ONE is good?

Unless u are an only child, if not u will never in ur life understand the agony of being one. The impression that ppl always hv abt only child is that they are so 'lucky', ya rite. No doubt that all the attention will be on us, parents will give us nothing but the best, 'sharing' is not a common word heard. But all that comes with a great price. If u think that only child will hv all the freedom in the world,wrong. Only child will hv everything their way,not exactly.

Since young i wasnt allowed to do alot of things.I lost count of how many birthday parties i missed, how i need to convince my mum for days before i could go for a 1 night camp, in fact i wasnt allowed to express my emotions freely either. After i grad and got myself a job, i wasnt allowed to stop wking. Ok dun get this the wrong way, my mum wasnt abusing me but she juz felt that one shd not take a break and do nothing. And there goes my stop wking to complete my degree plan. I never knew what independence & freedom was till now. And the worse part, pressure from the ppl ard(in fact only relatives), higher expectations coz our parents only have ONE. You know how smetimes when u have siblings, u can sort of push the blame? If the other one doesnt go back for dinner, did not contribute to the family, scolded the mum or is juz being plain unfilial, its OK. But smehow to an only child, even small matter such as talking louder to ur mum or said smething inappropriate is a good enuff reason to put us to jail. I'm definitely not complaining abt my mum here and i duno if i'll get strike by lightning for saying this, but at times,i'm really glad that i have my own plc. Despite staying alone for the past 9mths,i hv no complains, the thought of staying at my mum's plc never once came into my mind.Doing things my way,being responsible for myself,it juz feels so good.

I duno how true this is but i feel that parents with more kids tend to be more 'chill', more 'relax' and probably less sensitive, i really duno. At least that seems to be the case for Toh's parents. With my mum, smetimes i really gota watch wat i say coz i dun wana be saying the wrong things and trust me that's all it takes to cause a drama. Over the yrs, i learnt to keep quiet and if anyone is to ask how i can do 'selective listening', yes, i learnt that since young. Ppl or relatives always think i'm so 'guai', so quiet, always listen to mummy,i can only say i was taught well. Bleah!

Take this evening for example, i believe i might have said or given an inappropriate reply to my mum. To me, its really juz a harmless, straight forward reply but i'm sure she's thinking otherwise. I duno how things will be in the next few days, probably my late grandpa will come scold me, my aunties will start telling me i shouldnt have said that to my mum, my mum refusing to talk to me....seriously, i've seen worse kids who did worse things to their mums. So for now, I, THE ONE, will choose to believe that i'm still safe.