jess's wedding finally over!really happy for her...sincerely wish her a blissful marriage.....suppose to upload the pics for her wedding but TOOOO tired to do so...i'm so blardy tired today...really am...to the extend that even sitting down's tiring!will do that in my next blog...
Manage to catch 'Hitch' today thou....cool & funny show!wat i got out of the show's "Be Yourself & You'll Be Loved".
Is it really that impt to fall in love?my heart's telling me yes but yet somewhere in me's telling me no...no idea y either man!i have been told & jolly well know that its the most fortunate thing to be loved.is it right to allow someone new into ur heart when u know that deep down someone is still there?i know i sound stupid..keep telling ppl to move on when i'm not even practising what i preach...i really tried but failed...if entering a new relationship & trying to get over the old is considered moving on..all i gota say is that i failed twice.At the end of the day i'm still where i was...not moving an inch....
I know i need time...lots of them but how long??i wish i know that too...i admit i'm a cynic...but that's me.Cynical abt lottts of things....probly i'm scared..of wat?no idea!!probly heartache's too much for me to bear and too afraid history would repeat itself & i'll end up where i was again.......i know we will never know if we dun try..but again,do i wana risk & try AGAIN?i really duno....maybe not now...i'm not pressured..that's not the word...stress is not either..probly juz plain scared.Scared of being loved..scared to love,scared to open up myself,scared to go thru everything again for the 3rd time,scared of heartaches,scared of regrets & guilt,scared of losing a frd........vic vic....what's happening???no idea..i'm so lost..hate this feeling but well its all part of life.
Mic know u'll be reading this...no worries lah i'm fine!juz talking crap...dun have to sms me to ask me what happen k?hahaha!!probly too tired as well...i really am!!woke up so blardy early ytd(4.30am mind u!)..slept so late...woke up at 9am today..and still not asleep now..ARGGHHHH!!!!i want my 24hr of sleep back!!!!!!*cry*
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