humor!!DRY SENSE!!i like!!hahah!!we're always sarcastic to each other yet we'll never take it serious...i always say he's the perfect example of an idiot..& u guys go think what he'll reply!hahaha!!!if u have been following my blog since long long ago...yes i did say izaar's the kinda guy i like!never ashame to admit that...hahaha!!!like guys with the 'mature/cool' kinda humor...not the u know..irritating/lame/try too hard/dirty kind.

Alright..gota go watch telly di!!havent bathe either....CIAO!!

Wat's happening to my VOICE?!

Was forced to go see a doc today..mama threaten to not let me out of the house unless i go see a doc!!!*CRYYYY*now gota eat medicine somemore..and i'm sure a pills idiot...damn!!!

juz had dinner with the gers....lazy to download the pictures so will leave it for tmr...hahah!!jess has 'grown' again!!!Wowowowow!!was discussing abt her wedding...so so cannot wait!!!less than 15 days!!scary rite......but so exciting!!gota go search for my morning and evening dress di...like as if its my wedding man!!gave the gers a ppt slideshow that i did up not too long ago(valentine day pressie for them)...juz recieve a very touching sms from jess regarding the ppt,its really nothing lah..juz feel like doing alittle something.Glad she liked it too!!*smilez*i love u too jess!!hahah!!

tmr gota head to the gym...havent been to the gym since last week...somemore was ny..then last few days sick never go!after that might go dinner with parents or go watch constantine with rach!!YEAH!!!finally geta watch that show liao....

haiz...gota go bathe then eat sucky medicine liao...else mama will never stop nagging!!!ARRGGHH!!!and my voice sounds scary now man.....EEEEWWWW!!!!i'm like Shrek!!will change when it past midnight!!!haha!!

There're so many food i wana eat!!But cant...

Valentine day but never recieve flowers...no pressies...*cry* mum was juz saying this yr no flowers ah....damn!my cupid's not wking today man!How sad!

slack at home...having coughing fits all day so no point going out anyway!having block nose and everything's tasteless!!blahhhh.....so didnt eat much either....feels like shit to be sick man!mum's endless nagging......Argghhh!!!have been eating shity food lately...mum cook porridge,noodle soup...and all can't add chilli...juz now dip a little and i choke till mum scolded me....BU HUHUHUHUHU!!!*sulk*

meeting the gers for dinner tmr!!gona 'lou yu sheng'!!hahaha!!so happy can see the gers again....going jimmy's dad place to eat.But well everything'll be tasteless so what's the point...

damn!!till now still havent manage to catch Constantine!!wanting to watch the show since last yr when i saw the shots.....rach says tmr after dinner or wed will watch with me.HOPE SO!!!!so many good shows lately...all i wana watch!!wana watch Hitch too!and how can i forget SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS!!!!YEAH!!!cant wait.......

Boring day today so nothing much to blog..........did someone juz say its Valentines' Day??