this whole month sucked really...its in fact one of the downs of my life,cant allow myself to fall any deeper..where,i have no idea.One can say i'm cheating myself but who cares!its not easy to be all cheerful when deep down i'm so not,smiley when i feel like crying,hang out w frds when all i wana do is to stay in my room to comfort myself in front of the mirror..but hey,no one told me that life's gona be a bed of roses..no one mention that everything in life will go my way..SO?The cruel fact is that life goes on...we shd be spreading joy,not misery to the ppl ard us...
Many will say Vic..so cynical,skeptical abt everything,i guess i am...and i do not see anything wrong with that.i'm no saint..no doubt i'm optimistic abt alot in life but hey..we cant be hiding in our own lalaland all our lives!u can say i'm being hard on myself by doing so but dun we only learnt thru the hard way?i'm juz trying to be realistic..it's alright to be sad & complain/whine coz we are afterall human,we have emotions..things like that,beyond our control.Wat next?to be a loser & whine 24/7?let the whole world know how miserable we r?is sympathy a remedy?probably....
ppl who knows me will know that i'm very open when it comes to sharing...can talk abt anything under the sun..but 2 things i dun quite share - My Love Life & Family issues,2 that are close to my heart so there's really no need to share except to 1 or 2 close buds.
so much running thru my mind coz alot of frds ard me havent been feeling too happy.My good buds will know that I never quite say things to keep them in their lalaland but will bring them back to sucky earth..haha!how difficult is it to say nice words man?"ohh..no worries,everything will be alright" "dun cry,its not your fault" duhh!!when we are not in the right mind to analyze,we need rational and constructive advises..hmmm...guess this doesnt apply to all ya..so i'm truly blessed to have frds that will always pull me back to yes...sucky earth!i dun need ppl to keep telling me things will be alright..i'll feel better as time goes by when I'M NOT!CRAP...
Alright...enough of the depressing stuff..on a lighter note..IT'S MID WEEK!!hehe!!& 1 MORE DAY TO PAYDAY!!broke,so cant go drinking till then..but i will on FRI!hahaha!!going wala wala...heard so much abt that place from jess & val so its time to go c c look look..haha!!it has been a long time since the 3 of us went drinking coz val's soo busy lately..well we're all slaves for $$..who isnt ya!
ARGHH!!all the drilling & knocking from next door's killing me!!!STOPPPPP!!!!damn irritating!!!
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